OLCHLT(Kim Version)
𝙊𝙇𝘾𝙃𝙇𝙏-𝙊𝙣𝙡𝙮 𝙇𝙤𝙫𝙚 𝘾𝙖𝙣 𝙃𝙪𝙧𝙩 𝙇𝙞𝙠𝙚 𝙏𝙝𝙞𝙨(𝙆𝙞𝙢 𝙑𝙚𝙧𝙨𝙞𝙤𝙣)
It's two weeks since I sent the clip. Chay did not reply. I hope he forgives me for everything I did. I know Porchay is a stubborn boy. I know it's not going to be easy. But I'm ready to wait for him for my whole life.
My life sucks. I am the youngest son of the main family of Theerapanyakul. Kim Kimhan Theerapanyakul. For my whole life I never bowed in front of anyone. Not even my father. Not even when he held the muzzle of a gun on the forehead of a ten year old Kim and pulled the trigger.(Of course I knew that pa would not kill me just like that).
But this boy is making me go crazy. Those eyes of him, big and glossy. That straight nose. Those lips, pink and plump(they really look so kissable). That mole beside his left eye, the quite prominent collar bone, that perfect figure, the milkish white limbs, those soft cheeks, messy hair and perfect as*, everything about him is making me insane.
I am ready to do anything to get him back. I'm ready to give up my life for him, ready to take a thousand lives for him, ready to give up everything for him. I can leave this whole world behind just to be with him. I want to leave my scarred past, and be happy with him. I am ready to bow in front of him, beg him to come back, even if my dignity, my pride, breaks into millions of pieces.
The first day I met him at my show I already liked him very much. At that time I didn't even know that he is Porsche's brother. Those doe eyes of him are mesmerizing. He asked me to give him guitar lessons, but I could not say yes because I knew that I've other works.
But once I got to know that he is Porsche's brother I unknowingly felt happy. At that time I did not understand why I was happy, but now I know. Now I know that I was happy because I got to spend time with him. Even if I fooled my heart that I just wanted to get out information, I know whenever I was with him I felt happy. I even felt relaxed.
Then when he confessed to me, I could feel my heartbeat increasing rapidly. I felt as though my heart is going to gouge out from my chest. I could feel my inner demons lingering and trying to break out. I wanted to kiss him so badly, I wanted to f*ck him, to make him mine. I wanted to show to the world that he is mine and only mine.
But I had no choice. I could not choose to make him mine. My first priority was to keep him safe. He was important to me. And I can do everything for a person who is important to me. If pa is planning something big I'll not let him include Chay in it. I'll keep him safe with my life.
But now I can't bear the distance between us. Is it not possible to be with you and also protect you? I want us to be together. I know you're not happy, neither am I. Even if you try to show that you do not care, I know in your heart you still love me.
I'm lamenting my decision Chay. Leaving you was the worst decision I ever took in my life. And I'm regretting my decision for every single moment. If I could go back in time I would never let myself leave you. I would beat my stupid self until he understood your importance. And if he still couldn't understand then I would kill him.
Author
Oh Kim if you killed your previous self won't you yourself also die😅. Porchay is sometimes right. You're really stupid🤭.
Kim
You dare call me stupid author and I'm going to kill you instead😈. Only Chay has the right to call me stupid.
Author
Okkie😣. Let's get back to story.
I suddenly felt jealous of my previous self. He would always get Chay's attention. Chay would always follow him and try to get his attention. Not like now. He would not ignore me like he does now.
I'm feeling frustrated right now. I really don't know what to do. I fix my hair with my hand which were falling upon my eyes. Right now I just want to dissapear in the darkness forever. Isn't it possible for me to forget Chay?
No it's not. I know. I know cause I tried. I tried to forget him. But the more I tried to forget him, the more all of his memories came flooding. His big eyes, his pink lips, his messy hair, his cute embarrassed smile, his slim but well developed body, his perfect as*-
Wait! What the hell are you thinking about Kim. This is not you at all. No no it's not me. It must be the alcohol.
I am not a great fan of alcohol. But I'm not a light drinker either. But from the last week I had been drinking a lot. I looked at the glass in my hand. Then I gulped the liquid all at once. It was cold but as it went down through my throat I felt it burning my insides.
Suddenly my head started bursting out with pain. A falsh of memory came back as I closed my eyes...
