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I threw myself on bed and texted her~
Seth
" Hey,, you free tomorrow? "
Seth
" Them make yourself available tomorrow as I'll be coming at your house "
Amy
" ok but why? Is there something important? "
Seth
"You'll know,, don't worry and take care "
With that I threw my phone on the side of my bed and tried to sleep...
I drove towards her house and parked outside..
As I entered,, aunt greeted me and I went in her room while she comes back from market..
Seth
I'll just surf on internet till she arrives..
Amy
* opens door * heyy!! How are you?
Amy
ohk? * in awkwardness *
Seth
What do you think about your future?? * in seriousness *
Amy
umm... * silence spread though the room * .... I didn't plan anything for now..
Seth
And what about your special book?
Seth
Just tell me about your feelings..
Amy
My feelings... huh.. don't worry they don't matter anymore...
Seth
No,, what?!? Don't say that!!
Seth
Ok,, show me your book,, I'll help you out now
Seth
I'll help you with this,, give me your book otherwise I'll make you read it yourself
Amy
ohk * stood up and grabs her books *
she took it out from below her bed,, a old box which looks like someone used it for keeping sewing threads and other things..
Seth
" I'm fed up with this living.. everyday I end up having a nightmare of my past.. why does it appears every time I close my eyes..I don't wanna live like this anymore,, even my daily life sucks ... My classmates spread nonsense about me and because of that my friends left me... My mother also doesn't support with what I choose and really have a bad temper.."
Seth
" My father is always busy with his work and don't care about us till we have results or competitions.. I barely talk to him in weeks and he doesn't seem to even say anything even if I'm sitting just infront of him... my everything was chosen by my mother.. I wanted to do paintings and sculptures but sadly I had to take over the company and maintain their reputation.. "
As I was reading further and further,, she was all silent and everywhere was written " help.. I want help.. my brain kills me everyday with many thousands of thoughts and tells me my worth "
but this " help " stopped after a while and I could one see " I wanna die right now "
Seth
.... I'll help you,, don't worry anymore...
she was full of tears but not one drop fell down and still she could warmly smile at me and I couldn't see that anymore...
I just held her in my arms and patted her head..
Seth
Don't worry anymore,, your brother will help you..
but she never cried... we sat like beside eachother,, leaning on the wall... then aunt came and offered me something to eat and asked me to have dinner with them..
Seth
yeah,, ok I'll be here * glances at Amy *
Amy
* gives a warm smile like nothing had happened *
I looked at her and asked
Seth
Were you always like this,, puts an act infront of everyone.. even infront of me?? Everytime I saw that smile.. was that all fake..
Amy
* nods slowly * yea-eh
Seth
let's just eat dinner and we'll go for our same plan..
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