To Make A Hopeless Romantic Hope
Fate huh...
Mathias
*studying but his mind occupied*
Mathias
… *pen freezes after a loop of letter e*
Mathias
(What’s up with me lately…)
Mathias
(Why did I start to feel some kind of tension that time?)
Mathias
(…How is it possible to feel tension right after Alvin left)
Mathias
(It feels different. I don’t think it’s cuz I was simply being physically affected cuz of Alvin)
Mathias
*blush a little* (Okay maybe a little)
Mathias
(But it really feels something entirely different. Like the tension is really there)
Mathias
*putting the logic behind it all he can for half an hour*
Mathias has been thinking a long time, if he didn’t take a glance on the clock he would have this going on longer
But he has to go to school tomorrow
Because now, he has a reason to find Alvin, a reason to talk to him, and a reason to interact with him
Not just some delusional stuff he’s good at cooking up in his head that he doesn’t end up doing the way he does it in his imagination
Mathias
… *small smile as he covers himself with a blanket*
Mathias
(I want it to be the next day as soon as possible)
Forcing himself to drift into a deep sleep
Somehow he succeeded however something seems to have been bothering his sleep
Mathias
* eyebrows furrowing*
But he still doesn’t wake up
Mathias developed a fever
Mathias
*can barely stand up, let alone walk so he slumps on his couch*
Mathias
(Of all the days I get sick)
Mathias
(It has to be this day)
Mathias
(…I don’t like how fate is treating me right now) *glares at the innocent TV*
Mathias
(I got a chance. They take it away from me…)
Mathias
(If it does exist, I wonder what it’s planning)
Mathias
*lay his head backward from the couch, gazing up the ceiling*
Mathias
(Hah… It’s really hard becoming courageous to somethig unknown)
Mathias
(I wonder how some people do it)
Mathias
(How they get what they want, even though things happen differently)
Mathias
(Or does nothing change for me because I’m not making hard choices)
Mathias
(But then again, don’t people get the courage to make hard choices because they have someone who’s got their back)
Mathias
*feeling increasingly warm, thus more exhausted and drained*
Mathias
…God I wish I have someone right now
Mathias phone was beside him, showcasing a whopping 21 missed calls
He’s been calling Rowen ever since he figured out he has a fever
He wasn’t sure if he was just too busy or he’s having trouble with something as well
But he needed him right now
Rowen is the only person he’s close to. His parents travel a lot for work
He didn’t want to go with them, so here he is livinng in a complex apartment since he was still a highschool student
At least the apartment he got was a huge deal, but being alone in it makes him feel even more lonely
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