Regret #3

She's crying.. she's crying with full of pain and it pains me more. I'm hurting to watch my son getting buried and I can't do nothing but to watch it from afar. Seeing her right now crying out is really painful already that's why I didn't attempt to go near them. I'm contented here saying goodbye to my son.

My son..goodbye, wherever you are, I hope you can forgive me for what I've done. I'm so sorry my son. Daddy loves you so much. Don't worry I will take care of your mom. I will do everything just for her to forgive me and I promise you that I won't hurt your mom again. I will love only her forever.

I silently cried inside my car while watching the people leaving. I envy them for having a chance to glance at my child for the last time. I saw Manang Lourdes she's asking Jannah to go home but my wife didn't even glance at her. She's staring at our son's grave.

after more or less than thirty minutes, Manang Lourdes finally convinced her to go home. I started the engine of my car and started to drive away from the cemetery. I don't want her to see me. I don't want to add more pain in her heart today by seeing me.

I went to my parents house. They are not here.They are living in the USA since my father is an American so he can't leave his many business there. I am the one who's managing our business here in the Philippines.

as I entered the mansion, I feel so empty. remembering the days when we are living together with my wife and son. Jannah would give me a warm kiss and hug whenever I got home and my jolly child will kiss me in my cheeks. The foods are always ready for me. but right now, everything in me is empty. I feel empty because I lost them. I am alone now.. alone in this house.

I threw my body on the sofa. I feel so tired and hungry. I only felt hunger since this morning. I reluctantly called our house maid Manang Doring and asked her to prepare food for dinner. I just stared at the ceiling. I do not know what to do. I don't know how to begin to ask her forgiveness.

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It's been a week. I've decided to go to our house and talk to my wife. I can't let my self doing nothing inside that lonely mansion.

I pressed the doorbell and after a few minutes, Manang Lourdes opened the gate. Her eyes widen in shock. "Si-Sir Ivan! what are you doing here?"

" This is my house Manang." I said making her to remember that I own this house too. I actually bought this house for my family. she became silent.

" where is my wife Manang? I want to talk to her. please let me talk to her"

"a-actually si-sir---" manang was interrupted by a voice.

" What are you doing her bastard??!"

"D-Dad" it's Jannah's father, my father in-law

"I'm asking you son of a bitch! you still got a face to go here huh?!" the anger is visible to his face. he looks so scary.

"D-Daddy please let me talk to Jannah. I need to talk to her" I said pleading.

"How dare you ask me to talk to my daughter??!! after you've done?! look what you've done!" he he pulled me upstair. We went to the master bedroom then I saw Jannah. She's expressionless staring at the window while hugging our son's fillow. Her mom. my mother in-law is hugging her while crying. Oh my Jannah! I was about to go near her and hug her but her father pulled me.

"Don't you dare go near my daughter!"

"D-Dad please let me talk to her for awhile"

" No! I won't let you go near my daughter again. we made a mistake when we accept you in our family. we are regretting that we allow you to marry our daughter! you're such a jerk! get out of this house right now!"

"Dad plea-"

"Are you going to get out or I'll shoot you??!"

He put his gun in my head. I raise my both hands. I know that he is serious when he said he will shoot me. my wife's father is a retired General.

I sighed and bowed my head.. I glanced to my wife once again she still staring outside the window. still expression less. her mom is staring me with blazing eyes.

"What are you waiting for?! get out!" said her mother

"get out! don't you ever dare to talk to my daughter again!"

I slowly turned around. I stopped for a moment and face them again.

"I will leave for now. but I will comeback and I will get my wife back" I didn't waited for their reaction. I turned my back and walk outside the house.

I promise, I'll be back and I will get you back my wife.

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After a month, I tried to go to our house again. I pressed the door bell many times but there is no one opening the gate. where is Manang Lourdes? I pressed again and this time Manang Lourdes appeared when she opened the gate. She got shocked again upon seeing me.

"Si-sir what are you doing here again?" She asked still in shocked.

"I want to talk to my wife" I saw her get stunned for awhile.

"Si-Sir you can't talk to her"

"Please Manang Lourdes. let me please"

"Sir you can't. She's not around" what? what does she mean?

"W-What do you mean ?"

"She's gone! " I started to get nervous.

"what? what gone are you saying???! "

"she's gone! her parent brought her abroad to live there for good."

what?

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