Episode- 132 “don’t scare me”
I woke up and my head hurts… I sigh… I
was not able to sleep till late…. I got ready and then I remember that he said
I can’t go out…. This got me into tears… I fall on the bed as I don’t know what
I should do now… I need to get out but how?
I was disturbed by maid informing to
come for breakfast…. I refused, I have no appetite……. Not after this… not after
losing my freedom
The maid said with worry, “Miss… Sir won’t like this he is waiting….” I
don’t care any less…
I replied, “I am not coming.” The maid
left… she was disappointed.
I just stayed in my place not moving a
inch as I am thinking how my life turned out. I saw the door open, Edwin was
leaning against the door and he was well dressed like he was about to head to
work… but he was angry….
I quickly sat straight on the bed, I
avoided his gaze. He asked, “Come for breakfast, little dove.”
I replied, “I am not hungry….. can I go to
work?” I don’t know why I asked but I
want to try……
Edwin looked at me for few seconds, “No you can’t… let’s have
I tried again, “I won’t move out I
promise, I won’t call Vic either.. I will be back before 9….”
Edwin said turning to the door, “I am going to office, eat breakfast and
stay in the mansion….” he left the room saying that… I broke down again after
the door shut… I am seeing my life shattering against my eyes…
The next day,
She is starving herself form
yesterday… sh*t…. I can’t let her go out… what if she plans another escape….
does she thinks that her this act will work against me… when I returned home
yesterday I saw her sitting near the window, she didn’t spoke a word to me…..
not a single response… I hated it… she rejected to eat this morning as well…
But today I had enough I will make her eat at any cost…. That’s why I
left the office early… I threw my bag on the bed and changed into comfortable
clothes…. I walked to her room and before I opened the door I said to myself,
‘today I am going to end her childish drama… at any cost’
I opened the door and I saw her sitting her on the bed, she had covered
her half body with comforter and her eyes are closed…. is she sleeping…. Sure
she is starving she must felt tired…. I walked to the bed and touched her face…
she is pale…. What has she done to herself… she should eat when she wakes up
I was about to make her comfortable position… I noticed comforter is wet
and red… my eyes widen… I removed it and saw her hand was cut…. She cut herself
again….. I noticed the knife near her… S*it….
I hugged her body into my arms and patted her cheeks to wake her up…. I
called Ken and asked him to call a doctor…. I covered her wound with towel and
kept patting her cheeks, I whispered as I could feel my eyes filling with water, “Little dove… wake up… open
your eyes… women don’t scare me open your eyes… please… Alisa!…” how can she be
this stupid?…. I can’t lose her … please… be ok… please……
His anger and selfishness led him to his own hell… maybe he looks
satisfied earlier but.. he is dying inside…. He is not perfect, he is far away
from being perfect… but he will never able to understand himself… do he loves
her?... do he wants her to be near him and love for him… if’s it’s not her love
then at least her presence is enough for him to be… but he can’t give up on his
goals too…. He is too selfish for that … he wants everything he desire at once…
but now his unknown nightmare is standing in front of his eyes… losing her…
seeing her dead… is the thing he never wanted… he feels too helpless that he
can’t breathe… he in this is the moment
he regrets all his actions… he realized his every torture, his every poison
word, his every try to control her, his every punishment have reach the limits
to her… he pushed his own love to death…. can anything me more horrible for him
than this sin he committed… his pain and fear got him into tears, made him cry
like a kid… a heartless man who killed hundreds is sobbing tear only by the
fear and nightmare of losing her… he regrets everything till now… from
disturbing her life to making her feel like this to try to end her life……. he
Earlier the same day, (before Alisa attempts suicide)
I am just staring at the window blankly as
I am on the bed…. I am holding a knife in my hand…. I promised Ron that I will
never do this again,,, but right now I am losing everything I had…. I promise I
tried to be strong and be brave, I tried to stay… but I am failing… I lost my
Ron, my freedom, my courage… everything is vanishing in front me of my life.. I
can’t stay like this… locked in prison… I am done fighting .. and I feel like I
can’t do anything… it’s better to end it if I can’t live as I want…. All this
time I fight for my identity with my family and now I am fighting with Edwin
for my freedom… but I am failing, and I can’t even hate Edwin for doing this to
me …. And I have no energy to fight anymore.. I am nothing in front of him..
nothing… I should just end it…. I can’t exist without freedom… I just can’t….
now these tears rolling down my cheeks mean nothing, I can feel emptiness
inside me, I feel hollow… but I am in pain…. I can’t express…. I just want to
end it all…………. I never wanted to be this weak pathetic person… but he is
making me feel one… I just don’t want to live like this anymore…….. this is my
breaking point, all this time I rejected the voice inside my brain telling me
to end myself but now I am going to listen to this voice and end myself……………………………………
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I appreciate the author story very much and also way of thinking! Edwin personality is the most annoying personality I had ever known at this moment (maybe) . from the starting to this chapter his unreasonable assumptions, unreasonable tortures and everything makes me feel like he is the most stupid and foolish person of all .( as per author p.o.v )his selfishness and unreasonable anger , which I can't even think about so stupid ! I hope this idiot till now get some sense ! also having the person who can sucide as his lover to teach him lesson is the best thing to make him realise! if I saw myself in the place of Alisa I am no other exceptional but I would have done this suicide thing long ago! I LUV MY FREEDOM THE MOST ❤️ I feel sorry for Alisa as she only want love from her family or friends or so-called crush but she didn't get any !
author plz update faster I love you novel very much....
Is this the end of the story ????