Scent of Monsoon Love Numb

I was lying on the soft fabric of sheet

I was lying on bed

Died with sorrow

Pain,

Hatred

I woke up

I saw

I felt

I was a nobody

Nothing.

But rust

I tried A million times

Day and night year and decades

Uncountable efforts and then thousand of tears

Tons of suffer

And lot of vain

I was just numb

I thought i need time

I could be myself

But look i was wrong

I tried again and again and again the child inside me died

They saId act mature and now i am left with my thoughts and cries

I yelled at everything and i inhaled every single partical of dust present in the air

I coughed i screamed i lied and soon i will..

I will be waiting

cuz there is a million to protect for me before i loose it all

But i lost already

Cuz I gave up on it

I gave up

On it.

What now?

Who i am

who I was

And who i will be

Is not in my hand

I tried to be better

I lost

I tried to find peace

I lost

I tried to do something else

I lost.

In the end

I tried to protect myself

And i lost.

Lost it all

Why?

I don't know...

I really don't know

I don't remember the last time i saw my mother

I don't remember when she smiled at me and said its gonna be okay

I don't remember

They took me away

For their own benefit

queen ariel

Adopted me

I was never her daughter

I could never be

I hate them

I hate it all

I hate you

I hate being a princess

i don't remember my mother face clearly

I know she was beautiful

But during the war

They...they killed her.

They killed her.

That's what i heard from them

Cuz i never saw her

after the war

queen ariel adopted me cuz she didn't had any daughter

Back then

Soon when i grew up

They locked me up

I was never allowed to go outside my room

Lonely in dark

And i let it flow

let myself drown

And i am left with nothing

Princess Viola

I am devasted.....

(*knock on door*)

(*The princess was lying to the bed,deep in thoughts and lonely the knock snapped her out of her thoughts she was surprised but soon gathered her millions and billions of thoughts and soon put on her usual neutral mask*)

Princess Viola

Come in..

Prince carlos

(*bows*)Greetings Sister ..

Prince carlos

its have been a while how you have been doing?

Princess Viola

Fine

Princess Viola

How about you?

Prince carlos

I am doing great..

Princess Viola

Good to hear.

Prince carlos

I hope you.

Prince carlos

Heard about princess julietta..

Princess Viola

about her running away or about her visiting random commoners again?

Prince carlos

We haven't able to find her..

Princess Viola

None of them?

Prince carlos

None of us was able to find her..

Prince carlos

we searched through out the kingdom

Prince carlos

For everyone who could hurt her

Prince carlos

We found nothing

Prince carlos

no proof nothint

Princess Viola

...

Prince carlos

What should we do?

Princess Viola

Why are you asking me that?

Prince carlos

Sister you are the most smartest among us!

Prince carlos

Please help us out

Princess Viola

You are desperate

Prince carlos

Please.do me this favor

Princess Viola

Sit

Princess Viola

We can talk

Prince carlos

Sure of course we can