WHY ME?

The gentle caress of a cool breeze invigorated my skin, while the soothing rustle of wind eased my racing heart. The aroma of love enveloped my senses, creating a welcoming and rejuvenating atmosphere.

As I took a deep breath, I struggled to find additional words to articulate the experience. Serpents slithered around my waist, tightening their hold and asserting their dominance. Despite my efforts, I could not maintain a serious expression as a wide grin spread across my face, relishing in the leisurely sloth snuggling into the curve of my neck, making itself comfortable.

I felt his slow and gentle breaths against my sensitive skin, causing my own breathing to quicken. I leaned my head against his and wrapped my hands around him, cherishing the moment and fully immersing myself in it while I still could.

We both were children when our parents decided to make us as one.... We never knew how or when we fell in love, maybe it was the way he treated me, or the way he gazed at me, or the way he respected me, or maybe the way he supported me everything was way too pretty for me to not fall in love with him. Everything changed suddenly when he moved abroad.

It felt as if he had forgotten about me, as there were no more late night talks, 'I love you' messages, video calls, or' miss you'. However, everything suddenly changed upon his return from Canada. The bond we had is blurred only crumbles left for me to pick up...I don't know what happened, but I'm still not giving up on him or my love for him.

As his fingers tightened around my waist, I felt an even stronger connection between us, causing my hazel eyes to meet his intense black gaze. The reflection of my love for him was evident, revealing the depth of my feelings as I continued to fall for this man. With a gentle touch, his crooked nose brushed against my cheek, caressing it tenderly and eliciting a soft hum from me. In no time, his slender lips found their way to my ear.

"I love you inaya..."

The soft whisper was enough to propel me to heaven. His heart beating behind my back wildly-

OH GOD IS HE GOING TO KISS ME ?

OH FOK  YE-

"GET UP THIS INSTANT OR I SWEAR TO GOD ILL MURDER YOUR ASS INTO THOUSANDS OF PISCES AND SHOVE THEM DOEN TO CROWS!!!!"

My eyes forcefully open, resembling dark poison, while my mouth widens, greedily taking in as much oxygen as possible. In an instant, my body springs into a sitting position, as if it were on high alert. With my heart pounding furiously, my mouth continues to open and close, resembling the gasps of a dying person. Water cascades down my face, drenching my neck, causing my hazel eyes to shift westward, where I notice my once pristine white silk shirt now soaked from the mistreatment inflicted by the responsible party.

'huh.... Sonay bhi nahi deti!'

A single glance in her direction was met with a piercing glare, indicating that our morning conflict had already begun.

'Way to start the day..'

"Who's room is this? Mine!! Who goes to work and earn money? Me! Who will rest as much as they want? Period. Offcourse ME bitch"

Groaning in irritation I rubbed my eyes off from the waterfall.

The abrupt tug on my blanket resulted in it being snatched away from my legs and landing in the hands of the perpetrator. This incident compelled me to express my disdain towards the individual.

wow!!!

This girl is.....

DEAD!!!

"Baba-ji is waiting downstairs for you to wakeup so that we can have a family breakfast but unfortunately-"

Glaring my way again like she is older than me continued,

"Thanks to you breakfast has been finished so he requests, for you to get your ass up so we can atleast have a lunch together"

Giving me stern voice she started to fold my bedsheet.

Heaving a deep sigh I closed my eyes trying to get my morning temper hormones undercontrol.

"By the way.." I started getting up holding the white silk of my shirt a bit at distance as to not let it cover to my chest showing my breasts off.

"Thhe saying ends with vultures not crows"

"Huh? Wait ...what?"

Confused, she stared at me until it clicked what I was talking about which she let her lips in a forced smile lifting her both hands up. Maybe as to apologize..?

'Yeah you dumbass'

This bitch ain't apologizing, her both hands are closed in a fist except for the middle finger which she pushed in my face saying a big loud  FUCK.OFF

Scoffing loudly I rolled my eyes and made my way to bathroom. But before that I never forgot to open my palms of both hnds and giving starlight lanat to her.

