What is love? Is this what's love feels like... then I don't wanna feel this thing that called "love" ever again.
I have that feeling for my childhood friends, Han Jisung.
But I know that I can't get him, he'll never return my feelings, cause he already has his own crush.
Well, I'm happy if Jisung happy, there's no problem with me, as long as I can see that precious smile of him, than it's ok for me.
But... who am I lying to? I can't hide this feeling forever, it's hurt, seeing that smile always on his face when he see his crush, hearing his cheerful voice whenever he talk about his crush.
It's really hurt, but I don't wanna lose him, I can't ever think my days without him.
"Y/n... Y/n! Hwang Y/n!!!"
"What?" Jisung called me, we at the flower shop right now, he want buy a flower for his crush, in case today is her birthday.
"What's happen bestie? I called you like thousand times, but you didn't answer, is there anything that's bothering you?" Jisung nagging because I'm dozing off.
"Sorry, I just thinking about my paint class" all I can do is faking my smile and searching for any reason, to make him didn't notice about this troublesome feeling of mine.
"Oh right, I forgot about your paint class, sorry bestie, but right now I need you to pick this flower, you know today is Hayeon noona birthday day right? I wanna give flowers to her, and confess my feelings"
That smile again, that pretty smile when he talk about our senior at school, that pretty smile that only exists because of her.
"Well, just pick this red roses, I think she will love it" I pointed at the pretty red roses, it looked so pretty, and stunning, just like like his crush.
"What if Hayeon noona loves other flowers? Like you, you don't like rose, you like sunflowers"
"Yahhh, just picked that, you wanna confess right? Then use that flower, pick faster or else I will leave you at this shop, I really need to get back to my paint class" it's hurt Jisung... I can't watch you picking the special thing for her, it's hurt my heart.
"Okay, okay, chill... I pick this, and then we can go back to school"
After that, we get back to school, I take painting clay as my extra class, and Jisung take drama class to follow his favorite senior.
Time skip...
I just sit at my chair without doing anything, I can't even think about anything, it's just... I don't know, I feel like something is missing, but I don't know what.
"What's wrong?" Someone take a seat beside me.
"Is there something that bothering you? Are okay?" Yang Jeongin, my classmate, who also my partner at this paint class.
"Nothing, I just... don't feel like I wanna do something" I'm just tired with all this stupid feelings.
"Well... is sorry, but you need to finish your paint right now or you will get scolded by Hyunjin hyung"
"He is my brother, I will scold him back if he dare to scold me" well I'm joking, I can't do that, or Hyunjin will kill me.
Jeongin just chuckle because of my words.
"Wanna help? I can help you with your paint if you need that" he said while closing his sketch book.
"Yes please"
"Okay-
"Jeongin, come here, I need a little help, just leave my sister, she can do that alone" suddenly Hyunjin come out of nowhere.
"But hyung-
"No excuses, just come with me" and then Hyunjin leave me and Jeongin.
"Sorry, I'll come with your brother first, and then I'll help you, ok" jeongin quickly follow Hyunjin.
I just sigh, and then I saw Jeongin's sketch book.
"His sketches must be good, I guess he'll don't mind if I see all of his sketches"
I opened his book, and I can't even believe my eyes.
Is this... me?
Why Jeongin sketch my face?
"Y/n!!!" Jisung suddenly come to me.
His eyes was teary, what's happening?
"Jisung? What happen? Why don't you give this bouquet to Hayeon eunnie?" I don't understand, why is he like this?
"Hayeon nonna... he already has a boyfriend, her boyfriend gave her cake, gift, and bigger bouquet for her, I don't have a chance"
What's is this? Why I feel sad? Jisung can't have his crush, that's mean I have a chance to get him, but... why it's hurt to see him like this? Why my heart ache when he hurt? I should be happy... right?
"Can I have hug right now? I really need that" he ask.
I come closer to him, ready to give him a hug, but someone block us.
"Jeongin?" What? When did he come?
"Excuse me?" Jisung look irritated.
"Sorry, but you can't get a hug from her" Jeongin said while he grab my wrist.
"Why? I'm her best friend, why can't I get a hug from her" Jisung ask while grab my other wrist.
I really confused, what is happening here? What is going on?
"Beat friend? Haha... what kind of best friends that let they partner hurt?" Jeongin chuckle and give Jisung little smirk
"Hurt? What are you talking about? Now back off!" Jisung start to lose his patience.
"No! Because she is mine"
