Tough Decisions

Opening the attic door the dust tickled my nose making me sneeze. I switched on the tiny bulb lighting up the whole place.

My eyes roamed the entire room as I tried to remember where the books were kept. I walked towards where dad's office chair was and looking behind it I found five labeled huge carton boxes filled with books.

Sitting on my knees, I started opening them one by one. The first box contained all his office books and files, second contained Romance novels and third...

Aha!! Books about werewolves, carrying the box on my waist, I turned off the light and closed the door as I walked downstairs to the living room.

Setting the box on the floor, I started looking through all the books about werewolves. There were books written about topics that I'd either never heard about or didn't dare to think of.

And at last, I finally found the book I was looking for.

'Werewolves and their Mates'

I placed the other books back in the box and pushed it aside. Sitting comfortably on the sofa, I opened the book and searched the Index for the chapter on mate rejection. Flipping through the pages I came upon the chapter titled Mate rejection.

Going through the lines I found nothing new. I knew all these things already. Still going through the chapter I ended up on the last page where a small line in bold caught my attention.

'Breaking The Bond'

'When a wolf rejects his mate, especially in the case of alpha, to protect their wolves from dying both wolves can break the bond between them thus freeing each other. However, this doesn't always end in a nice way. There are some side effects like even after the process the wolves could die or maybe go into permanent hibernation. And...'

And??

And what, ****, the page was torn. What else was there? I flip through more pages and chapters for the next hour but found nothing related to it.

Slumping back in my seat I began to think of what I could do? It's the only way I can save Gracia but there are chances that he still may... I don't even want to say the fucking word.

'You should do it.'

My eyes opened wide at that but I closed them immediately and concentrated on him.

'Are you sure, Gracia, it can have alternate effects too. I am ready to carry the pain all my life but I can't lose you at any cost.' A slow smile spread on his wolf face.

'And neither do I but I can't endure this pain, Andrew. It just too much, it hurts too much. I prefer dying than living without my mate.' He gave a low whimper and held his head down as a teardrop fell from his eyes.

'Don't cry Gracia, please. How would I survive if you become weak? You're the source of my power, the only reason I am living, please don't cry.

I'll find the best person for it, nothing will happen to you, Gracia. I promise.'

He nodded his head once then blocked me. If only I could feel his pain, share it with him; console him in some way possible.

I slowly opened my eyes and a tired sigh escaped my lips. My body was aching to be in bed but my heart was wailing from the thought of being alone all my life. It was in pain because of all my dreams being crushed. I always thought that when I will find my mate, he or she will be perfect. They'd be the ones who would love me for me and not the imaginary person they created in their mind. They'll understand me and be with me all my life. Not just behind me supporting me but beside me holding my hand in theirs with a vow to never leave it.

Such sweet thoughts of mine got washed up in the bitter reality of the world. Listening to my body's plea I trotted up the stairs with a rough idea for upcoming days. I know what I'm going to do tomorrow is going to change my life forever but whether for good or bad is the question.

But if it is the only way to save Gracia, then it doesn't matter.

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The next morning I awoke with a smile on my face, golden rays of sun illuminating everything around with a beautiful glow and all that happened yesterday forgotten for a brief moment in time. However, It only lasted a few seconds before reality came crashing down on me. 

A sinking feeling hit me. My eyes again pricked with tears but I shook my head and jumped out of the bed running towards my bathroom. Taking a cold shower helps, sometimes.

Having no appetite at all I decided to head directly to the packhouse the starting point of our journey, mine and Kyle's. Entering my car I closed my eyes and focused on Gracia.

'Gracia, I am going to do it. Are you sure about this?'

'I've never been more sure about anything else.' his reply was resonating with pride but you can hear the sadness and weakness behind it.

I nodded to myself and started the car as I began to drive to the packhouse. Gracia and I have a lot in common never showing our weakness and the constant will to live another day are a few of many. Last night scenes were rolling in front of my eyes every detail putting itself again and again how he was standing directly in line sight of the front door as if his mind was already made up and he was just waiting for me and why wouldn't it be he had two days to decide after all. Kyle's birthday was two days before me and so he had all the time to figure out who is his mate and what affect his decision will have on the pack. I am kept wondering if he has told the Alpha yet or lie to him but when I entered the driveway of the packhouse I was woken up from my daydream by the alpha himself. He was standing out my window knocking.

I looked at him and got out of the car as he put his hand on my shoulder smiling.

"What happened son you were sitting in that car for some time?" Alpha asked with a concerned voice. Alpha Clark is the epitome of what you may call a responsible and great father. He is still quite young and sometimes acts like a teenager but when you have a problem and need help Alpha Clark is always there for everyone. The pack and pack duties come first for him even if he has to sacrifice his own something.

I shook my head smiling slightly "Nothing Alpha just remembering the last night."

He made an 'o' face before grinning at me "Seems like you enjoyed yesterday though I don't remember seeing you much except when you entered the party. Oh btw, Happy Birthday soldier, you're a fully grown were-man now." He grinned at me. I smiled a little at him.

"Thank you Alpha and yeah I wasn't feeling well after few drinks so I left early."

He nodded "So what you brought you here this early in the morning?" He asked while walking to the packhouse and nodding in greeting to the people walking by.

"The thing is... I want to talk about something important with you," I said with a serious tone.

His brows furrowed at my tone but he nodded his smile still there only lower.

We started walking to his office but as soon as I stepped my foot into the house I was hit with an overwhelming smell of him. It was everywhere and so strong now there were no hormonal sweating teenagers and stuff smelling like three-day-old garbage.

I felt Gracia stirring at that but I mentally forced him to lie down again. Trying to control my senses which were overloaded with the smell, I increased my pace.

It is either today or never.

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