'Zahir hai, kisi Kay liy ungli tehri karni parti hai'

Upon entering my bathroom, I find myself gazing at my own reflection. My wavy ash brown hair, cascading down to my waist, is currently in disarray. My pale face lacks vibrancy, with thick eyebrows, almond-shaped eyes, hazel irises, a button-like nose, and round lips that are nothing like Selena's.

Letting out a sigh, I choose to ignore my reflection and proceed to turn on the faucet, splashing water onto my face. Despite already being soaked earlier, I still feel the need to satisfy my heart, hence why I find myself here.

After attending to my needs and changing into a plain white pajama and kameez, accompanied by a chiffon dupatta, I leave my hair down. I apply a touch of lip balm and a hint of blush on my cheeks, completing my look with a touch of mascara on my delicate lashes.

Making my way out of the room to the dinning table I hurridly grabbed my mobile phone and rushed down the stairs to eat 'lunch'.

"Aslamolikum Baba."

My voice rang loudly as I made my way to my baba who was already seated around the table with his newspaper in his hands.

Hearing my voice he immediately folded the newspaper and placed it on table while I made my way to him to give daughter morning kiss.

"Walikuma Salam beta and good morning too. Come sit and have a breakfast, while offcouse we have a little lunch."

I smiled and pecked his cheek once again.

Grabbing the chair on babas right side I made my ass seated.

"Alizay beta khana lay aoo"

Dad shouted while passing the plated to me.

"Inaya you should have got up early to help her...my poor child is working from the morning"

Shaking his head at me he leaned back in the chair.

At this point I knew I was being scolded but did it mattered to my brain cells ?

Offcourse not.

I grinned in return and started to drum my hands on the table like a musician raping it's song.

"Yah lay baba apki chai"

Placing the tray on the table, alizay started to remove every item and place it neatly on the table.

"Thank you mam for your service"

Scoffing at my comment she replied,  "Shut up and eat!!! it's already 1, and we had plans to meet so hurry up. We leaving in 10-"

"Are you both going somewhere???"

dad questioned cutting alizay mid sentence.

Alizay glanced at me glaring me to tell baba,

But me being me I glared back tenfold telling her through my eyes, I AM OLDER THAN YOU OBEY ME OR YOU DIE.

Sighing lightly she turned to Baba who was waiting for our reply in anticipation.

"Uh actually Baba-ji , there is this friend of mine and it's her birthday today so we both decided to buy her a gift and surprise her"

"Which freind..?"

Gulping loudly she looked at me and I gave her my most threatening look. She glared back hundred fold while she replied, "Baba-ji it's Inaya's college...... I met her through inaya....and know we are good friends"

She lied like a pro like even I'm smiling even though I look like a pure dash I still don't care I'll SMILE.

"Oh...."

"So...Baba can we go right?"

I asked wanting to get done with this permission thing. I hate it, like I'm not some 16 year old girl which will get kidnap for gods sake.

Glancing towards both of us he sighed and took out his HBL-card from the pocket of his kameez.

Seeing the card my smile widened as I hurridely stood up from my seat giving my father hug. Alizay following my steps.

"THANKS BABA-JANI"

"Drive safely and be back vefore 10. Inaya.."

"Yeah..?"

"Don't do anything stupid. "

rolling my eyes I pecked his cheek and replied, "Yeah yeah dad I know I'm not a kid anymore... I promise won't do anything "

"It better be like that."

Giving him tight lined smile I grabbed Alizays hand and practically dragged her out the door towrds our waiting Alto.

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After completing our shopping and preparing ourselves at the parlor, we emerged as supermodels. If we were to be compared to Selena or Zendaya, it is evident that they would be the ones to lose, not us girls.

Stuffing our home cloths in the back seat of car we started the engine and drove to our main destination.

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Stopping at hamza's house I grabbed the spare key that he gave me years ago and opened the door for us to enter.

Entering his house we were instantly met with darkness. As alizay flipped the lights on his small lounge came into view.

"Let the party begin I guess"

"Yeah"

Muttering a reply alizay made her way to the bags of decoration things in it.

Smiling I stepped forward to help along.

Yeah you guessed perfectly right, there's no coluge of mine. It's hamza birthday and we both are here to give him surprise.

