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Darkness...

then suddenly...

Swoosh!

Perceiving in the centre of that darkness. A speck of light materialized.

"What happened?" he mumbled in a low toned voice. The voice reverberated in the endless dark shallow.

"The last thing I remembered is a strong flash of light, A loud crash, And warmth engulfing my body...

then gradually...

relinquishing." He professed as he was organizing his thought.

Like a man falling endlessly in an abyss. that's what he feels. Weightless, powerless, lost; and he might not be found.

He longs for the speck of light. He searched for warmth. The warmth that he has been searching for years. The warmth heartlessly seized out of his soul and body.

"Where am I?" he inquired in confusion. He waited for a response, but all he got was silence; A deafening silence.

Cold, It's so cold.

"All the pain is gone. All the heartaches, the sorrows, insecurities, dissatisfactions, jealousy, anger, and...

love; are all gone.

"Is this the afterlife" he inquired in upheaval.

"What will I feel now? " No one answered. Like a speck of dust raising a question in front of a mute god.

All he felt was the cold darkness engulfing his entirety.

Peace...

"This is what I wanted from the beginning. Right?

Peace?

or

is it Freedom?

Yet why do I feel empty?

HaHaHaHa, why would I feel empty, I must get be used to this, 'cause I died an empty husk in the first place.

No love left to leave my body, No tears left to leave my eye.

All that is left is a damaged soul, corroding in darkness, weeping in silence.

that's all I am, that's all I have.

Yet...

Does losing my emotions made me less human?

But considering when I still had my emotions, I also can't feel the sense of being a human.

When I was still alive...

I should've strived for the things that I wanted,

Back when I was still alive...

I should've loved the things that I have.

Back when I was still alive...

I should've Stated what I wanted to be stated.

Back when I was still alive...

I should've propelled what I didn't want.

And especially...

Back when I was still alive...

I should've accepted reality as it is.

That way I'll have no regrets in my death.

I lost my emotions yet, Why didn't I lost my memories of you.

You've manipulated my emotions. yet why am I the only one suffering?" He asked in a monotonous voice.

"Ohh I remember!" he proclaimed with a warmth gradually emanating from his heart.

"I clearly remember now" he mumbled as he felt the heat gradually rising

"It's been my fault at the beginning" he let out with cold tears trickling through his warm cheeks.

"Ha! Ha! Ha! Ha!" as an insane man lent with freedom, he laughed.

"I left the world with a terrible exit. That's not how I'm planning to leave" Grinningly stated

"That's not the Arde's way of ending" He mumbled with his name intact.

"Now I know what to do. If ever reincarnation decided my faith, I will enjoy my life to the fullest extent." With a smile as warm as the sunset.

"I will surely love the things that I wanted, I will explore the world, I will protect myself and avoid future conflicts, I will stay hidden and will not beg for attention, I will preserve my self for the person I love and loves me back, I will surely consider my self first before others, And lastly I will avoid that person. I'll forget all the things about him. If only..." With his heart starts glowing.

blob...

swoosh...

"I can feel the warmth" with a confused look, he claimed.

Then...

Tick...

Tack...

TriiIIiiingggg...

Hoooouf! ouf houfffe...

"I'm alive?" with a complex reaction, he stated.

This time I'll not commit the same mistake again.

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