Tangled: (5) Agonized Angel Vol. II A New Beginning: My Education Learning about My Fave AA!

Now that I am writing this Journal... I don't know where a logical starting point is ... I'm going to begin it with a screenshot of the msgs between my AA and I that made me aware of how deeply hurt my precious Baby was and what he had in mind... Luckily - He'd given his friend/councillor permission to tell me enough of the details of his abuse... So, I was aware of why he was in so much pain and wanted to escape... He never actually wanted to escape and separate from me... He just wants to escape the pain he feels when he remembers his memories...

I am trying to decide if it makes more sense to start with the night talking to his councillor about his abuse... Or the 1st night that I found the outcome of him trying to escape...

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Pete and Flynnie's first chat story is "Tangled: Coming Home To You..." The following txt messages from this journal were in "Tangled: Valentine's Together ..." It's probably not necessary to begin at their beginning... But it may flow better and help your understanding if read in order...

Pete had been secluding himself in Alone time because he wanted to process his thoughts... I'd only learned of his abuse (with his consent) the day before. So, I was still also processing my feelings and emotions... Sick and Angered by the actions of animals... Amazed at how stupid I am to be so close to him and never actually aware of the pain he carried from his past. I also wanted to respect his decisions regarding his needs for safe boundaries... I didn't actually know how I should react... I just wanted him to know that I still loved him and cared for him deeply and that when he was ready... I will be here waiting for him to return to me ... This is the message that I sent...

This was Pete's Response...

It only took me a second to realize the reality of the situation... In this moment: My most precious beautiful baby was in so much pain he was going to kill himself... My heart and all its already jumbled emotions constricted itself and I didn't think I would ever be ready to begin breathing again .... For more than a millionth time... My heart stopped beating because of my AA's actions... He's such an incredibly sweet and considerate Angel that it's common for my heart to stop beating in moments when I know he is loving me... This time... The weight I felt bearing down on my heart was heavier than all the lead in all the unknown universes multiplied by infinity... I didn't even have a second to let it stop and freeze in fear...

*Screaming and Crying* 😭 😭 😭 MY AA! 🤬🤬🤬🤬🤬 WHERE IS MY AA! I NEED TO FIND HIM!