Time Is Lonely

A new day

“Life where everything is granted, every wish is made true, what is the meaning of that kind of life? On the other hand, some people can’t even get a full-course meal daily. Their wishes and dreams are just luxury. People live in their respective different worlds, and this difference defines them as they are for their lives. But there are some people who don’t believe in destiny and want to defy the law of the world. The tradition made by humans for centuries is also broken by men himself.”

“Why bother resisting while being in the lowest end? Doing nothing is easier. Just because of that useless ego, that meaningless dignity, why is making one’s life hell? Just bend down on your knees and apologize, and you will be spared. At worst, you will have to face less harsh treatment from your superior one.”

“This kind of motive is also a kind of positivity, which can at least help to keep going and continue to the miserable life for some losers. I say my life is mine; why won’t I be able to live it as I want? Hell your rules, hell your customs. Even in hell, I will defy the hades himself.”

Erick closed his diary and kept it aside. He went to the side of his room and poured a glass of water. Suddenly his hand started shaking, and the glass fell from his hand. Luckily it was a steel glass, so there was no chance of it breaking. He bent down and lifted the glass and poured another glass of water and drank it. After that, he cleaned the wet floor and went to sleep. He lay down on the washed bedsheet and stared at the ceiling. “It would have been better if there was no roof above him,” he thought.

Unfortunately, the room is a basement room, even hulf of it under the ground. There are two rooms in Eric’s underground apartment. One for his bedding and study table, and the other is the kitchen and utility area attached with the tiny bathroom and wash area. Although it’s not as good as before, it's enough for a single person like himself.

“Life is not good, but who cares? I will fight back. Tomorrow I will have to go to see Mom. She is still waiting for Father to come back. Once Father comes back, everything will be alright. Even if we don’t have much money now, we can earn enough. Now I can even earn money for both me and mom. After dad comes back, there will be two hands for income. Mom’s surgery won’t postpone anymore. And after that, everything will be like before. We will live a normal, happy life. Once again.” Erick’s eyelids are drifting closer. Every tomorrow is wishful and dreamy for him. But the day he left behind was something he did not want to remember. Even though he knows deep down in his heart that his dream is not going to come true in the near future. Tomorrow is also going to be like today, but the dream is endless. Or he might think about the tomorrow he is going to make by putting on the hell every day.