chapter03: running for my life

And here we go, now is the time for going home, i started searching for a friend to go home with, because my sisters are no longer my first choice or even a choice at all, i started with observing from afar first so i can know my available choices, almost most of them went home with their parents, but finally i spoted one which happens to be my neighbor too, i went to her and started to talk as randomly as possible so that it won't be obvious that i'm desperate to find someone to go home with, but she went home with her sisters, well what can i say other than " as expected" she and her sisterd are always together the trio that never get separated if you're friends with one of them then you're friends with the three, like buy one and get one for free in their case you take two, and if you've fought one then you missed up with the three, sometimes i want my sisters to be kind of like them but they are just over-doing it in my opinion.

So back to the important matter, going home, i guess my sisters are my last hope AGAIN, i hope it'll trun out good this time, i went to my older sister a~nd... no her reaction was the same as yesterday, then to my other sisters, and what did i even expect to begin with why am i even hoping for the impossible to happen, and i was left behind watching everyone exept me going home with someone feels like déja- vu right?. But at least this time taught me to not wait for anyone again and depend on myself after all as they say " if there is someone who'll never let you down, then that person is no one other than yourself"

I went home thinking and planning what to watch. A cartoon or some drama, well as i said before i watch A LOT of dramas, it's not like i'm not watching something for my age i do i'm watching them all, but you know instead of repeating some episodes i watch dramas.

Now back to the topic god i get distracted a lot when i start thinking about something. I reached home a little bit like tiny bit late, well of course i was thinking and getting distracted all the way home so i walked sooo slowly, to be honest i was barely moving. And my mom being the typical one she is she started scolding me but it soon ended when i told her i was late because i was left behind and she kind of felt sorry for me, or she just didn't have more to say. Later, i did my homework, had a snack, and went directly to watching tv, my sisters came to me asking me if i want to go out and play with them, that was weird usually they never do so i'm the one sticking to them, but it soon hit me, i'm sure it was mom who scolded them, so i refused and went back to watching tv, you'll wonder why i refused like who the hell would refuse a playing offer, but at that moment i was really angry because i was left behind and that too that they were kind of forced, so no thank you. that incident changed me because i'm the clingy sister no more.

The rest of my days were pretty much the same, i always went home alone and i rarely go out with my sisters of course after my mom scolds me for being abnormal for a child. Things in school were really smooth i was always first in class, i don't think i was a genious it just was that my classmates were the typical kind of a kid spoiled and childish, they're always upset when the teacher gives us homework because they just want to play or their little brain just didn't remember and all, but at this point i started to really think about myself, like am i really mature for my age or are the children in my age not mature enough.

Well i guess there isn't much to say about my first year it went fast and boring, and my teacher decided to have a party in our last day of school, most of my classmates brought their parents but of course i was alone yet again. After spending some time in it i was bored seeing how they were crying and clingy to their parents, how childish and messy they were eating i decided to go out and have some fresh air, and when i was going home i spotted him again, it's Adam, but what was he doing here usually he never leaves his father unless they almost tie him to the chair,and then i saw it he was picking his nose and eating it, i'm sorry i know it's disgusting to know but i freaking SAW it, please give me eyes that didn't see it, and that was more than enough for me to go back in which i did, running. When i went back in i was shocked, they brought a clown, oh hell no there are two, I'm really scared of them those freaky smiles on their faces is enough to make them scary, and what's worse i just saw a horror movie trailer on tv where the clowns were the killers. You'll think that it's over-dramatic but those two clowns specifically didn't even seem to like kids so thank you but no, there is no need for me to hang out around you.

I went to sit back in the furthest chair in the corner hoping that they won't notice me, but as always why do i hope with this luck of mine, they decided to play the train game i refused thinking that i might be dismissed but no they insisted and what was worse is that i was the last one to join i was the last one in the line and those creepy clowns were the first.that was a whole horror movie for me i kept looking back and trying to push the kid before me indirectly so that he can be faster,because those damn clowns are getting closer,and when i decided to turn around so that it would be less scary, i was hit again with reality to find that i was holding that Adam thing was another problem himself, no please what did i do wrong why am i so unlucky, two creepy clowns behind me, and a dirty spoiled kid in front of me, now my mind was blank i was holding back tears which were threatening to fall, hoping that those creepy clowns wouldn't decide to make a circle and hold me, and that this dirty kid was clean enough not to wipe his hands on his shirt.

After what seemes like the longest day in my life i went back home,alone, and running like i was running for my life, which practically i was, but the only thing that made me happy that it would be a long vacation without all those people.