One More Time!!! Agastya's guilt

Agastya's guilt

Agastya's pov

Agastya Singhania

"It's so done! How can they just give Raina's accessories to Ruhaani!! And no one even objected to it. I felt anger and guilt at the same time. Anger because, obviously my oh so sweet mother gave my love's saree to Ruhaani."

Agastya Singhania

"And guilt because I couldn't help it. I shouldn't have obeyed at first to shift Raina's belongings to the other room. I should've taken care of it myself."

There's a saying, if the start of the day is good, the day goes well. The start is so torturous, my day will be traumatic already. I couldn't work at my office

And lost the important deal

I was on the way home, and I didn't wish to go back. Although, I had to. No one understands my point no matter how strongly I try to keep it. They all forgot her as a passing wind.

Agastya Singhania

"But I won't."

Agastya Singhania

"She was. Is. And forever will be the person I look up to."

I reached home and Ruhaani opened the door for me and I asked her where everyone was as there was no noise in the house, which was unusual. She answered that they had already left for the venue, and moved back to the room

She felt sad. And I know that because of me. But if you consider my situation, I wasn't at fault either. It was my mother. And everyone was so casual about it.

How would you feel, like the last belongings of your love being snatched away from you? When people just force you to move on? When they show sympathy but they don't mean it?

Arushi

" Ma-ma-ma"

I got my Aru ready and she crawled to Ruhaani asking her to pick it up. When Ruhaani picked her up, Aru threw the hairband off.

Kids!

And Ayansh was ready too. I got him twinning with me. Soon, we sat in the car and I noticed she was sitting in the backseat with the kids.

Agastya Singhania

💭Maybe because of the morning incident.💭

I felt guilty. Really guilty. But I know, even if I explain, it won't count and she won't understand my place. Soon, he reached the venue and got down the car.

Aaru was so adamant today to be with her, she refused to come to me. She kept playing with her mangalsutra, and her thin chain that she was wearing.

As we got in, Yash was upset with me, and I cheered him up. I thank God that he's a kid. If he weren't, it may be too difficult for me to cheer him up.

I saw her playing with Aru and Ayansh in a corner of the room. I don't know why but it felt content that my kids are accepting her as their mother.

They just rely on her. They go to her more often than me. I ain't opposing the change, but I am constantly worried that they shouldn't go away from me. Because they're all I have.

My gaze went up to her. She looked good. But sad. Learning the fact I'm behind her worries, it made me feel guilty.

I ain't causing things myself. It's just- the situation puts me in the way that I had conflicts with her. And not a single word she uttered till date. I can't see her like this.

I need to apologize and look after my actions before performing them in front of her.

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