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Done with all the decorations we sat on the sofa breathing heavely.

"Do you think this was a good idea?"

Alizay questioned looking towards me seeking an answer, but what should I be answering...I'm unsure myself. Sometimes I think I have the perfect right over him after all he is my fiance bit the other part of my brain fights me, explaining I'm being an over burden for him to handle.

"I don't know yarr..."

As my soft voice filled the room a beep sound came, alerting us on to our two feet and immediatly grin surfaced on my face.

As the door opened I was met with my fiance the same person I have lied to baba for, the same person I loved to ends.

"HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU"

alizay and mine voice resonated the whole lounge as startled Hamza looked up with wide eyes and mouth open in surprise.

His white shirt stick to his body like a secound skin matched with black cargo pants

Looking like soldier of to kill my heart

'Uffff'

"HAPPY BIRTHDAY HAPPY BIRTYDAY, HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU"

"WOOOOOO"

Me and both alizay grinned while hyping our voices to show our excitement.

Hamza smiled coming forward and hugging both of us from each side.

"Thank you guys....this is wonderfully..."

Chuckling he looked around the balloons and lights that were decorated by me and alizay.

Then he glanced at alizay and then at me giving us a small smile he nodded his head.

"Thanks again now what can I do for my guests..?"

I chuckled while alizay replied, "let's cut the cake and then watch a movie"

Sitting down on the carpet we placed the cake infront and Hamza started to cut the cake in piece.

"Oh wait wait-

I stopped his hand that was ready to slice the cake off

"Aren't you going to make a wish..?"

Shaking his head he closed his eyes and after few moments opened them again the first thing I wished he would see opening his eyes would be me ...but it's alright as he glanced towards alizay abd then down to cut the cake.

After feeding little piece to both of us we placed some popcorns and selected on a horror movie to watch.

I'm partially not interested in a movie right know all I'm inteeseted is seeing Hamza laugh when alizay got scared or when he smiles when horror scene comes up or when he chews on his bottom lip with full concentration.

Not knowing or caring I placed my head on both my arms and stared openly at Hamza.

And like that soon my eyes drifted shut into my dream land.

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Cold prickled my skin making me to rub my arms and try to cover myself with a blanket but when I try find a bedsheet I was met with cool surface of carpet.

My eyes shot open making me look down and coming back to senses.

This is hamza house and we were watching a movie but as I looked around I found no one beside me. Groaning I got up.

Ignoring the way my muscle cramped due to sitting in that awkward position for God knows how long I made my way to check on both of them.

'Did they ditched me and went off to eat ice cream?'

'HUH HOW DARE THEY'

searching the whole house and founding no one really made me lose my brain cells.

Proving my ice cream theory correct.

'I can't believe they both left me because I was sleeping'

With a sad heart and gloomy face I made my way to garden atleast fresh air would calm me.

As I made my way towards the door to enter garden I saw two shadows far away from the house in dark. Frowning at them I slowly and cautiously walked a little closer until missing people came into view.

"What are they doing there ..?!"

I mumbled to myself  while flowing at the way hamza was reacting. Hands actions head turning from side to side ...

"What's happening..?"

As I walked closer I started to heard the voices clearly.

And to be honest I regretted the momemnt that voice reached me.

I wished I was sleeping the whole time.

I wished I never opened my eyes or came out.

"I love you alizay plz just listen me once I truly love you when I first saw you on airport with Inaya I fell for you ... You are truly a little chocolate for me which is always pretty and sweet I tr-"

"Just shut it Hamza are you out of your mind or should I give some piece of my brain to you OHH yeah I think I should bcz you are crazy "

'Love...alizay?...how...when....then me...'

Nothing was making sense to me, it felt like my ears were deaf my heart stopping to announce its death, my brain blank and my eyes hazy.

"Why alizay is loving you makes me crazy? Is falling for you make me crazy?... Answer me"

His angry voice sounded more louder than before while holding alizays arms in tight grip, which were suddenly ripped out of hamza's hand as she faced him

"No but being fiance of inaya makes you crazy !!!being with her and while loving me is crazy !!!! Are you literally taking drugs or what have you lost it why can't you understand that stupid inaya is loving you and trusting you with all of her life and here Mr hamza Ali is ditching her while loving her best friend wow can't belie-!"

