Spring Day SPRING

Cold breeze

everywhere is snowy......

snowflakes are falling down

It's feel like yesterday

you and me

together begin happy with eachother

those memories thoes promisese

it' was just past

"I'll be there for you no matter what"

It was fake

your promises were fake

just like that

"opss- sorry It was just a dare to dump you"

You broke my heart

I start to hide myself......under a mask

No one show there true self

and I also started to hide my true self

what you expect from a 14 years old child who was barely mature

The fear of getting hurt again I buried alive the angle inside me I killed that pure soul of mine....

I beacome the demon of my own life

Why!?

beacuse a weak fragile boy can't rule the world he can't be powerful.......

I still remember how the word begin "PERFECT" echoes in my ears

I did I tried my best

I beacome a perfect son....a perfect brother.......a perfect friend.....a perfect student

But did I beacome the best version of myself??

no!

I give up on my dreams beacuse I didn't wanted my siblings to give up on there dreams

I left my dream to be a writer and start handling business

My dad was happy

coz I was his "PERFECT" son who will just obey him like a puppy

I'm not complaining about my life .........but sometimes I wish to those spring days to comeback

when I first saw him

He beacome.... the reason of my spring

but it's the rule of nature that once spring start it won't stay forever

and he also didn't

I'm just waiting

waiting this winter to finish...... those flowers to bloom agian.....I'm just staying here little bit more waiting for spring to comeback and bloom my life agian

~TBC~