Late Night Musing
Esme
It is times like these that makes me question all my life choices
Loretha
Why would you say something like that? Are you drunk?
Esme
Nah, at least not to the point where I do not understand what I am saying.
I just can't help but feel a sense of loss anytime I remember him.
Loretha
Your childhood crush?
Esme
He was more than a crush, and you know that but then maybe it was never meant to be.
Loretha
If you ask me choosing between your career and a man. I think your career should always come first.
Esme
Of course you would say that.
You are my agent after all, what else would you say?
But then, if you ask me to do it all over again, I would still pick my career, I just would try not to hurt him as much as I did.
Loretha
Do you think you could have done it any differently?
Esme
I don't know, Reth.
Do you think I could have?
I have asked myself the same question for the past 5 years, and guess what?
Even I can't find the answer.
😮💨
I hate to think I could have found a way to keep both my career and us from hurting as much as we did.
Loretha
You know you could always reach out to him. He is just a business card away.
😏
Esme
Oh, my God! You've got to be joking.
You want me to ask him out or call him on a business date.
I don't think I have lived long enough to start making decisions that would cost me my existence.
Esme
No, thank you. I would rather wallow in self-pity for the rest of my life.
Loretha
You know, you have never actually spoken about what made both of you to separate.
You only talk about all these things in riddles.
Never giving a proper explanation.
Maybe it's not as bad as you think. It may just be all in your head.
Esme
Trust me, it is. I was the big bad wolf in this love story.
The bitch every mother warned their sons about.
I don't know if I can blame it on youth and childishness but then growing up made me realize how much I did not deserve him.
Loretha
If you say it's that bad, then it really is that bad.
Maybe you should apologize to the poor man and ease some of your guilt.
It's been 5 years, Esme.
You deserve to heal, I have watched you torture yourself for so long and a part of me wishes you would forgive yourself and move on with your life.
Loretha
It's just a failed relationship.
You didn't kill, mutilate or financially damage him.
It's time to let go.
Get a closure with it without him.
Whichever way, I need you to stop wallowing in self-pity.
Esme
Hmm, we'll see.
After all, I am tired of holding on to these memories too.
Loretha
That being said.
Find a way to cure your hangover before noon tomorrow.
I need you to get ready for an interview.
Esme
Okay.
I guess that means I should get myself out of the bar and puke my guts at home.
😊
Loretha
That would be very much appreciated. Let me settle the bill and call us a taxi.
Esme
Thank you so much, my queen. What would I have done without you?
Loretha
Well, I can come up with a list if you need me too.
One of them could have been becoming someone's mistress.
The other one that comes to mind is too tragic for your ears.
😂😁
Esme
Now you are being mean.
😹
But then come to think of it, you may be right.
Loretha
I am done, and the cab is waiting let's go
Esme
Goodnight, Reth. See you tomorrow.
Loretha
Don't binge-watch any of his interviews tonight. I will beat you up if you show up tomorrow looking like a zombie.
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