Confession

"What the..." Disoriented and shocked, Annalouie pushes me off of his body before scrambling away. "What the hell are you doing?"

"What am I doing?" I parrot, glaring. "What are you doing? You're ending your life like this?"

"What ending..." He pauses, glances at the noose before meeting my gaze again. "Are you out of your mind? I'm not killing myself!"

"W-what? You're not?"

"I'm not! Do you think that light straw can take up my weight? That one's part of my next project! Damn it! What are you even doing here?" Annalouie starts getting up but I snatch his arm and search his face. "What?" He snaps, irritated.

"Do you love me?"

"What?" He stiffens, looking almost scared. "What are you spouting about?”

"Answer me, Annalouie! Are you in love with me?"

"I don't have time for this." He twists his arm from my hold but I clutch his collar this time. "What the hell are you doing?"

"I love you." I lean near his face, taking the opportunity when he falls speechless and becomes frozen like a statue. "I'm in love with you. Now, answer me. Do you love me, too?"

"Get out!" Annalouie suddenly roars, eyes blazing with anger while pointing at the door. "Get out right now!"

"Why are you angry?" I snap at him.

"I don't even know why you're spouting this bullsh*t to me! But I don't want to hear it!" He finally frees himself from my clutches when my grip loses strength. "Leave, Axel!”

“Not until you answer me." I say, my eyes brimming with unshed tears of regret and pain. Am I too late? "Do you love me?"

"I don't."

"Look at me in the eyes when you answer!"

Annalouie turns and meets my gaze, his jaw ticking. "I don't love you. Now go!"

I can't hold it the f*ck anymore. I bawl in front of him like a goddamn pu$sy. I'm too late, after all. He doesn't love me anymore. Maybe it was never even love to begin with. It must be just an infatuation. A kid's passing craze. It f*cking hurts like hell.

"Jesus! Why are you crying?”

“I saw your paintings of me. I read what you put on the label. Why?" I ask, raising my streaming gaze at him but Annalouie quickly averts his eyes.

“Whatever my feelings are, it has nothing to do with you. Now, please. Will you leave already?"

"It has nothing to do with me?" I exclaim, eyes wide in disbelief. "But those feelings are directed at me. How come it has nothing to do with me?"

"If I told you I love you, what of it, then?"

Shocked, I crawl near his feet and tug at his pants. "So you mean it? You really love me?”

“Every damn fiber of my being! I have carried this burdensome feeling for a long time! But what would it change to our situation now?"

"It f*cking changes everything!"

"You're married!" Annalouie pivots and paces his room, clutching his rioting curls. "You're married and you're telling another person you love them? Are you crazy?"

"My marriage is a fraud!" I snap at him, rising to my feet before clutching his collar. "I explained it before to mom and dad. I'm pretty much sure you were also there during dinner."

"What do you mean it's a fraud?" He frowns, voice softening, trembling in suspense.

"Well, we are married but only in papers. Jessie is from Alaska but she's about to be deported for an expired visa. She wanted to be a residence here that's why we got married. But we are not... We are nothing! We're just friends!”

Annalouie shudders, his tears suddenly flow from his eyes as he holds my face in his trembling hands. "Is that true?"

"Yes, absolutely!" I nod, chuckling and crying at the same time. "The hell! So you weren't listening back then? Was this why you got angry and beat me up?"

“I was too devastated hearing you announcing your marriage. I didn't get to catch the rest of your explanation. Besides, if I didn't shift my feelings into anger, you'd commit adultery and I'd hate to be a part of it. Oh, god!" He grabs me into his chest and hugs me tight. "Say it. Tell me you love me, Axel."

“I love you.” I pull away a little and meet his green gaze. "I love you so much it hurts." Tugging his collar down, I kiss his lips for the first time.

We both moan. Embrace tightening, Annalouie kisses me back, deeper and longer. He thrusts his tongue into me and I suck on it hard. He groans, walking me across the room, bumping into his easel and stepping on his paint tubes in the process. But we are too consumed with each other to care for anything else.

My back hits something hard but it eventually gives way from our weight. We fall with it to the floor but our mouths miraculously didn't separate. Kissing Annalouie feels so good. He tastes better than all the expensive wines I've tasted. I can't get enough of him. I'm suddenly addicted.

"We should've done this a long time ago." I say in between our frantic kiss.

"I want you to initiate it." He answers, slanting his head to deepen the kiss. "You've always been so sure of what you want. That's why I want you to also want me. To be the one to kiss me. To take me like you mean it.”

"Well, I did now." I bite his lower lip before soothing it with my tongue.

"Yes, you did." He captures my tongue and sucks it into his mouth before grabbing my face and settles his forehead against mine. "Please divorce her."

"What?"

"Your wife. Divorce her this instantly!"

