Big boys do cry too
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It was around four in the night…
Jackson Wang
*woke up gasping*
Jackson Wang
JINYOUNG…. *yelled as he woke up*
Jackson Wang
*sat up and looked around and his eyes landed on a childhood photo beside his bed*
This photo and the ring Jinyoung made him out blooming flowers (when they were playing wedding)… that didn’t get destroyed in the fire that “destroyed” his and their (the Park’s) lives… this is because he carried the photo with him everywhere since he told Jinyoung back then that when they go to school he (JW) always misses him (PJ) he has to always look at his photo to get through the hours they aren’t together… and the flower ring, he said that married people don’t take off their rings once their lovers make them wear it…
He made a million copies of it… carries a copy everywhere he goes… also made two identical rings out of jade that resembles the one Jinyoung gave him… he always wears his… and the originals and the ring he made for Jinyoung are kept in a secret safe (a high secured volt in one of France’s biggest banks)… He once killed a whole mafia group that tried to break into the bank with the volt holding the original photo… yet he spared the group that stole his newly imported guns from Russia…
The one he made for Jinyoung
Jackson Wang
*got up and picked the photo and went and sat on the couch and stared into the dark*
Jackson Wang
*tears fell without him even trying to stop them*
Jackson Wang
I lose you every time I fall asleep… *talking to the photo he was hugging so tight like his life depended on it*
Jackson Wang
I try not to fall asleep… *crying* but I fail…
Jackson Wang
I’m so sorry that I let you die every time… *cried more like a child whose candy has been stolen from him*
After crying for a while he suddenly burst into laughter… more like a mocking laugh…
Jackson Wang
*looked at himself through the glass framing the photo*
Jackson Wang
*looked at his tear stained face*
Jackson Wang
Who knew that even the most dangerous mafia and most powerful businessman would wake up crying and trembling because of a nightmare of his past…
Jackson Wang
They say big boys don’t cry… *mumbled to himself*
Jackson Wang
Sometimes I want to believe and not cry… *looked at the photo in his hands and tears fell all over again*
Jackson Wang
But I can’t bring myself to do that when I remember that big fire… all though it might not have taken you… you must have been scared when you saw it…
After him (JW) witnessing that huge fire thirteen years ago that destroyed his home and allegedly killed the people he loves the most… he became Pyrophobic…
An extreme fear of fire is called Pyrophobia. It is an intense, irrational fear of fire that can cause severe anxiety or panic, even when there is no real danger.
Jackson Wang
You said it’s okay for big boys to cry because you will always be there to hug me when I cried… *remembered Jinyoung’s words*
When Jackson was eleven and Jinyoung was four…
Before starting to live alone (before the Park’s came into the picture)… he used to live with his grandmother, The old lady Wang…
She made him delicious meals , told him stories, comforted him when he was done… she didn’t have high expectations of him that were way old for his age like his father and grandfather… apart from being a child…
Later when he was seven his grandfather died… this caused his grandmother’s health to decline rapidly that she couldn’t care for him like before… So the Park’s came into the picture…
When he was ten his grandmother finally died… this broke him but his father told him that “big boys don’t cry”… so he refused him to cry… he didn’t since his grandmother who defended and protected him from growing up quickly…
A year later when it was his grandmother’s death anniversary… he went to the gardens where they used to spend their time together… he felt like crying but he couldn’t… that’s when the four year old Jinyoung found him…
Park Jinyoung (young)
Yungie… *called him softly*
Jackson Wang (teenager)
Yes my little prince… *helping him to sit on the bench*
Park Jinyoung (young)
Is Yungie sad… *asked looking at him with innocent doe eyes*
Jackson Wang (teenager)
No I’m not… *said avoiding his eyes*
Park Jinyoung (young)
Lair… *said sulking* You always avoid looking at my face when you lie…
Jackson Wang (teenager)
*shocked*
Park Jinyoung (young)
Now say… Jinnie is here… *said softly and encouragingly*
Jackson Wang (teenager)
*broke and finally said*
Jackson Wang (teenager)
I miss my Nana (grandmother )… *with so much emotion but still he didn’t cry*
Park Jinyoung (young)
Did you look for her… *asked innocently since he was young to understand death*
Jackson Wang (teenager)
Yes but couldn’t find her… *didn’t want to scare him with death and it’s meaning and everything that comes with it*
Park Jinyoung (young)
When I miss my mama and can’t find her… I just cry… *said innocently*
Jackson Wang (teenager)
But big boys don’t cry… *mumbled to himself but Jinyoung heard*
Park Jinyoung (young)
*heard and jumped down from the bench like he was ready to fight*
Park Jinyoung (young)
Who said that… *asked angrily and he looked really angry*
Park Jinyoung (young)
I beat some brain (knowledge) into their Dum Dum heads…
Jackson Wang (teenager)
*instead of feeling like laughing he felt his head do these weird flips*
Jackson Wang (teenager)
My papa said so…
Park Jinyoung (young)
*realised that the protagonist was older and bigger than him so he said*
Park Jinyoung (young)
*opened his hand signaling to be carried*
Jackson Wang (teenager)
*carried him and placed him on his laps*
Park Jinyoung (young)
Don’t worry… *hugging him*
Park Jinyoung (young)
When Jinnie grows bigger… he will beat your dum dum appa…
Jackson Wang (teenager)
*nodded*
Park Jinyoung (young)
He lied… *added*
Park Jinyoung (young)
Big boys also cry… and if they don’t…
Park Jinyoung (young)
Jinnie will hug you every time you want to cry… *said innocently*
Jackson Wang (teenager)
*felt himself start to cry*
Park Jinyoung (young)
No one will see you cry… and I won’t tell anyone so no one will know…
Park Jinyoung (young)
I promise… *breaking the hug and showing his pinky finger as a sign of promising*
Jackson Wang (teenager)
*interlocked their pinky fingers and hugged him again*
That was the first day he cried after a year… after that day no negative word mattered and another
After crying for long and now the tears weren’t falling anymore he sat there staring off into space…
An hour before his early morning meeting his brother (cousin) came to get him…
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