EPISODE THREE

The door opens to an abyss.

There’s no color, no light, no promise of anything but horror

on the other side. No words. No direction. Just an open door

that means the same thing every time.

Cellmate has questions.

“What the hell?” He looks from me to the illusion of escape.

“They’re letting us out?”

They’ll never let us out. “It’s time to shower.”

“Shower?” His voice loses inflection but it’s still threaded

with curiosity.

“We don’t have much time,” I tell him. “We have to hurry.”

“Wait, what?” He reaches for my arm but I pull away.

“But there’s no light—we can’t even see where we’re going——”

“Quickly.” I focus my eyes on the floor. “Take the hem of

my shirt.”

“What are you talking about—”

An alarm sounds in the distance. A buzzing hums closer by

the second. Soon the entire cell is vibrating with the warning

and the door is slipping back into place. I grab his shirt and

pull him into the blackness beside me. “Don’t. Say. Anything.”

“Bu—”

“Nothing,” I hiss. I tug on his shirt and command him to

follow me as I feel my way through the maze of the mental

institution. It’s a home, a center for troubled youth, for

neglected children from broken families, a safe house for the

psychologically disturbed. It’s a prison. They feed us nothing

and our eyes never see each other except in the rare bursts of

light that steal their way through cracks of glass they pretend

are windows. Nights are punctured by screams and heaving

sobs, wails and tortured cries, the sounds of flesh and bone

breaking by force or choice I’ll never know. I spent the first 3 months in the company of my own stench. No one ever told

me where the bathrooms and showers were located. No one

ever told me how the system worked. No one speaks to you

unless they’re delivering bad news. No one touches you ever

at all. Boys and girls never find each other.

Never but yesterday.

It can’t be coincidence.

My eyes begin to readjust in the artificial cloak of night. My

fingers feel their way through the rough corridors, and

Cellmate doesn’t say a word. I’m almost proud of him. He’s

nearly a foot taller than me, his body hard and solid with the

muscle and strength of someone close to my age. The world

has not yet broken him. Such freedom in ignorance.

“Wha—”

I tug on his shirt a little harder to keep him from speaking.

We’ve not yet cleared the corridors. I feel oddly protective of

him, this person who could probably break me with 2 fingers.

He doesn’t realize how his ignorance makes him vulnerable.

He doesn’t realize that they might kill him for no reason at all.

I’ve decided not to be afraid of him. I’ve decided his actions

are more immature than genuinely threatening. He looks so

familiar so familiar so familiar to me. I once knew a boy with

the same blue eyes and my memories won’t let me hate him.

Perhaps I’d like a friend.

6 more feet until the wall goes from rough to smooth and

then we make a right. 2 feet of empty space before we reach a

wooden door with a broken handle and a handful of splinters.

3 heartbeats to make certain we’re alone. 1 foot forward to

edge the door inward. 1 soft creak and the crack widens to

reveal nothing but what I imagine this space to look like. “This

way,” I whisper.

I tug him toward the row of showers and scavenge the floor

for any bits of soap lodged in the drain. I find 2 pieces, one

twice as big as the other. “Open your hand,” I tell the darkness.

“It’s slimy. But don’t drop it. There isn’t much soap and we

got lucky today.”

He says nothing for a few seconds and I begin to worry.

“Are you still there?” I wonder if this was the trap. If this

was the plan. If perhaps he was sent to kill me under the cover

of darkness in this small space. I never really knew what they

were going to do to me in the asylum, I never knew if they

thought locking me up would be good enough but I always

thought they might kill me. It always seemed like a viable

option.

I can’t say I wouldn’t deserve it.

But I’m in here for something I never meant to do and no

one seems to care that it was an accident.

My parents never tried to help me.

I hear no showers running, and my heart stops in place. This

particular room is rarely full, but there are usually others, if

only 1 or 2. I’ve come to realize that the asylum’s residents are

either legitimately insane and can’t find their way to the

showers, or they simply don’t care.

I swallow hard.

“What’s your name?” His voice splits the air and my stream

of consciousness in one movement. I can feel him breathing

much closer than he was before. My heart is racing, and I don’t

know why, but I can’t control it. “Why won’t you tell me your

name?”

“Is your hand open?” I ask, my mouth dry, my voice hoarse.

He inches forward, and I’m almost scared to breathe. His

fingers graze the starchy fabric of the only outfit I’ll ever own, and I manage to exhale. As long as he’s not touching my skin.

As long as he’s not touching my skin. As long as he’s not

touching my skin. This seems to be the secret.

My thin T-shirt has been washed in the harsh water of this

building so many times it feels like a burlap sack against my

skin. I drop the bigger piece of soap into his hand and tiptoe

backward. “I’m going to turn the shower on for you,” I

explain, anxious not to raise my voice lest others should hear

me.

“What do I do with my clothes?” His body is still too close

to mine.

I blink 1,000 times in the blackness. “You have to take them

off.”

He laughs something that sounds like an amused breath.

“No, I know. I meant what do I do with them while I shower?”

“Try not to get them wet.”

He takes a deep breath. “How much time do we have?”

“Two minutes.”

“Jesus, why didn’t you say somethi—”

I turn on his shower at the same time I turn on my own and

his complaints drown under the broken bullets of the barely

functioning spigots.

My movements are mechanical. I’ve done this so many

times I’ve already memorized the most efficient methods of

scrubbing, rinsing, and rationing soap for my body as well as

my hair. There are no towels, so the trick is trying not to soak

any part of your body with too much water. If you do you’ll

never dry properly and you’ll spend the next week nearly

dying of pneumonia. I would know.

In exactly 90 seconds I’ve wrung my hair and I’m slipping

back into my tattered outfit. My tennis shoes are the only

things I own that are still in fairly good condition. We don’t do

much walking around here.

Cellmate follows suit almost immediately. I’m pleased that

he learns quickly.

“Take the hem of my shirt,” I instruct him. “We have to

hurry.”

His fingers skim the small of my back for a slow moment

and I have to bite my lip to stifle the intensity. I nearly stop in

place. No one ever puts their hands anywhere near my body.

I have to hurry forward so his fingers will fall back. He

stumbles to catch up.

When we’re finally trapped in the familiar 4 walls of

claustrophobia, Cellmate won’t stop staring at me.

I curl into myself in the corner. He still has my bed, my

blanket, my pillow. I forgive him his ignorance, but perhaps

it’s too soon to be friends. Perhaps I was too hasty in helping

him. Perhaps he really is only here to make me miserable. But

if I don’t stay warm I will get sick. My hair is too wet, and the

blanket I usually wrap it in is still on his side of the room.

Maybe I’m still afraid of him.

I breathe in too sharply, look up too quickly in the dull light

of the day. Cellmate has draped 2 blankets over my shoulders.

1 mine.

1 his.

“I’m sorry I’m such an asshole,” he whispers to the wall. He

doesn’t touch me and I’m disappointed happy he doesn’t. I

wish he would. He shouldn’t. No one should ever touch me.

“I’m Adam,” he says slowly. He backs away from me until

he’s cleared the room. He uses one hand to push my bed frame

back to my side of the space.

Adam.

Such a nice name. Cellmate has a nice name.

It’s a name I’ve always liked, but I can’t remember why.

I waste no time climbing onto the barely concealed springs

of my mattress, and I’m so exhausted I can hardly feel the

metal coils threatening to puncture my skin.

I haven’t slept in more than 24 hours. Adam is a nice name

is the only thing I can think of before exhaustion cripples my

body.

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