"Reasons"

It took me a very long time to discover myself in a way that I can express myself, my thoughts and visions. Is there anyone who is reading this? Can I really reach you with my words? Do I make any difference? That remains a question, but I like to try. And this why: Along the way I found out what works and what doesn't work for me. I know my low points, my weakness and I know better than anyone how I work. As always I say, and it is and remains a cliché, treating another as you would like to be treated yourself is the key.

Unfortunately, I can't control how someone else thinks, how they treat me and in what situation that has brought me. A lot has happened so that I have last hope often enough, confidence has been damaged, and I often stood on the brink of collapse. Yet with time and awareness I have found my way back, and I have kept my goal in mind. I want to show who I am, not how someone else presents me or treats me. I want to share how I think and how things can be improved, I want to help those who experienced the same thing. Likewise, I want to help make this world a better place, at least I want to try.

When I was in the worst state, it has always something that was missing someone who understood me, who felt what u felt, who could articulate what was going on inside me, someone who took care for me, someone who could guide me through the search and name of all the chaos inside me. But when that person was not there, I only had two options, and I chose to fight. I wanted to discover who I was, who caused my thoughts, my questions and my emptiness, how I could fill, name and express It, how I could find myself In the chaos, and the chaos In the world change. I went through a development and growth that I never envisaged until a few years ago.

Life is hard right now and a million and one questions swarm through my brain. I'm trying to surrender to the unknown and hardships being faced. My end goal is wanted to see myself better than I was yesterday, last week, last month,last year.I want to see myself loving myself, happy with myself and falling in love with life. As naive as it sounds, I know life is nothing but pain and death and missed opportunities but believe it or not there is still joy in it even if you have a look a little closer.

Happiness isn't always around you but there always reason to be happy, a praise I find myself repeating a million times a day.

I'm grateful for my family and friends and myself for carrying on because I know I have so many good things ahead on me.

『⋆𝔈𝔵𝔱𝔯𝔞𝔠𝔱𝔰 𝔉𝔯𝔬𝔪 𝔄 𝔅𝔬𝔬𝔨 ℑ 𝔚𝔦𝔩𝔩 𝔑𝔢𝔳𝔢𝔯 𝔚𝔯𝔦𝔱𝔢⋆』

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