TWO
Liam put his arm around my waist and kissed my neck
Liam Flynn
Come on, Sylvia. You will like it
I hesitated, unsure, but still tilted mt head to give him access so that he wouldn't get irritated
We've been dating for the past two months. Liam was my first-ever boyfriend
He was my colleague and I was more than shocked when he first asked me out. No one has ever been romantically interested in me, like never. Maybe because I wasn't attractive enough?
But then Liam asked me out, and after a few dates I gained a bit of confidence, and we became official
I was scared of being vulnerable with him
We did kiss and let our hands wander but as soon as he started to touch me down there, I used to back away
He was patient, but I could sense his frustration
Liam Flynn
*whispers while his hand on her waist* Sylvia, please..
Liam Flynn
It's been two months, I want to be closer to you. I'm dying over here
I felt bad for him and nodded hesitantly
It wasn't like I didn't find him attractive, he was cute and handsome, so I thought I would give it a try
Till when will I remain like this?
But as we moved to the bed, I felt nervous. Liam was gentle, but still I was uncomfortable
As he started to touch me intimately, I felt more nervous and uncomfortable
Sylvia Darko || FL
I'm not sure...
Liam Flynn
*ignores her and continues*
Sylvia Darko || FL
Liam, stop
Sylvia Darko || FL
I don't like this. It hurts
Even if I ignored the physical pain, I didn't feel good emotionally. I didn't feel anything connection with him, any intimacy.
I didn't want my first time to be like this
Liam Flynn
*annoyed* You agreed to this
Liam Flynn
You're ruining the moment
Sylvia Darko || FL
Stop, please. I don't want to do this anymore, please.
I begged, tears pricking my eyes
Liam Flynn
*groaned* Oh, for fuck's sake
Liam Flynn
You ruined this whole thing
He pulled away, his face scowling. His anger and frustration evident
Now, he did technically took away my virginity
I didn't want it to be like this
Liam Flynn
I'm so fucking done with this *grumbles as he got off the bed and wears his clothes*
Liam Flynn
Fuck the bet, i don't wanna do this anymore
Sylvia Darko || FL
Bet? What bet?
Liam Flynn
*stares at her cruelly* Did you think that i would want you? If not for the bet my friends did, I wouldn't even spare you a second glance. You are nothing special.
Each word hit her straight in the heart, a lump forming in her throat
Sylvia Darko || FL
*asks firmly* What bet? Exactly.
Liam Flynn
*rolls his eyes* They bet that you must be desperate for attention and that it wouldn't be a big task for me to seduce you to bed. Turns out, I simply wasted my time.
I wouldn't even spare you a second glance
My body trembled with rage and hurt as I got off the bed and grabbed my clothes, putting them as quickly as possible
I refused to cry, refused to let the tears fall even though my eyes were quickly filling with them
I grabbed my handbag, put on my sandals and moved to the door of his small apartment
Pausing at the door, I glanced back at him and forced a tight smile on my face
Sylvia Darko || FL
I could have loved you, but I'm glad I didn't. You're a real piece of work, and I wish you the worst life ahead.
On the way back home, his words kept repeating in my head
Sylvia Darko || FL
(I'm never dating again. Never. This was the first and the last time.)
Sylvia Darko || FL
(But what about my plans to find my soulmate?)
Sylvia Darko || FL
(Does he even exist? I think not.)
Not able to control my emotions anymore, I went inside a public toilet and inside one of the stalls, I shut the door and let the tears flow.
I was just a game to him. And to think he was genuinely interested in me
Sylvia Darko || FL
(You know what, I am going to ask Dad to get me married. An arranged marriage. Maybe after spending a lot of time with me, my husband will eventually get to like me-)
Sylvia Darko || FL
(That's such a pathetic thought)
The tears didn't stop coming out and I hiccuped, digging my fingers into my palms.
I had romantic dreams. Of finding my soulmate, being loved and desired despite my physical appearance
I scoffed at my stupid dreams and cried my heart out until my eyes were dry and they itched because of crying so much.
Sylvia Darko || FL
(Fuck Liam)
Sylvia Darko || FL
(One day, I am going to find my soulmate and then prove to him that I can be loved after all)
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