Love You Forever 4

Xiao Zhan

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I'm now back in China. Stuck in a hospital bed as day after day I grew weaker. I kept having colds which is a common symptom for Leukemia. I was shock myself when I found out I have Leukemia for almost 2 years now but the symptoms are just showing now. What's worse is I'm already nearing the critical stage. Seung-Youn has been visiting me but only three times in a month sunce he still has to look after his bar.

Yibo has been looking after me right as he got back from a trip to US. He told me that they are doing all they can to find a donor but so far nothing. He and I began talking as well and even though I still don't forgive him yet I still allow him to talk to me.

"Zhan please eat." Yibo pleaded as he tried to feed me. Chemo was very painful abd I can barely move my muscles. Everyday feels like I'm losing grip of my soul. I feel weaker and weaker after every chemo. Pills aren't even making me feel better anymore.

"Zhan please you have to eat." I watch Yibo plead and I kinda feel sorry for him. He hasn't slept well and he didn't even go home. He decided to stay and look after me. He even made his cousin do all the work in finding a donor for me.

With a sigh I slowly opened my mouth and ate little by little. At least Yibo is very patient with me. The food taste very plain or is it just my taste. After eating Yibo wash my body with a towel while I just watch him. I knew that I won't last long with my body being so weak now and even if the donor came and I have the surgery there is a chance that I won't make it.

I already talked to my doctor and asked how long I have left. The news made me cry. Even though I am mad at Yibo I still wanted to fix everything between us. I also wanted to have more time with Seung-Youn but with only a month left I can't do that especially when I'm bed ridden. The only thing I could do now is to stop my relationship with Seung-Youn. Set him free so he could move on easily. As for Yibo I'll finally forgive him. Maybe make one last wish before I go.

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The next day I woke up to Yibo silently crying while looking at me. His eyes are red and full of tears while his knuckles are covered in blood. Looking at the wall behind him I saw it full of blood and there is a crack on it as well.

"W-what's wrong?" I rasped out since my throat felt really dry.

"I'm so sorry Zhan, sorry. The bone marrow..." Yibo didn't finish his words as he let out a sob. Sitting up with great difficultly I gestured for Yibo to come into my open arms. He hugged me tight as he continued to cry. I'm guessing he found out about my condition.

"It's okay Yibo. You don't have to worry about that anymore. I don't want a bone marrow since I won't make it anyways. Just grant me tjis wish of mine." I weakly said as tears made their way down my pale cheeks. Seeing Yibo like this hurts me a lot. This is the second time I saw him cry like this the first time was with his parents after that I never saw him cry again not until now.

We cried in each others embrace until my doctor came. She gave me a sad look as she saw my face full of tears.

"Mr. Zhan I'm here to check up on you." Yibo finally let go of me. He gave a nod and my doctor came and began checking on me.

"Doc I've decided about it already. There will be no surgery anymore. I won't survive anyway so I want to go home and at least leave my life to the fullest till the day I can finally rest." I said and Yibo began crying again but this time silently. The doctor asked if I was sure and with a nod she went out.

"Zhan please I want to save you. I can't live without you. Consider Zhan my cousin will find a bone marrow donor by the end of the week, please don't give up just yet." I watch Yibo plead while kneeling infront of me. It makes me cry more watching him like this. It hurts me a lot that I'm hurting the one I love. Yes I still love Yibo and I realized that when he took care of me. My love for him never wavered even when I'm with Seung-Youn. Yibo is still the one who's holding my heart.

"Yibo I only have a month left. Doing the surgery won't guarantee that I will survive with me being so weak already. You have to understand that I can't go on anymore. I can't do this anymore Yibo. The pain is too much for me and I just want it to go away already. Look I love you Yibo but please take me home, let's enjoy my remaining days but before that let me talk to Seung-Youn. I need to make things clear between us before I go." Yibo cried some more but agreed with what I want in the end.

Two days later I was finally back home. The home where I spend all those good memories with Yibo. Seeing all the familiar furnitures and pictures one the wall made me smile. I took a sit in the sofa while Yibo put my things back in our room. I then saw two rabbits hopping around and smiled. I can't believe Yibo still kept them. Zhan and Bo are the names Yibo gave the rabbits we bought 2 years ago.

"I've been making sure Zhan and Bo are well fed when you we're away." Yibo said as he saw me looking at the two rabbits. Smiling tiredly Yibo took a sit beside me. I just kept staring at him. Memorizing his features. I wanted to remember all his looks even if I'm gone.

"So what do you want to do first?" Yibo asked. He pulled me into his embrace and I hug him back inhaling his addicting scent. I'm gonna miss his warmth, his scent, his voice, his face, and his embrace. I wish I could turn back time and cure this sickness of mine but I can't.

"Let's do the things we haven't don't when we were together." I suggested since there are a lot of things we haven't done together with him being really busy earning money back then.

Yibo nodded before carrying me to our room. Since I feel weak now Yibo always carries me around but sometimes he let's me walk on my own but with his support. He took me to the bathroom where we took a bath together. After that we decided to eat lunch in the restaurant we use to go to. We spent the rest of the day going to places we haven't been to.

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