After Death

Chapter 1:The new beginning

In an unknown place with an unknown time, an unknown light particles are scattered in the vast void of darkness and are swirling towards the middle with a speed not visible to the ***** eye.If looked carefully you would think it is a galaxy... or is it?

But if you could hear thoughts and you're here you would be surprise, but not as surprise when you discovered that you're here and are hearing thoughts...

I'm...

That's right I'm Cl...

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No! It doesn't matter anymore,I no longer need that name... Yes! coz I'm dead and that pathetic name came from my pathetic parents...

What,You say unfilial?

Tsk!... You can only say that because you didn't go through what I experienced.Even if you do, don't compare me with you... coz I'm different... yeah!

The way I think is not the same way you think.The way you suffer is not the same way I suffer.

Suffer...? What is that?

I don't know it at all.I suffer because I don't.I feel pained but I feel it's fake.I'm lonely but I'm not.How can I know if I am I?

If you say his right because that's the predecessor,scientist says or the obvious is,I say it's wrong...!

What...? Do they have the evidence... the absolute evidence from the beginning with no end tracing it to the tip and onto nothingness?

You say I also don't have the evidence but what can you do if I oppose it? How can you prove that when I say it's wrong then it meant I mean it isn't right?

Absolute truth... If they have discovered it then why does day after day there's a new discovery?You say it's nonsensical but how can you prove that what you're thinking is the meaning of what I meant to think?

What is human?They say average humans can only use 10% of their brain... then I say I believe it... What's the point of the remaining percent if not used?Because we... no, you human's needs balance right? That's why I don't want to be a human... I am not a human... and I'm not willing to be one... if it must have a limit.

I do believe what I believe and no one can change it... because I'm different.

You say I'm a madman then I say you're an Idiot.What can you do about it?Feeling hurt? Feeling hurt or not,offended or not, you can't deny that you're a human that mades mistake day after day without realizing it and a being that had its common meaning found on a dictionary...

While I am a being that no words can discribe.I am not on any book... Even if there is... no one can discribe and no one can understand so no one will read it and no one will know my existance...I say it hurts but at the same time I felt bliss.A billions of books worth of my discription is not enough...or so I thought but I don't know where I am.

All I see is darkness.I don't even know if I can see or not, I don't hear anything, I don't even know if I have a body... all I know is I can think.All I have is conciousness.

All this... I don't know.Is this what they said,only conciousness would remain after death...?

Ahh...

Lonely...

It's lonely... fake or not I don't care anymore.

I also felt bliss coz I felt loneliness...

Eh...? What is this...?

I felt pain? Regret? No! I don't feel regret at all... I'm not a human after all.Infact I'm quite excited because I felt... emotions.It naturally comes by to humans but what if they know the truth? They believe in things that cancels or negates emotions.

Emotions... Humans can feel it but they can't control it... Someone... Something mighty control them... but I won't allow it... I want my own,because I am me... even if I am not... I will force it to be me.

It's like I'm the driver given with a straight road,even if you wan't to go straight to the distination I won't allow it... I won't allow the road to control me... coz It is made by someone so I would rather turn towards a cliff or to a mountain full of beasts...If I can't control the car then I would jump from it... If I can't control my body then I would also get my soul out of it... I would chose what I want to chose and no one can stop me... you can only wish that I also want to go to you're distination or not at all.

I'm a madman you call,but I don't care, coz I would also thought the same on my mind but I'm not the subject but you.

Ahh...

What's the time...?

Is there even a thing called time...?

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Just like that, the ma... the light parti... hmm... the galaxy or whatever you call it, had it's own never ending thoughts till eternity coz of stubborness, never admitting he had a limits or just a madman.You would wonder how he did it but he did did it and that's the truth.Like he said no one can discribe him.

Untill 10 thousands of years have past and that seemingly scattered particles have now become a huge giant ball of light... and that's it, only a huge giant ball of light and still nothing happens...

(Whuaaaa* I'm sleepy... I've stayed here for thousands of years for nothing... I won't wait anymore.)

Let it fast forward...

The Ball of light slowly but surely became a silhouette of a human light within another 10 thousands of years untill it formed into a person with beautiful features.

A deep black eyes like a universe full of wisdom.Long silky black hair that reached his waist and a perfect body curve like the best art of heaven itself is given to the youngman, with a look of 17-18 years old, to become his own body.A perfect person with a perfect features that would make even a non-living being tremble, stands on the darkness of nothingness alone.

The youngma...

"From now on I am Nexus"

And so he says... I'll just keep quite for now coz I'm just the narrator you see and he...

(Cheat code:Narrator Delete)

(*Ding* Deleting narrator...10... 9... 8...)

Eh?

(...7...)

Hey... hey... are you kidding me? !

(...6...)

You can also do that? Isn't this a novel?

(...5...)

How could this be?Just who did it?!