chapter 1

You should've known from the moment your lover's cold hands slipped from yours that it was a sign of them not wanting your skin having contact with their own and yet you took it as something so trivial. Them having a bad days as if life took a toll on them but it didn't. You should've never been so blind. Perhaps it was your stupid in-denial heart that tells you to ignore, to turn a blind eye even though your mind tells you otherwise. Should've confronted your other half that time and yet being so ignorant you didn't.

The next sign was your five-hour calls or even more turned into two-missed calls as if they were really ignoring you. Were you oblivious? Yes, that's what your foolish heart wants to believe and that your mind is already dragging your stubborn self to wake up and get a grip of yourself because the things that was happening won't help you not at least when you try to do something about it. But what should you do? Should you confront your lover regarding those times they were ignoring you? Treating you like a ghost as if you were nowhere to be seen.

Confronting someone you love takes a lot of courage especially when the issue is about them, your significant other and not yourself because it implies that something must've changed.

Courage?

Why would you need courage?

Isn't it because you were afraid of the answer?

The answer in which they had fallen out of love with you. The truth that suggests for they have nothing left to give you. The reality which shows the sparks and the butterflies inside him, for you had long died down.

You wanted to cover your eyes, your ears, everything and save your heart from the torment.

Torment? Aren't you torturing yourself more? Clinging into someone who does not value you for the moment. You are a person of your own and you need to give importance to your entirety. They might've given you the world or the universe beforehand but open your eyes and mind, don't you see that they are the ones whom crumbling every bits of it too?

They are destroying you. Wrecking you with every huge arguments that lasts for days that were once fixed in just hours or even in a single day. The cold nights in your shared bed, no one to hug you in those winter or rainy nights, having to seek warmth on your own instead. The lack of time spending with each other. Them wanting to spend their time with anyone but you.

Weeping and sobbing is all you do, it's the only thing you know, it's all you can do. Bloodshot and swollen eyes, tear-stained face, and runny nose; that's how you look, you feel dead, you look like someone has died but in reality it was your heart that died.

Stand up and face the truth. It's time to let someone loose. Your melancholic days should be over once you open the door and let them go away.

Difficult. It's hard at first, you'll suffer from the start then as years gone pass by your lungs will be fill with air again, your heart beats naturally again and your mind will be steer clear of the darkness and worries about their void feelings.

So you got the courage to confront them and just as you predicted they have fallen out of love with you. Tears endlessy falling down your cheeks, painful words leaving from those lips you once kissed and a subtle smile on your lips.

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