I chuckle and kiss him again. Annalouie quickly answers me, frantic and hungry. We're both hard beneath our pants but we're somehow contented just kissing. Kissing softly, passionately. Kissing deeply and desperately. We kiss longer until our lips swell and jaw aches.

Catching our breaths, we pause and nibble each other. I groan when I realize I came on my pants. Sh*t! I can't believe kissing can make me ejac*late. This is so insane! Although it won't be wise leaving the house now with the obvious stain on my pants.

I cup Annalouie's face and meet his gaze imploringly. "I can"t divorce her. Not yet. We still have one more year before her residency gets approved."

"No, divorce her right now! I don't care if she gets deported! Be mad at me, be disappointed. To hell if you get turned off. This is the way I love! I'm selfish and calculating."

"No. You're just possessive and I like it." I soothe his back like petting a large dog. "One more year and we'll get divorced. After that, it's only you and me."

"I can't wait anymore, Axel. I've longed for you for so long."

"Then all the more reason you can last for another year. You're used to waiting anyway."

"You are cruel."

"You love me anyway."

"You have no idea." He admits shamelessly. “You made me so mad of jealousy whenever I wind up hearing you jumping from one woman to another."

"How did you know when I had a woman?" I frown, hand stopping for a moment from kneading his back.

“I'm simply your stalker and I take them away from you."

"What?"

"Whenever you have a girlfriend or even a f*ck buddy, I snatch them all from you. You know, you're kind of like a manwh*re. You have a lot of women by your side."

"Wait a minute..." I try sitting up, but Annalouie just presses me back on the floor, resting his head on my chest. "You snatched them all from me?"

"Yeah. I even tried seducing your wife. It was so simple. Why were you even with those women who were not faithful to you?"

"Because I'm not faithful to them as well." I honestly answer, realizing with a grimace how bastard I sound. "No, I mean, all the women I was with knew that I'm only after sex."

"You are a manwh*re!" Annalouie exclaims with heavy accusation. "I don't like that part of you."

"It's biological needs, you know." I answer defensively and suddenly stop. "Hey, so who amongst my exes you f*cked that day I returned from my two-year internship?"

“Your ex?" Annalouie raises his head, frowning down at me, green eyes glinting like a devil. "You mean you didn't see her face? I'll introduce you to her."

“Huh?" I raise my head up, watching Annalouie stands and opens his closet before pulling something out of the corner. "What the hell's that?" My eyes bulge in shock at the doll he's holding.

"Axel, meet Alexa." Annalouie says, spreading the dolls legs apart. "She's a bit loose but still has me blowing my nuts off.”

"You..." I don't know what to say.

"I got so lonely when you weren't around so I bought a sex doll and replaced her face with your picture. I f*cked her every day up until now."

"Holy sh*t!" I sit up and snatch the doll from him to examine it. "And the woman who's screaming to be f*cked deeper?"

"P*rn video, Axel." He rolls his eyes at me.

“So I got jealous with this f*cking sl*t?" I say in disbelief, wanting to strangle the doll for making me misunderstand. “I think you might've forgotten to wash this. It's crusty."

"I always come inside your c*nt."

"I have no c*nt!" I glare at him.

"Alexa has. She's your woman version after all."

"Do you want me to change my c*ck into a c*nt?"

"Well, do you want to?"

"I'm the one asking you, Annalouie!"

"But that's your body, Axel. No matter what you got between your thighs, I'd still love you anyway."

"Jesus!" I drop myself on the floor, toss the doll to the side before spreading my arms and thighs, inviting Annalouie to come back. "Show me how much you love me, then."

Annalouie grins, pulls his shirt over his head and drops his pants to the floor. I watch him undress in a hurry, looking starved and dangerous. He drops to his knees, takes my clothes off from my body as well before kissing my lips.

"Hmm..." I moan, clutching his hair and wrap my thighs around his waist. "You showed me how good sex is and I kind of panicked that you've ruined me. That's why I searched for a substitute, hoping that you're not just the only person who can give me that kind of pleasure."

"What did you find out?" He licks my lips, prodding them open and I give him entrance for his tongue.

"That you're the only hmm." I suck his tongue that enters my mouth before pushing it out so I can continue speaking. "...you're the only one who can give me that kind of pleasure."

"You fell in love with me just for that?"

I chuckle. "No, of course not. But it's what helped me finally accept my feelings for you. The mind-blowing sex is just an icing on top of your delicious body.”

"Took you so long." He grumbles, his arms tightening around me in a possessive manner. "I don't know if I can endure another year now that I know you love me back, Axel. I can't wait anymore knowing now that you're already mine. I want you all to myself. Please divorce your wife. I beg you."

I can't answer him so I just kiss him again. I'm kind of scared if Annalouie gets jealous. I remember how he beat me up like he's about to kill me when I announced getting married. Not that I didn't fight back. But I hate getting into a brawl with him like that again. How should I make him understand?

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