PROLOGUE

Isn't love such a cruel thing?

Many people recite it in a novel tone how much their love is so beautiful. How their faces glow as they talk of the wonderful prospects that love brings.

Maybe it is only I who has experienced the other side.

The side that is so bitter I find it hard to swallow.

Yet why can't I let it go?

I clutch onto it as my hands bleed from the thorns that prick into my skin,holding promises of the road ahead.

More pain.

Yet I can not say I don't understand them. When I myself look at him like he is my whole world. I dare not look away from him with the fear that he will disappear.

I want to hold him.

To kiss him.

I want him to embrace me as I fall asleep while listening to his heartbeat.

He is an addiction that I refuse to let go of.

And yet, because of the same love, we stand at crossroads.

My heart was weary and filled with sadness.

But the eyes that stare back at me are not those I recognise.

They were once filled with love.

They once looked at me and only me.

But I can't blame him.

This is all because of my selfishness.

And I would do it again over and over if it means I could see him one more time.

Tears pricked my eyes as we stood on the opposite sides of each other.

Could we not go back?

Could we not go back to when there was less pain?

Now that I think of it,maybe his heart couldn't bear the pain that came with our love.

The road behind us was filled with so much darkness, and it was already in tatters.

But I could not help but remember his soft hands embracing me in the dead of the night as he showered my body with the softest kisses while he held me like I was so precious.

I felt the droplets of the rain slowly start to fall.

Maybe the heavens felt my pain that it sent down the rain to cover my tears, if only to save some of my dignity.

I felt a hand roughly push me to the ground. My knees felt the stones prick at my skin, shooting pain through my body, but I didn't care my eyes still rest on him.

I could feel the tears cascade down my cheeks as I wept in bitterness for what we had come to.

The rain tried to wipe away my tears, but could it wipe away the sorrow that wrenched my heart.

It would have been better if I died by the sword than to see this.

Then I want to see the love of my life so far from me.

I could still remember his whispers. I could still feel his hands around my waist clinging to me. I could still remember his laugh.

WAS IT ALL A LIE ?

I refuse to accept this fate.

I refuse to accept what was proclaimed as our destiny.

I was wrong.

It was all my fault.

Did they have to punish me in such a cruel way.

“Please….“ I murmur, my voice shaking as I plead.

My eyes are calling onto him.

He remained silent, his eyes so cold and unmoving.

I wanted to explain to him.

I wanted to make things right.

Could we not reverse time?

“Don't go…..“ I cried out as he turned away from me.

I felt like my world was shattering. I felt all my strength leaving my body.

It would be better if he looked at me. Even if his eyes held such unfamiliar cruelty but could he not turn away from me. I didn't know if I would be able to handle it.

“No…..!!!…..No….!….please!! “ I screamed in agony as I watched him start to walk away.

Each step feels like a stab to my heart.

I didn't care how pathetic I looked as the person behind me nudged at the chains on my hands so painfully I didn't even notice I was crawling towards him.

I tried to resist as I used all my strength, but I felt those familiar hands pin me against the ground. My clothes got soiled from the mud, but I didn't care.

I knew those hands. I knew to whom they belonged. They once had so much warmth that I questioned if I deserved such compassion.

“Please….I love you….!!!“ I cried out.

And he stopped.

I found it hard to say those words. How they rolled so easily on my tongue felt like a betrayal.

I wish I had been braver before. I wish I had said it more often.

His hands formed tight fists, but he didn't turn.

“Please don't go….!!!“ I cried out pleading once again.

How far i had fallen.

I had everything everyone desired.

Only for it to be stripped from me in such an unfathomable way.

Now, here I was, my last hope.

The last thing I want to hold onto.

But he doesn't want me anymore.

“NOOOOOOO……..!!!!!!“ I screamed bitterly as I watched him continue to walk further away.

I knew he heard me. I knew he could feel my pain. Even if it was just curtesy for what we once shared, could he not go.

I used all my strength and clawed my way from underneath the heavy hands holding me down.

My hands stretched out the chain, hanging onto my wrist, heavy with my burdens and hopes.

I was just about to.

I was so close to touching him when I felt the hands pull me back before slamming me to the ground once again.

He didn't look back.

And I sobbed.

At the very beginning

Could we not go back???

To when I first met him…….

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