༺⃝⟣To Love a Villain⟢⃝༻ Volume i ((4))

✰ 𝙲𝚘𝚛𝚟𝚒𝚗𝚊 𝙿𝙾𝚅 ✰

I let out a chuckle, making Tracy give me a weird glance but I paid her no attention. It was funny, I can't believe I died twice. The first was painful but in my second life, I was so intoxicated, I didn't even feel any pain.

And now I'm here, back in time... Back to my first life.

I clicked my tongue

Come to think of it, does it mean I'm back in my first life, or would it count as my third life?

Tracy / fl maid

𝑫𝒐𝒏𝒆..

Tracy finished my dress and stepped back. I looked at myself in the mirror

I wonder how my family is taking the news of my death... They must be devastated...

I can't believe I did something so stupid and ended up getting myself killed again.

I let out a sigh and turned towards the bedroom door.

Both of my deaths were my own fault.

Corvina Cory / fl

𝑻𝒓𝒂𝒄𝒚.

I walked towards the door

Corvina Cory / fl

𝑾𝒉𝒂𝒕 𝒅𝒊𝒅 𝑰 𝒉𝒂𝒗𝒆 𝒕𝒐 𝒅𝒐 𝒂𝒈𝒂𝒊𝒏?

She frowned at my question,

Tracy / fl maid

𝒀𝒐𝒖 𝒘𝒆𝒓𝒆 𝒈𝒐𝒊𝒏𝒈 𝒕𝒐 𝒈𝒆𝒕 𝑯𝒂𝒆𝒍.

I stopped,

Hael

Just hearing that name made my heart skip a beat.

Corvina Cory / fl

𝑾𝒉𝒚?

Corvina Cory / fl

I grabbed the door handle

Ah... I closed my eyes and grimaced, then opened the door and stepped out.

Tracy / fl maid

𝑩𝒆𝒄𝒂𝒖𝒔𝒆 𝒚𝒐𝒖 𝒍𝒐𝒄𝒌𝒆𝒅 𝒉𝒊𝒎 𝒊𝒏 𝒉𝒊𝒔 𝒓𝒐𝒐𝒎 𝒇𝒐𝒓 𝒕𝒉𝒆 𝒘𝒉𝒐𝒍𝒆 𝒅𝒂𝒚.

Corvina Cory / fl

𝑾𝒂𝒊𝒕

I looked at her again,

Corvina Cory / fl

𝑯𝒐𝒘 𝒐𝒍𝒅 𝒂𝒎 𝑰?

She looked at me with a weird expression but answered anyway

Tracy / fl maid

𝑭𝒊𝒇𝒕𝒆𝒆𝒏.

Corvina Cory / fl

𝑭𝒊𝒇𝒕𝒆𝒆𝒏 ?

I was surprised, then I looked down in dismay.

Well shit

I'm back in time where I've already committed atrocities. If I remember right, by this age I had fought with every servant in the house. Not that it did me any good, but I hated how they treated me.

I shook my head.

If God was throwing me back in time, he could have chosen a time where I could at least redeem myself.

I began to walk away.

What the hell am I supposed to do here?

Corvina Cory / fl

𝑶𝒑𝒆𝒏 𝒕𝒉𝒆 𝒅𝒐𝒐𝒓.

I stood in the corridor, far away from his room while Tracy went ahead and opened the lock on Hael's room.

She opened the door,

Corvina Cory / fl

𝒀𝒐𝒖 𝒄𝒂𝒏 𝒄𝒐𝒎𝒆 𝒐𝒖𝒕.

She smiled at him shyly and I frowned. Why is she acting coy?

My question was answered pretty fast.

As Hael stepped out of the room and turned to walk towards me, my breath got caught in my throat.

His silver hair cascaded in silky waves, shimmering like strands of moonlight itself. His features were refined, sculpted with an almost divine precision, and he was tall but everything aside, what captivated me the most were his eyes.

An enchanting spectacle, gleaming like twin moons suspended in the night sky.

Hmm, I nodded at myself.

I remember,

It was love at first sight. He was a gift from my father. The only gift my father ever really gave me.

My heart started fluttering as he came up to me and stopped a few steps away.

I guess that would be normal. I was madly in love with him and for me, who just remembered my first life, my heart fluttering at the sight of him would make sense too.

I gulped,

For someone like me, whose eyes and hair were jet black just like her life, he was my moon, the one who was giving me light. Falling in love with him became my reason to live and was probably why I became such a deranged person.

He was staring back at me and I knew I had to say something. But what? I can't exactly remember why I locked him because I may have remembered it all yesterday. It was twenty four years ago. I lived another life between these.

Corvina Cory / fl

𝑾𝒊𝒍𝒍 𝒚𝒐𝒖 𝒅𝒐 𝒊𝒕 𝒂𝒈𝒂𝒊𝒏?

I asked as I folded my arms. That should be fine. It's a pretty general question.

Hael Helio / ml

𝑵𝒐.

He answered, looking straight into my eyes,

Hael Helio / ml

𝑰 𝒘𝒐𝒏'𝒕 𝒈𝒐 𝒐𝒖𝒕 𝒐𝒏 𝒆𝒓𝒓𝒂𝒏𝒅𝒔 𝒘𝒊𝒕𝒉 𝒂𝒏𝒚 𝒐𝒕𝒉𝒆𝒓 𝒘𝒐𝒎𝒂𝒏.

Corvina Cory / fl

.....

OH! For God's sake. I locked him up because he went out to do his errands?

It makes sense why he killed me. The kind of person I was, I would always think that he was cheating on me. We weren't even together. We couldn't be together. I'm his master and a noble. Yet in my mind he only belonged to me. I had all kinds of fantasies about him.

I got him when I was twelve and everyone in the manor bullied him like crazy till he hit adulthood and turned into a kind of ethereal handsome man. If I'm fifteen, he must be seventeen.

I glanced around, my eyes catching the maids who were swooning over him.

Hmph

I scoffed.

He must have hated that too though, considering he left no one alive in the whole mansion.

And I guess, this is when he was already sleeping around with the maids. I don't think I found that out until a year later though.

I looked down at the heart shaped pink gem necklace I was wearing.

I used this a lot.

It's a magic necklace and this heart shape indicates the heart beating inside Hael's chest.

I looked at him again.

I can pour mana in it and plunge him into agony.

I saw him staring at the gem between my fingers. I think by this time I had already used it on him two or three times.

I let out a sarcastic snicker as I turned my head away but it caught the attention of everyone in the corridor. They all stared at me and I got conscious.

Ah Shucks! I am still a noble, so people have eyes on me all the time!

Corvina Cory / fl

𝑰 𝒘𝒐𝒏'𝒕 𝒖𝒔𝒆 𝒊𝒕.

I told him and his shoulders relaxed a little but my heart continued to beat fast. Not only out of my crush for him, but also because of fear.

Three more years and he kills everyone here.

What do I do then?

Is there anything I can do to change this? What should I do? I've already used the gemstone on him and people here have bullied him a lot too.

If I stop it now, will that make a difference?

I looked around and a thought crossed my mind.

Wait...

Did I even have the authority to do anything?

Wasn't I the black sheep?