Life That I Wanted for Me Ep 4 : Silly Boy

Jia POV

After waking up from dream.

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(That person never showed any love towards me as a father. He just thought about himself. My mumma suffered because of him.)

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(But here I am dreaming about him. This dream was totally wrong. How can I dream something like that. No. It's wrong. Think how he never showed up when I needed him, when mumma needed him.)

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(Yes. It's wrong. Never dream something like that. Yes.)

On the way to school while on bicycle.

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(Mumma somehow managed to work and send me to school for studies. But after high school I have to work. She never let me help her when it came to earning money. But once I turn 18 I have to help her. )

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(I never told about my family issues to school or any classmates. That's why no one wanted to become my friend. I was alone in school, from childhood. I craved a true friendship, so I always tried hard to get a friend. I would follow them like a puppy, but they would never give a bit of true attention to me or my feelings of being a friend. But...)

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*Saw Sam* *smile* *shout* Sam (But this silly boy came to my life and told me I don't need anyone. I don't need to be a puppy or follow them. Turn into a person I am not for them. Do the things they ask me to do even though I don't like. That person brought a light to my life. No matter if it was a topic about my father, my image in school, some moments that I don't want to even remember or my dreams he always supported me and asked if I wanted to do this or was just doing anything against my will. That person is precious to me. Sam. I would repay him in every way I can.)

In infirmary.

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(He would always worry about me. He would say I am silly, but he is the silly boy here. The way he cared about me not even my father did. He was the one who was with me every time. No matter what he was always there with me.)

In classroom.

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(I always got late for school. Every day. Teacher will scold me every day for being late. They would teach me some life lessons like I would stay behind if I don't understand the value of time. But after sometimes it became from me to us. Sam started to come with me to school and now we both get late and learn this lectures from teachers. Sometimes I think its funny. That he is the only person who understands me.)

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(But I don't know I am getting weak day by day. No matter if its mentally, socially or... Physically. When I twisted my ankle I didn't feel anything, but slowly it was unbearable. But I could still bear with it. A normal person who is pampered by her family would throw tantrums if some,thing would happen. But for me it was luxury. My body started to bear the pain like an adult. But from someday its getting worse. When I hit my hurt ankle I didn't even know that I shouted out of pain. But then....)

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(Some people think that I am a bad person. I only know how to get attention. I would try anything for getting a bit of attention. There were days when I wanted attention of my so-callso-calleds, but now I don't need it. But even though after that I got a image of attention seeker. I didn't feet hurt when I twisted my ankle, hit it or was called an attention seeker, but when it came to my father I could not hear it. Because I am tired of the questions that WHERE IS YOUR FATHER? WHAT DOES HE DO? HOW DO YOU SPEND TIME WITH YOUR FATHER ON HOLIDAYS? )

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(I tried very hard to not cry. But I cried. That silly Sam is right I am really silly. So silly that I cried over this thing.)

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(Then only one thought came in my mind. I WANT TO GO AWAY FROM HERE EVEN IF FOR A LITTLE WHILE. I didn't think a second moment and asked the teacher if I could go. I wanted to take Sam with me also, but then I thought I can't. I am not his responsibility to go with me whenever I want. But though I wanted to be selfish, and hesitantly I asked teacher. I don't know what teacher thought and why, but she agreed. )

On the way back home.

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(Only with the company of Sam all the thoughts of my mind flew away. He was a person who can make any sad person happy. He was with this poor little thing even though he was rich. Yes this silly boy named Sam is rich. But no matter if he is rich or poor he is best even though he is a little silly. We don't care if we are rich or poor we are with each other in every situation.)

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(I would never let this friendship of ours get dull.)

Jia POV End