the guilt was killing me ...

" I called you so many times .. your ph was unreachable . The person belongs to this phone got into a big accident last night. and ----- ."

" what ?! " I didn't hear what she said after that .. my mind was blank ..

I was blank for a moment then my mind started working again .. I ignored what she was speaking other side

" where is he ? " I asked

" that's what I'm saying he is in R L hospital .. please come as early as possible " I cut the phone and ran .

I took the cab and it took 20 minutes to reach there .. I was shaking .. my hands were shaking thinking all the bad possibilities . And the only thing I was chanting in my mind was " he is alright .. I know he is fine " but my heart ..it was guessing all the horrible things.

I get off the cab and throw the money to the driver and almost ran Inside the hospital . I noticed people looking at me as I was still in my PJs . but I didn't care what they are thinking......the only thing I could care about is Steven .

I asked the receptionist

" can you tell me where Steven is ? " she looked at me confusingly ..

" mam can you please tell me the full name of the patient ? " she asked ..

" oh .. yeah .. I mean Steven --- " suddenly my phone ringed and I picked it up .

" where are you ? " the girl asked me ..

" I'm already here .. which floor is he ?"

" come 3rd floor ..ward no. 95 " I cut the phone again and took the elevator .

when I reached in front of his ward .. I was panting , I was about to enter when I saw a girl seating in front of Steven ..and her back was facing me and there was another girl and a man who was standing opposite of the girl . When the girl side her face I recognized her .. it was Siya .

What is she doing here ?

But I didn't bother and entered his room . I saw Steven was lying on bed his hand , head was bandaged . His lips were wounded and It was obvious that the accident was very serious . Tears rolled down my eyes and I quickly wiped it .

" Elina .." Siya saw me and stand up .

" how is he ? " I just asked without shifting my eyes from him ..

" the doctor said he is now better ..but we have to wait until he get back his senses .." that girl answered .

I just nod and stand there .. it was a good silent until the girl break it .

" So me and my boyfriend gonna leave now .. we stayed here from last night .. as his families are here I don't think we need to stay .. but please inform us about him time to time " I just nod

" yes .. thank you so much for what you did .." Siya replied .

After that both of them left . I slowly walked beside Steven and sit on a chair . It all happened for me .. he was angry because of me ..I caused him all of this . I wiped my tears again and just sit there . Nurse came to check his wound ..and then left .

" Do you know how it happened ?" after a long time I asked Siya ..

" no .. when he came my apartment last night at 2:00 am .. " I looked at her .. He went her apartment last night ?!! This information just made me more uncomfortable ..

" what he did there ? " I asked nonchalantly .

" I was shock when he came . it was so late and he was very drunk .. he just sit there few minutes .. he was talking stupid things I didn't understand any .And then he left . I request him to stay for the night but he ignored me ..." ohh .. I didn't knew how to feel ..the guilt was killing me inside .

" what stupid things he talked ?" I again asked ..

" he was asking me is he not enough for any girl ? and he also asked why can't he be any one's first priority ? he was in pain .. " her words were hitting my heart .. how I made him unworthy and unloved .. but if only he knew I love him the most ..

" did you guys fight?" Siya asked and I looked at her stunned ..

" Excuse me ?"

" I know Elina .. I know about you two .."

" did he told you ?"

" NO ..... actually I was always confused why he suddenly asked me for dates while he was ignoring me for months .. but then I noticed the tension between you two .. and for a intelligent girl like me .. it's easy for me to guess "

" yes... we broke up 2 years ago and then I meet him again as a step brother ..." I said

" so ex boyfriend turned Step brother ? " she laughed . I mentally rolled my eyes . why everyone have to use the same dialogue ? first Nil now she.

" sorry I know it's a bad joke .. " she apologized then ..

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it was 6 pm . Steven was still unconscious . I asked the doctor why he didn't woke up and they told me ..it will take time .. Siya left this afternoon and promised to come next day .

I was sitting beside unconscious Steven . I closed my eyes for a few seconds when I hear a faint voice ...

" Water .. " I looked up and saw Steven awake ..I hold the glass in his mouth and he then took few sips from it .

" wait let me call the doctors " I ran out and called the doctor . They came and checked him .And then left .

" how are you feeling ? " I asked him ..

" can u help me get up ? " he requested me .. ignoring my question . I hold his arm and made him seat up on bed carefully . For support I took a pillow and placed it behind him . After I was satisfied with his comfort .. I also sit beside him and asked again " is there any discomfort?"

" I'm fine " he shortly answered . I didn't drag the question instead I decided to feed him the soup , nurse just send here. I fed him the soup and he drink it without any complain . After feeding him the soup I clean up his mouth.

We sit silently for few minutes then he said " I want to sleep .. " I nod and made him sleep on the bed .

" Elina .. you can go now ..the nurses are here they will take care of me .. " he said and turned his head another side . The distant in his voice was very obvious . I felt like crying but I didn't let it flow .

" you sleep .. I'll stay here " I said .

" please go Elina . You don't have to stay " he said with more force this time .

" you should sleep now Steven " I said stubbornly and he didn't argued anymore . I sit in the couch of the ward and tried to get some rest .

Next morning I woke up at 6:00 am . Basically I didn't sleep at all last night . I was busy in my thoughts. Today is my joining day . I need to email that I can't join today . " sigh ... "

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