It was 2 days after my argument with Porchay at the bar. I was at Yok's bar. Porchay was sitting in front of me, his back towards me, and playing games.
He was immersed in his own world. I did not disturb him. I silently stood at the bar counter and lazily leaned on it.
The major and minor family are in war right now. Porsche, as far as I got information, has gone to help my brother Kinn. He left his brother at Yok's bar as he thought it would be the safest for him. But I know better.
Vegas is inhuman. He has no feelings. And I know all the lame tricks of the b*stard. But he doesn't know that if he is bad then I'm worse. I could feel that something was going to happen. So I myself came to keep a check on Porchay.
I already had an idea that he was going to use Chay against the main family as he is Porsche's brother. Vegas has a really complicated personality. He can make people believe in him and also hate him and fear him. He really hides his real self well. It's the only thing he can do better than me.
As expected soon some people came. I did not even needed to ask them that why were they here or who sent them.
I quickly finished the fight by killing all of them and, of course Porchay not knowing. He was still playing games. I took a last glance at him before leaving. I went out and lighted a cigarette.
I heard a small shriek of horror from inside as I let the smoke out of my mouth and saw it fade into the air. I sighed cause I know that Chay must be horrified to see the bloody scene in front of his eyes. But right now I can't go inside to explain. I was too angry on the as*holes who tried to touch Chay. MY CHAY(if I really am in a position to call him mine).
I know that if I go in front of him he would definitely confront me and I cannot guarantee that I'll be patient enough to hear him out. My bloodlust is not satisfied yet. And I need more blood to satisfy myself, because right now I'm not his sweet Wik but the dark Kim. Kim Kimhan Theerapanyakul, my real self which is dark, ruthless. The side of myself which I hate.
I open my eyes breathing heavily as the vision faded. I clasped my hand tightly forgetting that I was still holding the glass. It shattered into pieces as blood trickled down my hands.
I did not feel any pain as my heart was hurting much more. One of my bodyguards rushed inside as he heard the crashing sound.
Liam(Kim's bodyguard)
“Are you alright Khun Kim?”
I just nodded in reply and motioned him to leave. I got up from the chair and tied my hand with a cloth to stop the blood from flowing. I did not had any intention to do a first aid.
I picked up my phone. Still no message from Chay. I was feeling so hurt and sad that I really wanted to cry. But no tears would come out of my eyes as I never cried since the day mae passed away.
I suddenly typed something without realising:
Kim
“I miss you Chay. Can I please come back. I promise I'll not leave anymore. I promise I'll not lie anymore. I love you.”
I quickly deleted the message as I realised what I wrote. But that was the truth. I miss you Chay. I really do. Is it not possible for you to give me one more chance. Only one. I want to say I'm sorry. I want to say that please forgive me. I want to say that...that I love you Chay. I love you.
Yes I realised late. But I did realise. Because my heart is hurting like hell. This kind of pain I've never received. I know this is love.
Because only love can hurt like this...
I took my car keys and left the room.
Author
A little spoiler for the next chapter😁
Kim
"Please don't leave Chay."
Kim hugged Chay from behind.
Kim
"Give me just one more chance, will you Chay?"
Porchay was struggling in Kim's arms.
Kim's voice was no more than a whisper.
Porchay stopped struggling. His heartbeat started increasing rapidly. At last Kim said it. Those three words. Porchay's ears had been waiting for ages to hear them. And now that he heard them, he just wanted to turn around and hug Kim forgetting everything.
Kim was now resting his head on Porchay's shoulder. He looked like a defeated soldier, someone who had been defeated so badly that he does not even have the strength to stand up.
Kim
"Do you love me Chay?"
Kim asked in a tone nearly inaudible.
Chay was confused as he did not understood what to do or say. The only thing he remembered right now was what Kim said when Chay asked him if he ever loved Chay.
Chay closed his eyes as a drop of tear escaped his eye. Then he opened his eyes and smiled sadly.
Was all he said before using his full force to break out from Kim's arms and running out of the bar.
It took a moment for Kim to analyze the situation before he ran out after Porchay. But it was too late. Porchay was already at the middle of the road and a truck was coming with full speed. Kim could do nothing except shouting,
Author
Merry Christmas everyone 🥰
Liam(Kim's bodyguard)
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I don’t understand why always the prettiest moment have to be a dream..!!??
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