chapter02: first day in school

This week was the longest ever, but finally today is my first day in school, i woke up early this morning to get ready i'm wearing a red and white dress just above the knee and white sneakers, i let my hair lose with two red hairclips on each side, had a fast breakfast and i literally begged my mom to take me there earlier.

And here i am sitting in my classroom, but the only thing i'm thinking about is going home, this place is such a disappointment, most of them here miss their parents or refused to even let them leave , and the boy next to me is crying for an hour now after his father dropped him here or actually almost tied him to the chair so that he won't follow him back, and damn he's really annoying i thought i would get rid of those crybabies in the kindergarten but i guess i was wrong.

The day passed by like hell i felt like every hour passed like two, and now it's time to go home, i have no friends of course so i'm waiting beside the school gate for someone to take me home, without doubt my dad wouldn't be the one because he's working, and it seems like it wouldn't be mom either because she's no where to be seen and if she was the one she would've been here long ago, so my only and last option is my sisters.

After about ten minutes of waiting alone i finally spotted my eldest sister, i was so happy to see her so i ran for her like i was running for my life beaming and laughing to myself but when i reached her she didn't even bother with me, well... that hurts, didn't see it coming, she told me to go home with my friends but with the fact that i don't have any she just told me to wait for my other two sisters -which usually go home together because they only have one year age gap between them- and she went off without looking back, i went back to the place where i was standing before disappointed, angry, lonly, but with a little bit of hope, watching all my classmates and other kids going home with their parents, okay i was jealous too. but fortunately this time i didn't wait for long and when i spotted my sisters i ran to them hoping that they'll take me home with them just like everybody else, but no they did the same as my eldest sister, this time i felt like a knife was stabbed in my heart, feeling left behind the only thing i could do is holding back my tears until i go home, and i did ALONE.

That obviously wasn't how i thought my first day would be it was the worst at least before when i was left alone i would be at home watching tv, but this time i was alone in a place a little far from home with almost only me waiting behind watching all the kids my age and even older than me being taken home by their parents or siblings while i stood alone, that hurt me i felt jealous and heart broken and i couldn't help but be angry and disappointed in my sisters, yet i hoped i will make friends the next day i think it will all be better and i would never be left behind again .

After staying up a little late last night thinking and dreaming about what will happen in the next days i fell asleep without realizing, in the morning my mom woke me up to get ready and after doing my daily routine i was ready to go to school.

But today my mom ordered my sisters to take me with them, my eldest sister obviously didn't, so i was left with my other two sisters, well i was better off alone i think because i was just walking behind them.... well following them to be exact, and they didn't care much about me, just every now and then they look back at me and tell me to be faster more like making sure I was still alive.

Now i reached my classroom and the only thing i was hoping is that the crybaby from yesterday wouldn't sit next to me today he's such a headache, but no... well of course why would i even be hoping with this luck of mine it was certain that it will happen in the end. but fortunately enough today he only cried for half an hour, after the teacher started talking he shut up. She started with an introduction telling us about herself and what we'll learn today then she asked each of us to introduce ourselves, i didn't bother a lot i just said my name, and that i hope we will be friends, the boy next to me which his nane seems to be Adam didn't say anything other than his name because he couldn't speek actually, after crying for so long his voice was unclear, his nose running, and he was hiccupping too.

After another long day is finally over, but Actually today was a little better because i made some friends in break time and i learnt numbers, a lot of them too and how to write them, it wasn't actually so hard for me because before starting school i was so excited that i already learnt them alone.