story of secrets
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ryle won't let me have s**
it's not that i like having s**
but the thing that i have been doing every day for past 5 years....it was suddenly banned from my life
it was my first time not having an intercourse for about a month
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[my English sucks....so please try to understand (╥﹏╥)]
my body has gotten unusually out of control
it feels like someone keeps touching me....it feels suffocating
it feels suffocating to the point that i am hallucinating those worst moments of me and my ex.....the only reason why i started working as a rent boy in order to forget everything
ryle said he'll kill my ex.....how long is he going to take
Rein Watson
*sitting in bed and thinking*
Rein Watson
*biting his nails and shaking his leg*
and this has made me lose my composure
i have got really uneasy because of this situation
i don't want to get back those memories which i have tried so hard to forget
i feel so uneasy....so restless....i just want someone to hold me...i don't need anything else
but only one thing can soothe this uneasiness these days
Ryle Delgado
*enters the room* oh you are here?
Rein Watson
*looks up*ryle....
Ryle Delgado
*smiles* i just came back from the office,but you weren't there downstairs so i came up to the room directly
Rein Watson
mhm*stops shaking his leg*
Ryle Delgado
*walks up to rein* stop biting your nails
Ryle Delgado
were you anxious again?
Rein Watson
*spreads his arms*
Ryle Delgado
*smiles and hugs rein*
Ryle Delgado
*makes him sit on his hug*
Ryle Delgado
*rubs reins back* okay calm down
it's ryle's hug and his words
i am getting used to it even if I don't want to
because there is no other way to solve my anxiety
i can't have s** to divert my mind
i can't talk about this with neon cause he is quite stressed out because of his work and by living in this mansion
i don't want to drag Larson in this,he has nothing to do with me
..i can only rely on ryle
and i hate it.....i hate relying on someone
Ryle Delgado
how do you feel ?*kisses rein's hair*
Ryle Delgado
(he is getting used to it,the progress is quite good)
Ryle Delgado
(it won't take him long to love me)
Ryle Delgado
yes?*pats reins head*
Rein Watson
what about my ex? when are you going to kill him
Ryle Delgado
(oh fck ....i forgot that he asked me to do it)
Rein Watson
*snuggles*(once he dies....i don't care even if i get nightmares...they won't turn into reality ever again anyways)
Ryle Delgado
(i don't really have time to kill someone,but i guess i can do this much for my future contractual mate)
Ryle Delgado
(i can't love him,so this much is fine)
ryle feels distanced even when he is so close,i can't read him at all
all i wish is that my ex would be dead
i don't care how ryle treats me after that
i am just using ryle for my benefit
i am......ugh fck i can't think anymore
Ryle Delgado
what are you thinking so deeply?
Ryle Delgado
(also I noticed that he has gotten gloomy since past month)
Ryle Delgado
(i gotta keep him happy)
Ryle Delgado
(because i don't want to hurt him in this process,he has nothing to do with my revenge)
Ryle Delgado
(I'll keep rein safe even if i am using him)
Ryle Delgado
(his safety and security is my responsibility as well as his happiness)
Ryle Delgado
(i was not able to give shawn everything....but I'll give it to rein... everything except for my heart)
Ryle Delgado
(i am sorry rein...i can't give you my heart,it belongs to someone else)
Ryle Delgado
(but I'll be loyal,i promise)
i don't want to hurt anyone
i don't want to hurt ryle's feelings either ....idk why he likes me
but idk if i can ever give him my love .....i probably can't.... because my heart is too shattered
too shattered to join it together and trust it with to someone once again
i am sorry ryle.... I'll do whatever you say ...but i can't give you my love ....so don't pursue me
Ryle Delgado
why(i hate this feeling....this feeling of warm hug)
Rein Watson
just for no reason
why does a hug feel so warm....when it shouldn't. I somehow hate how soothing it is
Rein Watson
*snuggles more*
Ryle Delgado
*closed his eyes*
both ryle and rein are broken
both of them have no intention for love
a completely contractual relationship
a relationship that has started on lies
both of them want to use each other for their own purpose
they don't want to hurt the other person....but they have no other choice
if they want to achieve their goal....they have to use each other....and also hurt eachother
rein has too many unfolded secrets...
let's see how the story unfolds
" a story full of secrets "
Comments
Bl is life 🥱😪
All he needs is love and you can’t even give it to him😞. You have to move on even if Shawn was your first love.
2024-06-10
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yashu.....
he only need your heart you dumb
2024-03-25
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Lalnghawrliana Nghawra
I find it pretty good/Smirk/
2024-02-25
2