"What are you thinking so deeply, you are hiding something from me." He stated.
I shook my head, but he lifts my chin and called "Idris" when I didn't see him in eyes "Idris, look at me" he demanded.
I look at him, his eyes are too soft, the emerald eyes are shinning as always, his eyes are not blinking as he is staring at me.
"Nothing," I said casually shrugging.
He lifts his both arm and gave me a bear hug. I embraced the hug, and again the room temperature is increasing rapidly and I just not merely hugged him now, As his half-***** body pressing against me, I want to be in his arm not just this moment for all my life. he loosened the grip and looking right at my eyes while he said "I won't let anything hurt you, and If you want to talk about anything anytime, you have ME. you know that right. he said pressing ME more than any other words.
I nodded in response. "Promise me, you won't do the same thing as me hiding things, not to let me worry." he pleaded in a very low voice as he kissed me in the forehead.
"I promise, I'm not hiding anything to you, If I need anyone you will always be the one i=coome first in my mind, you know that right?" I half lied.
"Good, we have to leave at seven-thirty in the evening to meet them in the pup, Bob called," he said.
I gave him another hug, I don't want to let him go, not now. He hugged me too. "Thanks for everything, I'm so lucky to have you in my life," I said as I hugging him. Without knowing what I'm doing my lips are already on his. I'm kissing I don't know how I started it, but now we are kissing. he said me back after three or four seconds. My fingers wandering his body as touching it all at once It is same as the first one, sweet, slow, I try to show the love in the kiss, I feel the love in his kiss too. but I'm not sure it feels like that because that's how I wanted it or its really him giving love in his kiss. With that thought, I stopped kissing but Jack is still kissing me... I want to see his eyes, he closed his eyes as he kissing me.
"Jack" I called and I'm damn sure my voice is different it filled with love and lust.
He didn't stop the kiss, he is kissing deep which I can't resist and kissing him back.
"Jack," I called him, he opened his eyes and he seems like something has snapped him.
"Shit," He regretted.
"I'm so sorry Idris, I'm sorry. I was just...." he trailed off as he went back and put three-foot distance between us. He continued to apologize,
"It's okay, It was my mistake. I shouldn't have done that. I don't know why I did it?. I'm really sorry." I said with half-truth and half lie.
"It's my fault I'm sorry. I can guess why you did it. But I should be the responsible one. It will never happen again. I'm so sorry" he couldn't look at me in eyes. He went to his room and locked and I didn't hear anything after that from him.
was he sorry because he kissed me? Didn't he enjoy it? How could he? he still sees me as his younger sister.
I was crying silently, only the tears that are falling down to my face is the proof I'm crying. Why I do feel like this but not him. If I have fallen in love with anyone else who is not my brother, We wouldn't be in this shit. I don't know when I slept as I was crying. I woke up when my phone rang, its Hannah "Don't ditch today party like your brother. Move your *** and come to the pub, before I came to your apartment and drag your *** with me." with that she cut the phone. When I checked the time it's already half-past six. I still have a full sixty minutes to get ready. But my mind is filled with questions again. why Jack ditched the party, Doesn't he want to see me anymore. Was the moment which I terrified to even imagine as finally became true? All the thoughts rushed in my mind gave me a headache. I went to take aspirin in the kitchen cabinet and noticed Jack's car key was gone. Did he left the apartment? Did he leave me? I ran into his room and saw nothing is moved or missed, even the typewriter and the tools are still in the same place as we left in the afternoon.
I quickly showered and put more makeup to cover the tiredness and sobbing face. I have never done this much makeup even to the prom which I attended for the sake of my friends.
I reached the pub at seven forty on the bike and I have already 3 missed calls, two from Hannah and one from Bob. I saw them as I entered the dance stage. I went straight and gave a quick hug to everyone and I sat there. I decided to drunk to forget myself and get wasted. I don't care what might happen when I get drunk. I want to forget everything and forget the love for Jack. I want my life to change when I woke up in the morning. I pretended everything was fine.
Hannah and I danced for a two-song. I went to the bar and drunk three shots in a row and came back to drag Bob to dance. He danced with me, "Put your hands on me Bob" I'm so drunk that I can't even differentiate what is right and what is wrong. We both danced as he put his hand on my back, me swaying and at least three times I stepped on his foot. But he didn't complain or I'm not in my mind to remember or hear. But that is what I want. Forget Everything. I went back to the Bar to drink more. I heard Bob screaming for me to stop. But I didn't obey as I reached the Bar I ordered a vodka and drank it. Let it burn my throat as well as the three years of my love for Jack. I was in my control I have never let my feeling take control over him. But in the past week, it's not the same. I wanted him more than anything in my life. I can't resist myself anymore. I ordered one more but Nate grabbed the drinks before I can even have the chance to touch it.
"Idris, You already wasted, I'm gonna call Jack to pick you up," He said concerned.
"No, Don't call him" I can go with anyone but him.
"Let me drive you, or you can just sit there and until you are sober, you got enough of the drink. If you are ready to go through a hell lot of hangover tomorrow morning, which you will get definitely." Bob said.
"I want to drink more," I grabbed a drink from a waiter, and god knows what is it. I gulped two glass of it. One is scotch other is vodka mixed with something makes me feel even more burning in my throat.
"Call Jack, I never have seen her behaving like this, Something might have happened to her," Nate said to Bob.
"I'm calling him but he is not picking, would have they got into a fight? I never saw them fighting since when I know him. But as she acting so weird. could they got into a fight?" Hannah said in a serious tone.
"I'm here, I still can hear you." I said.
And I stood up at least I tried and tripped myself, But fortunately, I didn't trip my ankle because I don't feel any pain now or at least I hope. I protested "First I'm fine. little drunken" sign in a thumb and index finger. Everyone raised their eyebrows questioning really? "Maybe a little more. Second, Nothing happened to me. I just want to get a drink and get wasted. It's been too long I haven't really drunk. And Most importantly Jack can't control me anymore. I'm not a child. Do you guys forget that we are twins which means we are at the same age which is 21 legal to drink, NO ONE is calling Jack, If you do, I'm gonna...." as I said I gulped a drink from our table when everyone is discussing something which I can't hear because of I'm too drunk? I must have drunk a full bottle of vodka and two glasses of scotch and what else?
Again I tried to stand up but I fell to the ground and yes I passed out.
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Comments
Just Another Fujoshi
jack is still denying it... i feel like he's making himself believe that they should stay as brother and sister and like loving her is wrong so he just keeps on pushing her and ends up hurting each other
2022-06-07
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Lopolo
wow Jack you lost control and thought it was bad and no it wasn't really
2021-09-17
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nanami ななみ
jack imma beat some sense in you...
2020-08-28
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