a damn girl

"what happened a while ago? "(talking to alyssa while eating) -megan

"whaaat? "( as if she don't know what megan meant)

"dont be numb besh!, he's just asking to you and your harsh to him"

"why? you like him? that's why you never forget it?, gosh besh as if you don't know what kind of man he is. Judging from his physical appearance, he is arrogant. " ( acting like she never believe of what megan saying)

" not all men are the same besh and please stop judging a person by physical appearance"

"just eat, okey "

" hmm"( nodding)

same routine of what happen in their school.

after school..the two separate ways.

Alyssa know what's happening right now in their house from what she heard outside (shouting). That's why she just pass by and light the cigarette in her mouth.

while sitting on the pavement and looking at the sky..

"when will this sh.t life end? am I a bad person in my past life? why I have a life like this? I have no one to lean on even my relatives, i don't have one. My bestfriend, I don't have a courage to tell her this bulls..t of life I have right now. I wish that everything will end"- alyssa

"I'm getting tired ( crying in silent)"

in the morning..

at school

"good morning class, i will introduce to you your new class adviser mr. tristan, hope you will welcome him as what i did to you in my room ( smile) "- teacher paul

while tristan entering the room all the girls we're dumbfounded.

"oh my...my Achilles"- cath

"girls your mouth please (laughing)"- peter

"that's the guy from the canteen yesterday right? "(talking to her friends ) - trina

"yes i remember"- cheena (surprised)

"oh (evil smile) your done alyssa"

"oh where's your alarm clock"- teacher paul

"alarm clock?"- tristan

"his voice( blushing), a total package, my future husband"- cheena (shiver)

"besh wake up"( patting alyssa's shoulder in order to wake her up)

"oh c'mon alyssa, it's not your home to just sleep anytime"- teacher paul

"alyssa (shouting) "

"oh my gosh, I'm sorry, sorry" ( shock from what happened)( she never meant to sleep at school). - alyssa

"sorry?, you're a college student not a kid." ( looking at alyssa with no emotion)- tristan

"okey listen (referring to the class)

I'm not your teacher paul who spoiled you all. I'm different from him. If you don't want me as your teacher adviser you can exchange student from the other section or you can shift course if you want. I don't mind having a maximum of three persons in my class in that case I can easily teach them. "

"(smile) tristan be patient to them" (talking in low voice) "

"okey class, i will turn over you all to tristan. Have a great day to you all."

" by the way alyssa it's your first time sleeping in my class what happened?"

"just a small problem sir, never mind it, again I'm sorry"

"sorry accepted, you know me well alyssa, okey bye class"

" goodbye sir. we will miss you"- john

" now you heard me well from what i said earlier, right? "-tristan

all except alyssa "yes sir"

"you heard me, alyssa is your name? (pointing to alyssa)

"can i skip class today sir? "-alyssa (standing and looking at him in the eyes.

"you're stubborn, change the way you act to your instructor. I'm not your teacher paul who will always say yes to you. Remember this class, my mission is to make you an engineer someday not a spoiled brat roaming around the streets. "

"I'm not in the mood right now to start my first day, dismiss".

Tristan walk fast towards the exit of the room with no emotion.

"it's your fault alyssa, if you want to skip class why making effort to be here in the first place? or is it just your plan to introduce yourself to him. You are really a bitch inside, pretender (roll eyes) "- trina

"stop it Trina"- megan

"I'm a bitch? same to you Trina"- alyssa

(walk out while grabbing the hands of megan)

Alyssa doesn't have the mood to argue because she didnt sleep well last night due to her parents quarrel.

at the bench.

"is there a problem besh?"

"for today, ( feeling sorry and sad ) I'm sorry besh i really can't accompany you for the other classes.I just have some important matters to do. Is it okey to you? "

"okey,(sad) but promise me that you will tell me what's that important things you said."(with matching puppy eyes)

"of course, besh"

"and please excuse me to our instructors, thank you"

"i will go now, be safe for today okey? "( kissing at the forehead of megan) (and walk fast)

"you're always sweet to me hope that it won't change (smiling) "( loud voice so that alyssa can hear it)

because she's too far to answer she just give flying kiss to megan and wave to her

-arrived at their house.

"I'm sorry mom, I'm late"- alyssa

"(sad) I'm really sorry aly for disturbing you in your study but your dad he wants to leave us right now for real (crying and hugging to alyssa)."- mother

"unnie (crying) please stop dad from leaving" - monique (younger sister of alyssa)

"(stopping her tears to fall) where's dad? "

"inside, packing his things"- mother

alyssa try to stop her tears to fall because she is the strength now to her mother and she don't want to be weak in her mother's sight.

-while looking at her dad.

"dad, please fix the things between you and mom. I know you two can solve it, talk the two of you in private."

" aly the things between me and your mom cannot be fix again."

"what's the difference from tha past and now? , it's the same problem dad, why can't you solve it now? we've been a strong family before dad, we're happy, right? . What happen to us now? " (crying) ( she can't hold her tears this time) (back hugging to her dad)

Alyssa is a daddy's girl. All her love problem, she always tell it first to her dad and next to her mom. Whenever her dad had a business trip, she always accompany him.

"(crying) I'm sorry aly, it's my fault. I can't forgive myself for giving a mess to our family."

"dad please, I'm begging you, I'm being selfish right now but please stay with us. I don't know what happen to mom, Monique and me if you're not around. We're accustomed by your presence dad, please. "

"aly I really want to stay but I can't."

"whyyyy? dad please tell me"(shouting while crying)

"don't make this hard to me aly, i love you all and I really can't forgive myself"

"you love us? but you're leaving us? what's the point of telling this shit dad? " (angry while crying)

"what's the problem? why you can't say that **** reason of leaving us dad? "

"(looking at his wife) don't make this hard to me, honey" (kneeling in front of his wife)

"i can't, i don't know how to begin a family without you honey, you know that I'm dependent to you"-mother (crying)

"I'm sorry, I'm sorry, please let me go"- father

"(blank emotion) you're kneeling and begging to us for you to leave, it's that what you called love dad?"

"no no aly dont misunderstood it"

"stop it dad,(shouting) you can leave us, we won't find you and please stop thinking that you belong to this family. When you leave at that door (pointing the entrance door) you will become a stranger to us. "

"alyyyy (begging) "- mother

"mom we can stand up in our own. we can, we can ( deep breath) survive in this unfair world. You have me, i will do everything for the three of us to live like we used to."

"I'm sorry honey, aly, monique. Please be strong for me. "

"Leave"- alyssa

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