The chapter of my life started when I was admitted to my graduation and my route led me to his city. I was happy just to be by his side, but it's not love if you are not greedy.
He was still connected with his ex, Aliya. The day I went to his house to see him, I got the news that he had gone to handle Aliya’s admission. I thought it was nothing; their families were friends, after all. But I became restless after knowing that he had taken his motorcycle instead of his car. My jealousy took over, and that day he finally proposed to me, placing a silver chain around my neck. I was torn. On one side was my nine-year longing for him; on the other, a relationship beginning with unresolved doubts. I should have said no, but I also craved love. Or maybe I was just desperate to be wanted. I accepted his proposal, and his sister Saniya, a good friend of mine, helped him.
That day, his parents were away, and after convincing my mother that I needed to stay with Saniya because my mobile wasn't working, I was allowed to stay over. As a K-drama fan, I loved cute moments and wanted to recreate them with my boyfriend. He called me, and I sneaked into his bed, intending to sleep beside him innocently. But not long after, he sneaked his hand to my breast. I was in a light sleep and knew what he was doing but remained still, hoping he would stop. This wasn’t in my imagination of being intimate; I believed these things should come after marriage. But he didn't stop. He grabbed me under my clothes, and I couldn't control myself. I turned and kissed him, wanting romance, not lust. That’s how I lost my first kiss. My initiative was wrong; he saw it differently. I couldn't stop him after that. He was knowledgeable enough not to have sex, but he wouldn’t let me sleep whenever I was at his house.
Aliya Sana, the same name as mine, Amina Sana. Her beautiful face resembled an actress, and she had a beautiful voice. She was good at cooking too. He was still in contact with her. He gave me money and asked me to send it to her. I became frustrated, and after sending her the amount, I broke up with him. That wasn’t the first time he tried to make her jealous using me. I had strictly prohibited him from doing so. Lingering feelings of wrongdoing made me make those decisions. Maybe I had always been fascinated by him as someone pure and good, but he made me believe that no one is pure, and he was good for everyone else, not for me. I turned away from there.
The beginning is always good, but the ending makes us strong. After restless nights, not even a drop of tears flooded my eyes.
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Fushito UwU
I kinda fell in love with the main character... is it weird? Haha.
2024-07-22
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