To Die is To Live

" It is my wedding tomorrow,, and I am marrying the love of my life, my best friend and my soulmate! I am excited as I am staring myself in front of the mirror. I am wearing my white elegant wedding gown and my expensive sandals that I managed to buy with my savings. Tomorrow will be the day and I will be a Mrs.... I am excited to know what is waiting for us! I am waiting for this moment to come!... For now,, I will end my diary as single, for tomorrow I will be writing another diary as a married person ... Goodbye for now. Signing off." ---Mayumi / Mimi. July2018

The Day News: The car of the bride has been hit by a big truck where all of them died in an instant.

Mayumi can see her unalive body in front of her. Her parents that are crying and her husband to be. Nobody can see her and her tears flowing in her cheeks. She is filled with rage and questions. " I did all my best to live a decent life... To be a good person as I can be... And I have only one request and that is to marry the love of my life and have a family... Why am I dead?! Is it that it is not enough?! The heaven is so cruel! " She is shouting at the top of her lungs but no one can hear her. Her agony cannot be heard by anyone aside from heaven. At the same time a lightning and thunder can be heard from the clouds, then a rain came after as if agonizing with her. Mayumi closed her eyes.

As she opened her eyes she saw a beautiful woman in front of her. The woman help Mayumi as she tried to stand up. Both of them are now standing in a grassland that are surrounded by mountains. In fact, it is one of the beautiful scenery that Mayumi have seen in her life. " Is this heaven? " Mayumi ask with a rage in her voice. " No. This is the gap between heaven and hell, as well as the earth. " The beautiful woman said while walking slowly in the grass. Mayumi noticed that her feet are not touching the grass. " Why am I here?! I need to talk to God! " Mayumi cannot control her anger. " I am assigned to talk to you. I am your guide. And I am the one communicating between you two. " The beautiful woman said. " I need to know why!? Why would God take my life?! This is I am waiting for ! The love of my life! " Mayumi yelled with teary eyes.

The beautiful woman took a deep breath before turning her back unto Mayumi's direction and stared to the sunrise between the mountain. " It is really going to be a beautiful life between you and him ? You knew all along what kind of person he is. You are there when he and your childhood friend are enjoying their time in that small bed. Planning their future together with their unborn child. You cried and pleaded that everything is just a dream. But because you are selfish and wanted your happily ever after, you ignored all of it and the worst part is--" The beautiful woman is angelic that everything sounds so beautifully painful. "Enough!!!! It is not my fault that she met that accident! I just happened to be there! I did not do anything that can hurt her! " Mayumi is trying to explain.

" Doing nothing that time is also a choice. You happened to be there for a reason but you chose not do anything. She is bleeding to death after she was hit by a motorcycle but you chose to not do anything. " The woman said with a pitiful expression. " I - I was afraid. I am terrified of blood! But did I not call an ambulance? " Mayumi is now crying because of guiltiness. " You called an ambulance after she ran out of breathed. Humans have given a chance to do their freewill and heaven are always open to those who are regretful of their guilt. " The woman said. " Compared to angels and demons that are already decided by their fate, humans are lucky enough not knowing their power and using this freewill to do stupid things. I envy you. " The woman said.

" Who are you ? How do you know all these things? " Mayumi asked with a suspicious look on her face. " As I told you. I am always with you, in every human that are created. God always assigned an angel to protect them at all cost until their very last breath. To strengthen their faith, and to regain humanity in the most black heart of theirs. I am always with you. " She said. The woman turn her face to Mayumi. " As God has already decided to give you a chance, I hope that you will always be honest to your heart. I know deep inside your heart is a kind one. And this time I will not be with you because it is a sacrifice I have to make as you will be alive again. Live your life and I hope you will find the life you really wanted to be ...." The woman's body is fading including her face. " What?--- Wait---" Mayumi is shaking her face as if something important to her will be gone and a part of her heart is so sad that is overbearing.

The beautiful scenery started to fade and then Mayumi can see nothing, a black surrounding. She closed her eyes again.

" Mayumi,help mee!!" when she opened her eyes she found a lady is in front of her. Mayumi can feel her sore body and her face as she tried to stand up. The woman who have a big belly is looking at her with a painful expression. Mayumi with a worried expression go to her. She can see a blood flowing to her leg calf from her thigh.

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