I never thought this could happen

April 11, 2024

4:34 pm

It was a normal morning, I got home from school and changed into my house clothes.

Every day, before I eat I chat with my ex but unfortunately, we broke up a week ago.

In short, I am in the process of moving on from someone.

That breakup seriously messed me up.

As I was saying, it was all normal. Not until Claynard slipped into my DMs.

( Claynard, the male lead. One of the gangsters in our school campus, known as a womanizer in our batch.)

What could he possibly want from me? Claynard used to have feelings for me last 1st semester, so what could he possibly say?

Before I received his message, he had been messaging me in the past asking questions about the agendas in school (he's always absent and I happen to be the class president). I replied to his message thinking that it was all gonna be normal just like how our convos turn out every time we talk.

Turns out he just wanted to know the details of the assignment that I sent at the class group chat, he also wanted to know how many students did not attend the class a while ago. He also said that he would go to class tomorrow, as class president I was filled with joy since the adviser had been looking for him for days; Meanwhile, deep into the conversation, I decided to ask him about a thing I had heard about him. I asked if it was true that he was dropping out of school,

Claynard told me that it was true and told me to keep it a secret.

As the conversation lasted long, the night got dry so we were just joking about a lot of things. Unfortunately, we were kind of flirting.Then he suddenly said,

"Pero ang totoo, missyou na talaga" ( But the truth is i miss you).

As a straightforward person, I replied with,

"T*ngina gusto mo ba 'ko?" ( Do you like me?).

To me, this was a total shock, especially 'cause I just came from a breakup in a relationship that lasted for a year. That time I was frozen and in complete shock. I knew that Claynard liked me before but I never thought his feelings came back.

(I'll be honest with y'all, Claynard is a very handsome guy)

As I was saying, he replied that he liked me from the start and that his feelings were still the same. He said that he couldn't confess his feelings because me and my ex were still together.

Then he suddenly became shy about confessing ( to me this was a funny thing since he was a gangster and everyone knew him as "maangas").

I told him that it was okay and that he was not bothering me in any way. He told me that even though I rejected his confession last time, his feelings were still the same. He also said that even though he knew that there was no hope, he never stopped loving me.

I asked him how about the girl he liked ( let's call her Ana), and he told me that he did gain feelings for her but when they stopped talking his feelings for me came back.

He said that he knew he would never have a chance to be with me since he had a bad attitude, was not kind, ill-bred, and especially unwise.

I told him that I needed to think first.

During the first week of school, I was looking at Claynard from time to time. I never really imagined that I'd be with him since I had someone I liked. Every time I look at him it feels like I'm admiring him but I always stop myself from actually liking him since all my friends say he was a womanizer. Even though people say a lot of bad things about him, I never really listened to what people have to say about him since I wanted to know him for myself. I'm not a quick judger, I've always been patient and ready to know what people have to offer. For me, Claynard was a great guy he just needed a bit of improvement here and there and I was ready to see him change...

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