Bad Memories

After Clara's and Zen's men's fight at the abandoned building, it was almost early morning. Zen decided to take Clara into his gang even though he does not trust her. He believes that its better for now to keep her in his gang rather than letting her get away after she has seen his face. Zen gives the address of his gang's headquater to Clara and order her to come their by tomorrow morning. After Clara leaves the building, Zen orders one of his man to follow her and get more information about her. Zen thinks that she is sent by some other gang to attack his gang, therefore he decides to keep a close watch on Clara.

After that Zen leaves the place as well and sits in his car and asks the driver to take him to the grave yard.

(IN THE ZEN'S CAR)

I was siting near the car window and looking outside while thinking about my past. It looked like it was going to rain. I actually like it when it rains cause it somehow feels familiar to my life. The rain of sadness in my heart will never stop. It is all because of that horrible memory that I can't seem to forget no matter how much I want to.

(FLASHBACK)

I was 12 year old, but even at that age I couldn't live like a normal 12 years old. Everyday when I came back from school I always heard my mother crying and screaming from my fathers room. I would just close my ears, pretending that I didn't heard anything and rushed to my room. I used to take out all my frustrations on the weak kids at the school by beating them up. And without even knowing,I became the school top bully. At home or at school, I just could not be happy anywhere. I didn't even knew what the word happiness meant. Once, I tried to go to my dad's room when I heard my mother shouting at my dad about betraying her or something. I opened the door and saw my father beating my mom really badly.

My mother was crying, it broke my heart and I ran towards my mom and begged my father to stop but all I saw in my dad's eyes were burning fire. He picked me up and threw me towards the door. By this I was now sure that he doesn't deserve to be called father anymore. I ran towards the the living room and called police on my dad.

Police came and took my dad. There were many reporters outside, asking questions to my dad. It was probably because my dad is a really big CEO of a big company. My mom and I shifted to a new house far away from my father. After two days I saw my mom watching the T.V. with a worried look in her eyes. I sat down on the couch next to her and looked at the T.V. on the news channel it was said that my dad was released. I looked at my mom and asked,

"Why is he on T.V.? Is he going to come here and hurt us again?"

She didn't said anything but just hugged me and patted my head. I could feel her crying silently.

A few days later when I was sitting in my room, I suddenly heard a crashing noise from downstairs. I rushed down as fast as I could and I opened my mom's room. As I opened the room I heard a bang sound and I froze. I will never forget the scene in front of my eyes, my whole world shattered into pieces. My father was standing in front of my mother and my mother fell on the floor. She was in the pool of her own blood. My father had killed my mom. I couldn't move or say anything, all I could feel was my tears that were flowing down my eyes. I was shocked, scared and felt terrible pain in my heart. My father took me with him. I couldn't stop him. I felt totally numb by that time.

( END OF FLASHBACK)

Since that day I felt emotionless. A body who had no soul, my soul had left my body since that day. I turned into a monster because of the bastard who killed the person I loved the most. He forced me to turn into a total demon. I was ready to become a demon, I didn't had anything to look back at. I became a demon who killed millions of people with no mercy, who is cruel, powerful and heartless.

Killing and torturing people became something that I found pleasure in, a way to pass my horrible life, a way to erase every bit of my memory which made me suffer. At times I try to think how nice it would have been if I was never born in this world. No pain, no suffering, no fear, just nothing.

I got out from my thoughts when I heard the driver saying that we have reached the grave yard.

I opened the car door and got out of my car. I told the driver to leave so I could be left alone for some moment. I started walking towards my mother's grave. Today was the day my life was changed. It was the day when my dearest person left me all alone in the dark world. As I reached at her grave, I stopped walking and looked at her grave when millions of thoughts were running  through my head. I got on my knees and kept the white roses on her grave which were her favorite flowers.

"Mom, I hope you are at a better place where you don't have to suffer because of the monsters anymore."

After sitting there for a while I left the grave yard and want on my way back to my house, while it started raining. For some reason the rain felt really calming to me at that moment.

(On the streets near the Clara's house)

I was walking back to my house even though I was supposed to be at my company and had to give report to my boss. I knew that there was someone following me. It was probably a man who was sent by Zen to check if I really am a serial killer or not. I knew that he would do something like this. Obviously he wouldn't trust someone like me if he is a gang boss. Since these guy is following me I decided to go straight to my house rather than going somewhere else or he might start to doubt me.

As I reached my house, I simply opened my door and went inside. I decided to make myself a hot chocolate after a long tiring day and also to warm myself up in this rainy atmosphere. I went to my kitchen and made  a hot chocolate for myself. After making the hot chocolate I went to the couch near the window and sat down while drinking my warm drink. I was looking outside the window and thinking about everything that happened at the building. Even though it was interesting, one thing kept bugging me. Zen was being really open about revealing his identity,as if he didn't care much of it. From his eyes, I could see that he was fearless. He just didn't care, at some point, I now kinda understand why people are so afraid of him, even his own men. He really isn't scared of anything. I feel this mission is going to be a long one.

As I was thinking, I suddenly heard my phone ringing. I picked up the phone from the couch and looked at the screen. I smiled as I saw who it and picked up the call.

"Hey Lucy, its been long since you called." I said to Lucy On the phone. Lucy has been my best friend since high school. She is the only person who can make me smile. She is the only person to whom I have talked about everything. She's the one who I have trusted in my whole life.

"I know girl! Its been a long time since I saw you after I shifted to California." She said from the other side of the phone.

"I know, Its been long. Did You miss me?" I said as I chuckled.

"Dude,I really miss you so much and guess what?" She said.

"What?" I asked.

"I AM COMING BACK!" She shouted which almost made me deaf.

"For real?When?" I said while standing up from the couch.

"I will catch the flight from here tomorrow morning, so I will be there by evening." She said in, excited.

"That's real good news,I will pick you up  at the airport tomorrow." I said

" Thanks, You are the best. Anyways I will have to start my packing now,so I will call you tomorrow when I get the flight." She said in a hurry.

" Okay, see you tomorrow." I laughed and ended the call.

I am so happy that I will finally be able to see my best friend after such a long time. I went to the kitchen and washed my mug after finishing my hot chocolate and decided to go to my bedroom to get some rest, as I was awake all night yesterday.

Tomorrow is going to be a big day.

TO BE CONTINUED.

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