There's something I wanted to tell her

We walked for a bit and took the stairs to the terrace of the school building. It was our favourite place in the entire school. It gave me a peace of mind and I knew that the only reason she’s staying here is because of me. We were having lunch and then I realized that it was time to let her know that I could look out for myself and that she didn’t need to stay with me just because I had no friends. I didn’t want any but every time I told her that she would say that I didn’t have to hide my pain for such things.

“You know that you-“

‘Trrring,' the bell rang before I could finish my sentence.

“Oh! Time’s up, let’s go to class now huh?,” she says with that smile on her face.

“Ok..”

We get up and walk down to the classroom. There are always people who talk about us. Thinking that I’m making her stay with me by blackmailing her in one way or the other. Nobody stays with me or wants to be my friend since I have a dark and straightforward personality. I don’t know why but I’m the type of person who can’t do anything by himself unless he is asked to do something. I usually follow what other people do and I imitate them. My mother told me not to lie when I was a kid and that’s what I’ve been doing from then whether it hurts or not. I do it for the benefit of others. I don’t do it because I want to hurt people. I just don’t know how to lie about it. It’s strange how misleading information can pass on. I do pray everyday that I have friends in the future. I did find one but I want to find more for her sake. For Fuyuko and me. I want to see her smile more happily and more realistic. Maybe instead of telling her that I want to-

“ What was I about to tell her again? I thought of being more kinder to people but it doesn’t mean I’ll trust them. It’s hard to trust people you’ve just met but then again I’ll be nice to people. It’s for my sake. It’s for her sake and that in itself has a meaning to it. It has a meaning in my heart. It’s something I haven’t been giving much thought about her and I feel bad for her. I didn’t know she was lonely even though she has people who want to be with her.

“ Akio? You ok? You’ve been spacing out lately!,” Fuyuko asked me out of concern.

“ I’m fine. Thanks though,” I say with satisfaction.

“ For what?,” she asks worried this time. “ Has something happened? You can tell me about it, right?”

She was almost in tears this time. I don’t know why she was. She often told me that I reminded her of someone close to her. Must be her boyfriend or something. I guess that’s why she cares so much about me.

“ There’s nothing wrong don’t worry. You always worry. Anyways I have something to tell you.”

“ What is it?”

“ I’m planning on making friends. It’s not that I can trust them right away but I’m planning on changing myself. I’m going to cut my hair and smile more. How does that sound?”

I’m happy your doing this,” she said in tears this time.

“ Oii! You...ok?.. Oii, Fuyuko. Sorry! I didn’t mean to make you cry,” I was wondering why she was crying.

“ I’m just to happy. Thank you Akio.”

I was surprised she cared about me so much. I mean it’s the least I can do for her. It’s the least I can do for us.

“ Let’s go home,” I tell her.

“ Let’s go!”

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