TRAILER
Our story started from the moment my first love who I thought I was fated to end up with, broke up with me.
Ved
Naisha, I'm sorry. But this is not happening. You've grown very possessive while we are apart.
Naisha
I'm being possessive, or you're getting a little loose? You kissed someone else while we are still in a fucking relationship for god's sake.
Ved
Let's just break up okay?
Even though the Breakup shattered my heart my brain knew it very clearly that this long distance thing was not working out
My friends on the other hand, could not be happier about my breakup, throwing me a Breakup party at ENVY.
That is exactly where I met him...
Rudra
*sips her whine and kisses her, making her drink it from his mouth**
Naisha
*Didn't understand what was happening but still gulped the liquid down**
Rudra
You slapped me, I kissed you. We're even.
I am otherwise a wild horse. But when Rudra is in front of me, I lose all my fucking senses. He was irresistible. And I was attracted to him like a moth is to the flame.
He was my college senior, a major playboy, a major nerd. He was the best doctor in his batch, the best looking kid in the college, and the only son of filthy rich parents.
Rudra
I am attracted to you and I know that you're attracted to me. So, here's what I propose, let's be Fuck buddies.
Rudra
I don't love Naisha, I fuck! And lately I have had pretty damn bad thoughts about you. Commitment makes everything emotional, and I suck at emotions.
Rudra
You and I fuck. Nobody has to know. You don't interfere with my life, I don't interfere with yours.
Naisha
Okay... And what if I fell in love?
Rudra
Then we STOP. You can go ahead and be happy with the guy you love. But don't ever let that guy be me. Because I can't love.
Naisha
Please! I won't fall for a guy like You, EVER.
I said it mentally, I said it to my heart repetitively, but I don't know how and why, Rudra Pratap, the playboy who seemed gross to me, started to make my heart flutter.
He even met my parents and introduced himself as my boyfriend when I asked him to.
Naisha's Dad
So you and Naisha are in a relationship?
Rudra
It's been three months, and we couldn't be happier.
I knew he was not going to love me, but still... I fell first.
Naisha
Why did you meet my parents when you said you were not going to meet them? Why are you doing this?!
Rudra
I didn't want to get you in trouble. Your father saw me sneaking into your bedroom last night.
Naisha
Don't. I don't want to be your Fuck Buddy anymore. Let's just break up
Naisha
I've fallen for you
Rudra
Naisha, I asked you not to love me.
Naisha
I know. But I still did. And I know you won't ever love me back, so let's just end it here.
When she left I broke. I broke pretty damn bad.
It wasn't enough when I saw her with my nephew, Yash who was in the same year as Naisha. She and him were dating now which was making me sick.
Yash
I want you to meet my girlfriend, Uncle Rudra.
Rudra
Hey. *heartbroken smile**
Naisha
Hi. *awkward smile*
I couldn't take them together like that, it was killing me from inside. I didn't realize it back then... But she may have fallen FIRST, but I had fallen HARDER.
Rudra
Have you fucked him?
Naisha
How does it matter to you?!
Rudra
Have you, or have you not?!
Rudra
How was he? Was he better than me?
Rudra
Answer me! *caging her under himself, rubbing his body against hers** Does he make you scream like I did?
Naisha
Why are you doing this Rudra?! You were the one to reject me, you were the one to push me away, don't you remember?!
Rudra
I was an idiot back then to not realise but fuck NAISHA, I LOVE YOU GODDAMNIT!
It took him too long to realise this
But still, he was my first love, and he will always be my first love
Never listens to what the brain has to say. Never understood logic.
Yes, it's true. I fell for him first but he fell HARDER. And his touch... It RUINED ME.
This book contains content that may be disturbing or triggering to some readers, including but not limited to:
→Toxic and emotionally manipulative relationships
→Casual sex and emotionally detached intimacy
→Love triangle dynamics involving jealousy, obsession, and betrayal
→Gaslighting and emotional neglect
→Themes of abandonment, self-worth struggles, and heartbreak
→Explicit sexual content, including consensual but emotionally complex sex
→Alcohol use and reckless behavior as coping mechanisms
Reader discretion is strongly advised.
This is a dark, emotionally raw romance that explores the fragility of self-love in the face of rejection and the pain of chasing closure in all the wrong places.
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