I was just standing there pathetically watching both of them. As if world has stopped and I'm no more than a ghost.

I saw the moment alizay shouting back and the other moment hamza gripping the back of her head and slaming his lips down on her.

My eyes widen as the sudden shock came crushing back with full force.

As my body went on full flight mode I hurridly turned my back to them and forced my legs to take me away from here.

One by one Tears kept flowing like a river, making a sob come out of my dry throat.

Pathetic. That was oy thing I felt.

Even thought I kept moving back I still could hear them correctly, haunting me, stopping me from moving, tiger voice like a pillar in my way.

"Go away Hamza I'm loyal to inaya I'll never love you and like you !!!"

"INYA INYA INYA!!!!! JUST SHUT IT SAYING HER NAME WHY CANT YOU UNDERSTAND I DONT LOVE HER YES I ADMIT WE ARE ENGAGED BUT NOT MARRIED RIGHT-IT CAN BE BROKEN-"

And my legs stopped.

My heart stopped

My eyes stopped.

My brain stopped

Everything in me just came to pause.

"I don't know but I just love you not her when I'm with you I feel like my world becoming lost it feels like I just want to listen you see you hear you I don't know I feel nervous around you Uh my mind goes crazy around you alizay .... I just ... Love.. you I ... Really ... Love ... You. .......why can't you understand inya is no one to me she means nothing....she is just a pain in my ass......she is no one like you ....and I just love YOU"

That's it those words were like daggers to my heart, slap to my face.

I was a pain in the ass along

I WAS THE PAIN

IN HIS ASS

ALONG

I can't stand anymore i can't, it all started to make sense know. Oh how naive of me. Never i million years would I have thought that Hamza change with me was because of this.

He was the one ditching me all this time.

He was the one playing with my feelings all this time.

He was the one making ME look like a pain in the ass

'WOOH'

'HATS FUCKING OFF TO HIM"

My head was burning with the sudden rush of blood, my eyes burn with tears threatening to fall anytime while my body felt like it was run off by some car thousands of time.

I couldn't stand this anymore. Standing in open area yet made me feel to throw up. Everything started to suffocate me.

Hurridly walking back I rushed to the guest room of this fuckers house.

Not being able to watch myself I just splashed the cold water and tried to calm my nerves down.

'Stop it inaya...please stop it'

'I know you can'

'Be strong'

Trying to explain myself and holding those pathetic salty tears at bay I tried to Inhale and Exhale openly but still a traitor tear fell from my right eye along with the others.

"YOU know what? Fuck this!"

Without another thought i opened the door made my way to the place I was sleeping grabbed my phone car keys and bags.

Turning the knob of the door I let myself out of this bastards house while placing the extra key that he gave me on the same place where he keeps his other locker key.

Siting in the car I didn't thought twice, starting the enging I took off towards my house away from this, away from everything.

This pain was unbearable.

The pain of being cheated.

The pain of being rejected.

The pain of being hurt.

The pain of betrayal.

This all was too much.

How could he do this ?

Hamzas words started to ring in my mind like Christmas bells..

"Ilove you alizay"

"I don't love inya"

"We are engaged not married "

"It can be broken right"

"She is a pain in my ass"

"JUST SHUT UP...."

Stepping on the brakes car came to a complete stop on empty road.

My hands left the steering wheel as my head dropped on it. No energy left in me to go any further

Empty road or fear of being robbed was least of my worries at the moment.

My hands came up plying my elbows on the sterring wheel as to cover my ears to stop those words from hearing but it was like songs playing out aloud...

"JUST....SHUT ...UP.."

I said while lifting my knees towards my chest on the seat as keeping my head on my arms I stared out the window into nothing.

The windows of this car was tinted black so no one could see me siting like a lost pathetic girl.

"Why ....why? ...ALLAH MIA WHY?"

A whisper left from my lips.

My voice cracked from all the heaviness in my heart, desperatelytrying to gain some peace in his hold.

I cried letting my heart pour in those tears

I cried telling Allah what is happening

I cried thinking why me ..?

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