Episode 1

Rina POV

"Bang bang bang!!",the stupid sound that disturbed me from my deep slumber.

 " What the fuck!?" I thought.

" Rina in the count of ten if your still in your god damn bed i swear ill cut you into pieces and make you eat your own flesh!!" Shouted by my  oh so loving bestfriend Sarah.

" What do you want from me Sarah! Its fucking 6:30 am in the morning!Just wait you bitch!!" I shouted. That bitch will get what she deserves.

   I ran to the door and opened it, very much ready to kill the person beyond, but instead of finding my bestfriend, there stood the last person i wanted to see. The person i bound to forget. The reason why i ran away. The person who promise me things that he'd just break. My bastard ex-boyfriend. Yup you heard it right bitches! This handsome male standing before me is my first love and the person who made me have trust issues. What is he doing here?! 

 "Rina" he greeted me like its the most natural thing to do. I just stared at him and quickly turned my expression into a cold one where he can freeze to death.

" What do you want? " i asked coldly.

"What's with that expression Nana? I saw this guy lurking outside your apartment so i ask him what he wants and he said your name,  telling me he is your friend and just dont know if its really your place so i helped him." She said with so much happiness in her face seeming like she's so proud of what she did. She's doesnt know about this part of my past. She's the firstfriend i had when i moved here and we just kinda click so quickly become besties. I know how horrible bestfriend i am.Its just that i don't want to open up that chapter of my life ever again. I mean what for? Its the past and until now im so sure i will not see them again EVER.

I turned to face Sarah. 

"Sarah he is not my friend and i don't know him, just get inside so the stranger can just go fuck himself somewhere else!" I said angrily. 

"Whoow whhow easy tiger."  Sarah said while raising her hand as if surrendering on something, well obviously to me. 

"Mr. Sexy, its seems that my friend here is not cool about you so i will advise you to just take the day off and try again some other time." Sarah said while entering my house and waving the jerk goodbye. And before the man had the chance to protest, i slammed  the door to his face. Haa!! Thats what he get. 

  Even though the door is already close i still heard what he said loud and clear. 

" Rina ill let today go, but ill comeback and claim what is rightfully mine. You manage to hide this past years but now that i found you there's no running away again. Your mine Rina. Mine." i heard him said and i shivered. Then i heard the restraining sound of his footsteps. I sighed. What does he still want from me? He hurted and broke me already.

"What was that?!" Sarah asked giving me a skeptical look. I just look at her still trying to figure out what exactly happened 5 minutes ago. 

" Rina Aguas you better start explaining now bitch! Who is that handsome man and why are you so angry at him!" She continued. I sighed again and start walking to the kitchen to make breakfast. I know Sarah followed me so i started my oh so enticing life story.

" He's my ex-boyfriend." I said, responding to her question.

"Ahaa~~What?!" She responded indicating me to continue.

"Sarah you know i love you right? Your my bestfriend since i came here 4 years ago and im sorry if this is the only time i will tell you about my past. I should have told you earlier and im really sorry i didn't". I told her giving her my most pleading look. She signed and smiled at me.

"It's fine, i forgive you for keeping it from me but your going to tell me right? I mean im not pressuring into anything, i know you'll tell me when your ready." I gave her  a smile and continued. We both sit on the dining table. 

" You know i came from New york right? And that i came from an orphanage that's why i dont have any relatives anymore?" She nodded. "Its not true, well yes i lived in New York but im not an orphan, i..i..i... have a father. I never meet my mother because she died giving birth to me and i hate to admit my cliche life story but my father blamed me for her loss. He never loved me, i grow up to an abusive father who doesn't know anything but to blame me for my mother's death that i obviously don't have any control with! But my father can't see that. When i was still little he'll just shout at me and push me around. When i turned 11 years old that the beating started. I'll be punish for tiniest things and i know better than to complain and depend myself  or else i'll get worst. How can i ?! An 11 years old little girl defend her self from her own  father!?" I'm already crying hysterically and Sarah stood up to hug me and whispered soothing words for me to calm down. It helped. When she felt im already okay she once again sat on the chair.

" Rina if its to much for you, we can talk this out some other day" Sarah said while patting my hands. 

" No.. Im fine i just get too emotional whenever i remember my childhood" I gave her a reassuring smile and continued.

 " In school i become loner and always afraid because of my father that i guessed attracted bullies towards me. Yes they did not hurt me physically but mentally they did, calling me names and always pulling pranks on me. I didn't have friends back then. I was so lonely and i pitied myself and started to think how worthless and ugly i am. No scratch that I KNOW im exactly that. Then the thought of killing myself bugged me." Sarah gasped. And looked at me shocked. I think my current personality will not mirror what i just said.  

"At   age of 14 i started cutting but i guess i still want to live because the cuts are  not that deep. It only stopped when i meet Xander, Xander David my ex-boyfriend. He's a year older that me. I was 16 then when i bumped into him when i was rushing to go to the library. The books im holding shattered so he helped me picked them up. He is the school's badboy but never bully anyone, he just seems to be always into fights and have that dark aura oozing around him making anybody flinched. But when we bumped to each other i just feel something different. I instantly feel attracted towards him. Im not scared of him. Since then were always together at school. My father is still the same but atleast im happy with Xander at school so i started to dream about my future. I fell in love with him that when he asked me to be his girlfriend i said yes. When he knew about my father, he's so angry that he wants to kill him. He helped me sneaked out one night to run away from my abusive father. He got me a small apartment because he can't bring me to his house saying his parents will just probably sent me back home.  He always visits me and helped me survive. He's so loving that my world revolved around him. Thank goodness we only kissed and didn't gone far from that. Xander is sweet and all, that i didn't saw the real him. The cruel bastard he is."I said now fuming, just remembering that day makes me want to destroy all the things on sight. 

" Then one day on our lunch break im trying to find him but what i saw made me want to be just plain dead so i wont feel the hurt i felt that day. I saw him kissing some slutty girl that is on his lap. When he saw me, he just smirk at me. He said and i quote "Rina sorry but i didn't really loved you, i'm sorry i tried but just can't. Your so ugly." He said then laugh with the other people at the cateferia. I felt my world just crumbled. My mind just become blank. What i felt back then can not even compare to the hurt i felt whenever my father beat me. So i just run not caring for the afternoon class. I run to the apartment and packed my things. I went straight to the airport with the little money i have, money i saved from the allowances Xander gave me. And took the first flight here." I finished crying. Its so sad. I looked at Sarah and saw her crying too. She hugged me and we cried together. Yayy that what friends for.

"Why are you crying? Its not like your the one who got fooled." I teased to light up the mood. She hit me lightly and untangled her self from me.

" You bitch!! I hate you!! Why didn't you tell me that your hurting like this!!" She is still hitting me while wailing. 

"Im okay Sarah. Its all in the past. I'd move on and your my family now. Im happy and that's what important." I smiled despite knowing im just fooling myself.

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