Jimin felt his heart racing, his hands became sweaty, fingers shaking and body trembling, he tried but he just couldn’t help and look up at the couple who made their way into the small table in the corner. The boy with a wide boxy smile trying to get off the other’s lap obviously trying to go order, while the one invading Jimin’s every waking hour, jokingly kept pulling him to his lap again before finally giving his boyfriend a kiss on the cheek and releasing him to go order. Jimin felt his heart twist in pain, like hundreds of knives invaded his chest at the same time, pulled out to only cut through him again and again, millions of thoughts swimming in his head making it throb, high pitched whistling like noises piercing through his ears, he was on the verge of a break down, he could feel it. He could recognize all the symptoms of a panic attack that he’d had multiple times in that last couple of months. The blinding pain in his chest, the speed of his heartbeat, the trembling traveling all over his body, the chaos in his head, the silence pierced by a loud noise hurting his ears, the silent screams desperate to escape. Jimin felt two strong arms enveloping his shaking body and pulling him into a warm surface. Jimin tried to focus on the strong embrace of Namjoon, Jin’s co owner, the warm hug managing to break him out a little bit of his emotions trying to suck him in in an infinite state of deep darkness, making him look up to see the worried face of the boy with the boxy smile that was turned into a deep frown. Namjoon turned him around, still keeping his arms around him. Jimin tightened his grip «on his Hyung’s waist with small shaking fingers, hiding his face in the older’s chest, his knees almost giving up on holding his weight up. Luckily Namjoon could sense the weakness of Jimin and the slight weight put onto him so he quickly moved his arms under the younger’s thighs to hold him up with no effort and pulling him closer. The boy watched the scene with worried and confused eyes, Namjoon gave him a ressuring smile and said:
« I’m sorry; my co owner would be here in a second to take your order »
Namjoon turned around, holding the crying angel in his arms and entered the kitchen. He sat on one of the chairs with Jimin sitting on his lap, sobs still shaking his fragile body.
« Babe, a customer is waiting to get his order taken, can you take care of it while I get Jiminie to calm down? »
Jin didn’t even respond and he rushed out of the kitchen, knowing well that Jimin hated noise when he had these break downs, he never needed words, he just needed to be held tight till his sobs turned into soft shaky breaths, till his eyes dried, till his mind shuts down, till the numbness would take over his body once again. So that’s what Namjoon did.
After 15 minutes, Jimin pulled his face out of Namjoon’s neck and looked up at his Hyung.
« Better Minnie ? »
« Yes, I’m Okay Hyung. »
Silence engulfed them again, Namjoon just pulled Jimin to his chest again and the younger rested his head on his shoulder.
« He showed up, he was there, with his new boyfriend. I can see why. Taehyung really is beautiful. »
Namjoon just kept silent, he never needed to say anything, words were meaningless to Jimin, He’s been lied to multiple times. So the elder just held him tighter.
« I love you » « I’m sorry I don’t love you anymore »
« I would never leave you » « I’m sorry, I just can’t stay anymore »
« I have to go back to work now Hyung »
« You don’t have to Jiminie, you don’t have to go back out there again, just take the rest of the day off »
« No, I’m Okay »
Jimin got up, and went back, Jin looked back at him and gave him a worried look.
« jiminie, He’s still here. Are you sure? »
« I’m fine Hyung »
Jin walked to him, planted a kiss to his forehead and headed back to the kitchen.
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