frustration and emotions

We practice hard together, we spent most of our precious times on practicing. The tiredness makes us care for each other. Every time I felt tired he will either buy me a drink or rest for a while. I am glad to have him by my side, he supports me, cares for me, look out for me. Sometimes I would even wanted to spend more time with him. We were fine, not till that day...

At class 0740 am

"Yue! Good morning."

"Good morning, Luna."

"Let me help you carry that bag. "

"Oh no thanks I can carry it. "

"Come on I'll help you. " Something is fishy around here. Luna and I aren't so close, I didn't talk to her much, but she is helping me all of a sudden. strange.

We went into the classroom and she put my bag gently on my chair. I said thank you to her and she said its nothing, but I am bothered by her move, I feel strange about her. She sit on Sue's chair, facing me, I ignore her and took my books out for the first lesson. And the suspicious one started to speak.

"Yue, I hope you are doing fine now."

"I... Am... Thank you. " more suspicious of you.

"Look, I bought a watch and thought that you love this brand so I was thinking of giving it to you. "

"ermm... " she puts the watch she bought on my wrist.

Honestly, I do love the brand and its the newest collection, the color is so elegant, its pleasing to the eyes, but, no one would give away such a precious thing to someone like me without a reason.

"Why are you giving this to me? "

"Yue, I like Yi Chuan. " she said the keyword in a small tone. I'm in a daze for seconds. I though it, then I reply to her.

"Oh... So...? " a cold face.

"So I need you to help me set him up with me, I'm not that close to him and I'm shy u know. "

"I think you should be brave to tell him. "

"Come on, Yue help me. "

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I'm stupid. I said those words.

"What do you want me to do anyway? How can I even help you? "

"Cancel your club today so that I could accompany him home instead, also try to be busy that time. "

I hesitate, I feel like sadness is coming after me. I was fine and suddenly become cold, blue as ice, sadness that we say, makes someone ask themselves, why did I do that? Did I make the right decision? Why am I not satisfied? Should I do it? ... Question marks all over me. I somehow automatically turn my head to him on theright side. He was looking at his books and he noticed me. He smile to me. I felt warm and happy, I couldn't let my feelings put him down. So I smile back, forcefully.

Not to mention, its almost club activities. Time is ticking, waiting for my answer. Another hour to think it through. Why not help her? He is single anyway. Its not like I'm sending him a reaper, An angel of course. He is my friend, I should help him too.

RING

RING

RING

The school bell ring, I bravely open my mouth. The time I say those words, nothing is turning back, it decides what my amswer is.

"Yi Chuan, today's practice is cancelled."

"What? why? "

"Well... I'm busy today, my mom wanted me to do things so I need to cancel it. We'll practice some other time. I have to rush now, bye! " I quickly grab my things and rushed out of the classroom.

I'm am running. Running because of what? I don't have anything to rush for. This heart makes me stop. It get heavy and heavier. Is this the right decision?

Timeskip at a roadway

Absent minded person will ignore anything that comes in her way. I don't know what am I thinking, I don't know why did I come here, I didn't know why am I feeling sad and guilty. I was walking and walking. Till I notice a poor old man sitting at a corner and there's an old colourful piano beside him. The old man didn't seem to care the piano, maybe its someone else's, or maybe it was put here for people to play. Everyone come and go. On one even wanted to play even for a while, not to mention, no one even wanted to see it. I look at the piano, its a beautiful art, art and music.

The next thing I noticed myself sitting on the chair infront of the piano. I am Full of emotions. I wanted to let it all out. Emotions? Sad, angry, happy, desperate...?

Ah, I know, I am being a fool. This feeling makes me thinks so much, make me started to dream, make me... Make me...

Fingers started to dance on the black and white keys. Slowly, a rhythm came into mind and starting to let it all out. Like a story of a woman, dance with all her might, to let the guy sitting infront of her notice her, feel the message she wanted to tell him, she dance and dance and dance, at the end of the dance, water that looks like rain drops trickling down her cheeks because at the end of the dance, she didn't get to tell the guy what she wanted to say, even if she was the dance lead, even if she suddenly died while dancing, the guy won't be able to know what she wanted to say.

That feeling, A sad but unreasonable feeling. Why am I sad? This is so frustrating!!!

DENG DENG DENG DÈNG DÈNG DÈNG

The rhythm become more and more quicker, Letting it all go in one go. Just like what elsa said, let it go, let it all go...

When the frustration stops, slowly and slowly, the rhythm become sad again, I close my eyes and end the music with a nice ending. The audience behind me are all passer by(s), they enjoyed the music, and was shocked at first I guess, maybe it frightened them just now. I saw the old man beside me clapping his hands too, the old man can't see things clearly because of his age. I apologized for playing such a music and it might have made him shocked.

"I'm sorry grandpa, were you shocked? "

"No, I was really enjoying it. "

"re... Really? "

"Yes, I haven't hear anyone play this instrument for a long time. It was amazing, young girl. "

"Thank you grandpa. "

"A long time ago, there was a young man often came here to play the instrument for the people. He was a wonderful player, kinds of melodies that he played before. "

"Thats amazing. Grandpa, I'll visit you next time, its getting late, I need to go home. Here, these are for you, I bought these breads but I haven't eaten it."

"Oh, thank you young girl."

"Bye grandpa, see you next time! "

He wave back to me and I go home with a peaceful heart and mind, also, the sunset view is beautiful, the sky and the clouds are both so beautiful. Reminds me the day when we practiced together...

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