My reality

Angel is a girl.

She often got bullied and was dealingg with depression secretly.

Some people wake up with joy.

While others with saddnes

i was one of those people. Who woke up every day with that mindset of knowing and having to be alone.

i don't have any real friends so i often get picked on .Thee only person who would take my side was my teacher. Sometimes i even taught about suicide or killing other people who would hurt me . But i didn't

Everyone always lied to me so i got used to it .so whenever someone told me something I'd try my best to tell the truth from a lye .I got good at that and could tell who was fake and real. Turns out everyone was fake and i had no choice but to be friend's with all those people .

It gets pretty tiring listening to people belittling me and not being able to say what i felt like .but i had my way of going true this

I would tell myself each day that i would leave that school and neighborhood.

but time didn't fly as fast as i had hoped.

The bullying got even worse that sometimes i would hold a knife at my wrist .i didn't slash my wrist the first time cause i taught i was overreacting.the second and third time my younger siblings saved me. They taught i was playing a game.

And some days i would yust bang my head on sharp object to endure the pain of all of that.

I had already gotten used to pain then, so when i got hurt i wouldn't react and i stil don't

 Sometimes id say that noyone could feel ore bare the pain i was going treu .

And that knoyone could stand being me even for a minute.And that id never find real friends .

But who cared right ?

I wish i didn't care what people said .

but its hard to egnore al thos people .I could even hear people scream in the back of my head saying all thes negative sh*t

I had never had any nightmare but my dreams weren't as peaceful either.I mean how could i be scared of creatures who killed people when i also wanted to die .

I loved reading and I'd frequently do it when i was at home . Sometimes even at school but kids bullied me for everything and even for that.

 I wasn't aloud to play with other kids or even leave my yard. I've always felt like the outsider in my family being the youngest daughter but stil the oldest ,being that i had a lot of half brothers and sisters . my older siblings never cared for me and neither did my younger ones so all my live I've felt alone

and i was alone nobody cared what i did only if it was bad like fighting.

at some time i would get use to it cause i was good at pretending to be happy.And i did but i cant hide the truth for long Noyone CAN.

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