The beginning.
The high school girl, Joanne Kim, is depressed because she has recently lost her mother.
She feels alone in this world....
Because of this, Joanne is continuously searching for something interesting that can bring her back her joy to live and kill the boredom and loneliness.
She can't find what she needs around her, so she surfes through the internet to discover different environments and people.
The girl finds a new TV animation, "The vampire knights" and watches it.
She falls in love with it and especially with a character's voice: "Hero"!
Joanne-high school girl
I can't decide which one is better: Hero or Kaname? They both have a strong connection with the Fl character (Yuki). I personally can't decide which one should I choose if I would be in her place!
Joanne-high school girl
I like very much Hero's voice! I am wondering which actor is dubbing his voice?
The girl's curiosity pushes her to research this animation character and so she encounters the man behind it.
She starts imagining herself being with Hero.
Hero (TV drama character)
"I'm your favourite! I can be your boyfriend if you want!
Joanne-high school girl
He's just a character on the screen! Of course he can love me if I imagine myself being Yuki from the TV animation.
The girl's imagination goes wild....
In this way, Joanne find out that the voice of Hero is provided by a young idol (actor&singer) named JJ.
She wants to know more about him and so the girl diligently makes her homework. Joanne discovers his music and also his sad past. "It seems that he was an adopted child who struggled to become a famous star."
The girl starts getting more and more attached of this idol and she becomes addicted to his voice.
At that time she is only 17 years old. Who knows if it is just her desire of being loved by someone or she only takes pity on this man because of his sad past, but the girl becomes his fan in a very short time.
Joanne finds his social media accounts and sends him fan messages even though she doesn't know if these are his real accounts or they're fakes. She doesn't know but she continues to send them and also to hope that one day they will meet.
Joanne-high school girl
"Will he come to find me?"
Joanne-high school girl
I really admire him a lot! He's like an "Angel"! Beautiful!
Joanne-high school girl
"I wish I can be his one and only!"
While having a feeling of admiration toward this "big brother",she starts imagining her own fairytale but this is just her imagination.
She keeps waiting for him to come.
Joanne-high school girl
I promise that I won't marry anyone else beside him! I promise you JJ that I will only love you in this life! Only you! Forever!!!
Joanne-high school girl
You're my only love!
The girl keeps waiting and waiting but no one comes and no one answers her back. It becomes a delusional dream.
She oftenly cries because of this, actually this girl cries a lot in that period. One of the reasons she started liking him was because she was thinking that he is also a poor kid just like her (a child abandoned by his parents).
She was always having nightmares about her mother's death, so she was thinking that she is a pitiful person.
Reading his story also made her realize that they're a bit alike.
She wanted to be just like him, to be as great as he is after so many struggles. It gave her hope.
Joanne-high school girl
I wanna be a wonderful person just like him!!!
Her high school life is brightened by this idea. Her computer and phone are all full with his pictures and music.
Probably she makes a fool of herself in front of the world because of her messages.
She finishes her high school, goes to the university in a bigger city and she still hopes that she will meet him one day, even though he is from a different continent.
She gradually starts to realize that it is only her own wish and not this person's wish too, that he doesn't even know her and he will never come.
Her life is difficult all alone in a completely strange place and she considerably loses weight. Joanne becomes sick and quits her studies after a year. She returns back to her poor house and penniless life.
All the years that she deceives herself thinking about this person are all gone. Only the words said by her mother in her dreams are giving her real support, not his stupid songs.
Maria Kim
"Joanne, my girl, don't cry! Please don't cry anymore!"
He releases a song that hurts her feelings a lot. Even though it sounds good, the words he says are very mean in her opinion.
Joanne-high school girl
So, I'm only another girl? Just another girl! There are so many like me who are blindly following him and they're "just another girl"! I'm no different from the rest of them?! I'm only a fool, a big fool. What can a fan mean to an idol? Of course, just one more follower, one more person to support his work! He will never love me back. I was fooling myself all these years!
She decides to give up on him and deletes all her accounts.
Joanne-high school girl
"I swear I won't love any man from today on! They're all jerks!"
Joanne-high school girl
I'll become a rich person and buy a man like him! I'll buy myself a pretty boy like this one! Just buy him! Make him my servant!
After this he also takes a short break from showbiz and she completely forgets his name.
He returns to his old profession after some years, but this girl isn't concerned about his existence anymore. Joanne Kim tries to avoid everything about this guy.
Joanne leaves her home to find a job in the same city where she was in the past. The girl starts working.
Her old father John Kim suddenly dies. She sees him for the last time in the same month when she visits him. His death comes suddenly and unexpectedly.
During that visit, they have a strange conversation:
John Kim
My girl, have you found a lover?
Joanne Kim
Dad, what are you saying? How can I have time for that? Of course I didn't! I only want to focus on work. Now, the most important thing is to gain money, so I can improve our life!
John Kim
Fine, fine! I won't ask you anymore! I know you can do it! Take care my child!
Joanne Kim
I will, dad! Don't worry!
After her dad's death, she leaves her hometown and returns to her work place. This ambitious girl is unsatisfied with her current job, so she decides to go abroad to find one and start a new life.
She finds one in a hotel in a country in Asia. Taiwan.
After some months of working here, she becomes the housekeeping supervisor of the hotel.
Pictures of JJ appear again in her new social accounts even though she isn't searching for them.
She only has hate for him now.
Joanne Kim
I don't want to see this person anymore! He's part of the past! He should stay in the past!
Joanne Kim
I think he is just an idiot!
I can't face his eyes anymore!
Joanne Kim receives news from her superiors that a famous idol will stay at their five-star hotel during his tour in Taiwan. They ask her to prepare everything for this person's stay.
Joanne Kim
Who the hell is this VIP guest? They didn't tell me anything about this person. All the informations are top secret! I only know that I must do an impeccable work. Otherwise, my boss will be angry!
Joanne Kim
What's so secretive about a stupid idol who comes to hold a concert here? I don't even know this person's preferences, I only know that I have to deal with a man.
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