introduction

I am just an

unknown person to myself, family and society too. A person is known to everyone

by their own success or big failure. In my case I am just unknown even I am

successful or failure, I will be still unknown to everyone.

So that`s

why I decided not to share my name and show myself as unknown as I have been

living as.

I always

thought living happily is god`s gift to people. It is a gift to everyone but

only few uses it correctly. I wish I had a big brain to use that

properly.

Ok its time to start my journey and try to improve myself as human. Oh I forgot to mention, I am a student who never wishes to attend college. Anyways lets get ready and go to college for

my family`s sake.

I never enjoyed going to college because all I learned there was betrayal

and bullying. I never hate people but I hate their way of treating people.

One day they will show love, the other day suddenly we will become their

enemies. enemies. I hate myself for not being able to meet their standards. I wish I could

love myself to let them love me too.

Anyways, I need to accept the fact that, humans will hate another human

for no reason. It`s time for me to show my acting skills to humans in that damn

college

I got my backpack. I greet my parents before going to college. I am so

lucky to have them in my life. They are not like other parents, they know how

to support and make feel so precious in their world.

Sometimes I feel like they deserve a good, obedient and someone who can

make them happy and give them what they deserve.

God gives broken dolls to undeserved people and gives precious dolls to

some undeserved people. Broken dolls break the precious people and make them

look miserable.

Likewise, undeserved people break the precious dolls and make the

precious one`s break themselves and others too. I don`t understand if it`sa

curse or blessing, but gods things always mesmerises me.

Finally, I reached college. I rush directly towards my place and sit

silent. silent. I dont like this human interactions so I place my head on the desk to avoid human interactions. I know, I may sound so childish, but what can you expect from teenage college student? This life is so messy, lecture is already started. I started to take notes because I dont want to beg someone to share their notes with me. So I

always write my own notes.

And it is not a sin to write notes for ourselves. Anyways, I will just

focus on my lecture now. If I fail in exams, then dad will bring party again

Confused after hearing about party? It is not beating or any punishment.

It Is really a home party. Last time I failed in two papers, my parents

congrats me and cooked delicious meal for us. We celebrate my failure in

exams.

I still remember what my father said that day, “you gave your best but

still failed. Life is like this only. Even after your hardwork, sometimes you

will receive failure in the end. That doesn't mean you are really failed. It

means you learned a great lesson. Now too, you learned a good lesson. You know

How to stand for yourself right?”