Don't love me cuz I am an avarice chapter 4

who is this man yelling my name very loudly.

Jesus Christ ! Now everybody is looking at me . Don't look at me , Don't look at me. Aghhh! It's kind of embarrassing.

This man is shouting like as if I am running away with his money.

why in the world I am seeing all this kind of crazy people....

starting from my parents, grandparents and friends all people are kind of crazy.i don't have any idea what they think.

My mind running through some wild thoughts. I think I did became some kind of crazy bitch by staying with these people.

Now I need to talk to this person, what kind of crazy problem he has with me.

Youuuu!!!!!!

( what in the world did I do . Again him . Oh God what did I do in my past, why did this man following me again and again)

you! what's your problem ? why you are shouting my name in the middle of the road . And I do have ears and God gave me two ears like everybody else . so don't shout I can hear you.

Hiiii!

What hi , have you heard what I said?

Yes! I did heard everything you said and I would like to hear every word you say \(smiles\)

\(slapping my forehead with hand\) ouch!!!

where did you or how did you or from whom did you learn these honey coated

words( sarcasm)

I didn't learn from anybody , these are my true feelings for you

Feelings my hell, if you can't control your feelings show them to somebody.

That's what I am doing , showing to you .

yaaaaaa!!!! somebody give me something ,I will kill this person (huhuhu) . I can't take this anymore (waahhhh - crying through my inner self)

(Am I just a gonna go psychoooooo - my inner self)

Forget it , by the way why are you calling me?

I asked you a question yesterday , can you give me the answer now?(innocently)

which question ? and what answer?

I mean the thing that I asked you yesterday !

which thing? I don't remember any!

I mean will you marry me if I have money ?

Are you kidding me?

No I am not.

Jesus Christ ! what the hell . you must be kidding me.

Yesterday was the first time that I saw you , you came and said that you have a crush on me like a crazy person and even after saying all those things, you are asking me will you marry me if I have money.

Man , you are too much, I don't even know your name , I don't even want to talk to you let alone marrying you . you must be seriously kidding me.

Edward!

what Edward!

I mean my name is Edward .so will you marry me.

Are you out of your mind or what .Is everything ok or do you need me to take you to hospital .

No, I am fine, everything is good.

Seriously good right?

yes!

If everything is good then go to your home or go do your work , don't joke around with people.

Seriously, people nowadays are too much , even if they have too much time to joke around with people , not everybody can take this shit .

(Coming and saying ohh I love , I can't live without you , you are love of my life , oh baby I only have eyes for you, I can do anything for you , I can give you everything you want , I just want you to happily stay with me.. ..

I do know these kinds of words , blah blah blah )

I did watch many movies and dramas , so you can't cheat me ( sarcasm) . Don't act too smart .

I am saying this for the last time , don't come in my way , my life is already a mess . so don't make it even more messy.I beg you .

Stop trying to enter my life , you don't have the right to do it ..

Susie ! stopppp!!

I know you won't believe it but I love you so , could you at least give me a chance.

No! I am sorry .

Just once chance , I promise that won't hurt you , I can give you everything . I can fill your world with happiness that you have been missing.

Do you even know whether I am happy or not . who do you think you are .

I Know that you are not happy.

You know , my foot , mind your own business.

In this world , no one can get whatever they want , so I don't believe these kind of stupid promises . No one can get everything they want let alone giving it to others.

In case I am saying in case so , don't let your hopes up, In case if you give me money , you don't have time to spend with me or love me the way I want or if you love me and spend your time with me every time and everyday , then we cannot have enough money .

So , what I am saying is , you cannot give me everything and not only you , anyone cannot give me everything not even my father or mother or my sister , so one should sacrifice something .

So , they have sacrificed enough , right now I don't want others to sacrifice themselves for being with me .

Just live your life , as good as a king until you have the chance .

Anyways after that you should bear responsibilitys of family , so stop following me everyday and live your life fully .

After that , obviously you meet your right one .

Have you finished ?

Yes!

Can I talk now?

sure .

You said that stop wasting my time and live my life fully right?

yes!

So , I want to tell you that , I am living my life fully.

What ?

I mean talking to the girl I like , wanting to do anything for her , and willing to take any responsibility for her. Is is not enough ?

Ummm .....

Susie , I want to tell you one thing .

What ? ( in low voice)

I don't know what you have experienced and I cannot change it no matter what.

Hmmm.

But I am willing to change your future , I am willing to make a beautiful path with you .

(.......)

so, whatever you say it doesn't matter .And you said many things up until now , made yourself soo bad so that I won't fall you ,right?

uhhh...

But , you know what, you care more about other people thoughts like , always thinking about whether , if I say this will it hurt to them , if I do this will my family feel bad , If I ask this can they afford it.

Can you stop make your own assumptions , you need to speak out and you should speak whatever it is in your mind .

You only know it , whether they feel bad or do they hurt , when you speak out.

So , Susie!

Yes!

Stop keeping everything to yourself , when you share the burden with others it makes you relaxed.

As you said nobody can get whatever they want .But , even if they can't get everything they will get something that makes them happy.

As you said you need to sacrifice something if you want something , but if you sacrifice something for the person you love , it doesn't count as a sacrifice but as a step to show their love .

And also we cannot get everything by money . Even with love we cannot get everything .

But like I said I will spare no effort to give you anything that is with my reach and that is because of love and I will work even more hard to give you whatever you want.

So what I am try to say is I love you no matter what and I love you so whatever things that burdens you I would like to share if you are willing to.

So you are not alone and I won't force you to love me .

But at least give me a chance .

............ I , I don't know what to say but I really want to thank you for your concern . But I cannot give you love ...

Hmmmm ....

I am sorry , I didn't mean to hurt you but I , ii just can't .

Hmmmmm , That's okay , I won't force you but that doesn't mean I would give up on you.

But...

What?

I cannot love you the way you want but I can try be your bestie .

That's okay, wait what , did you really mean it.

I mean do you really want to be my friend .

ummm , Yes , that's what I said.

Yes! yes! yes!

what ?

Nothing , I am just too happy.

Why ?

(shit my stupid overexcitement) ahh nothing you said that you are going to be my friend right.

Yes

That's why I am happy

Ohh okay! okay!

okay (smiles)....

( Thank you God muah , muah, muah, I love you my dear godddd , muah.)

( Taking deep breath , let's just take it slow , i will surely make you fall for me , and I promise myself that I will not let you suffer anymore and won't let you be alone )

Even it doesn't go the way I want but even so it's a good start...

Let's be friends..

okay , my friend.....

Friends forever and ever.....

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