Fallen

Kei's P.O.V:

The strangely cold water engulfed my skinny frame. Yeah, I hadn't been eating well, but I never showed it, because I secretly threw up everything that entered my body. Food was tasteless. Skies were black and white. Everything was black and white. Everything, except Kai. He was in full colors. I could see red streams of....blood? Blood flowing upwards. I touched the back of my head, remembering I had felt something sharp hit me there. It was bleeding, so I was right, it was blood. I was bleeding then, huh. Nice. I probably had hit a rock or something then, literally. All I could feel was the weird cold of the river. But it's summer... I thought. I felt all over my body. It was cold. Although my lungs were aching and screaming for me to go up the surface, I couldn't help but feel some sort of, inner peace. Like, I finally got the chance to escape from this cruel world. Why the hell would I go back now? I know the consequences, Kai will be terrible. I know I promised to not leave him. Ever. But, I can't help it.

I finally had the courage to climb onto the railing of the bridges and jump into the cool blue waters of the river, to feel what I have always imagined - drowning. Now that I was actually experiencing it...I don't know anymore.

I mean, I don't give a damn about there being actually being any 'hope', and that stuff will get better. To me, shit is same. It never changed. I don't even know why the hell I lied to Kai and the therapist about getting better.

Now that I think about it...maybe she could've helped me get better. Just maybe though. But I'm not taking the chances, to go back up there and face the world again. Call me weak, but I'm safer in the darkness, I always was, now that I think about it. Fine, I'm a failure then, a pathetic loser with no courage, no strength left to fight anymore. I'm done.

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A/N: Hey guys so.... I know I hadn't updated in a long time. Sorry, I guess writer's block got to me. I'm not even trying to make any excuses. I admit, I was getting lazy to update this story. I had no ideas. But seriously though, making this a sweet story was never my initial idea. Although this may be a bit saddening but, yeah, this book is going to be short. I'm reaching the end. It's not that I'm not getting any more ideas, I'm reaching the climax, I'm about to reach the part where I give out my message - There is always hope. You need the right people and the proper support to help you get through. And sometimes, it's just the person's own wish. I learnt this the hard way. Trust me. Don't worry though, this book will only end when I repeat my message at the end of my last episode. I've seen some comments on my chat story - Forbidden Love. Do you guys seriously want me to continue it? Fine, I'll start updating it too. But it'll be slow. Thank you for being with me so far. You guys probably don't even know how much your comments mean to me. I need your support to keep moving on with my other books. I keep coming here to check on my book, to see whether there's any new comments every fucking day. You guys mean that much to me. So please, don't give up on me. I'm trying my best, and I hope you do too. Words aren't enough to express my gratitude. TT_TT

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