4 | My Confession

Warren / Levi

Point of View

*Everything was ready for me, I really accepted everything. Maybe, it's destined to happen. Leaving my friends is my choice. And now, I think this is the only way to forget what really happened. To this day, the tragedy that occurred a month ago has never been left in my mind. Everything fucked up when this fucking person spread my photo on social media. Daddy saw it and he was very angry with me but he controlled himself because he loves me. Dad knew I was gay, he accepted me and I was grateful. It was really my plan to escape from the issue. I forced Daddy to leave without being told.

"Son, something came up. I need to go. Maybe we can book another flight." my dad uttered after talking to the phone. I didn't do anything, and I didn't want to leave on my own. "Okay dad." my brief reply.

***

I called Marvin to tell what really happened. I also request that he not inform us of our stay in Thailand.

A few more days left. I plan not to show myself to them. I let them believe I was dead. Daddy pushed me further but I stiffened. Even Marvin believed that Daddy was planning on leaving. I planned everything, from what I had told them. But I didn't think I would be surprised.

Marvin and I went to the Bar where they often feast on anything that should be celebrate. I also knew they were there at the time because they were just finishing midterm exams. "Warren, we're here." I returned to the trance as I noticed that Marvin's car was parked opposite the Bar. I feel a lot of joy and happiness. Well, I can see that the person has been looking for me for a long time. Well, how they would react.

"Oh Bro, I passed the exam!" Billy's voice. "Me too, that's fine." Keith replied as the beer was being held. I smiled as I headed to their place but suddenly I stopped. I felt angry and sad. I could not help but shed tears. I watched them, at how Patrick kissed Palm. My eyes were witnessing how they exchanged kisses. I could feel the pain, my heart could feel anger but I could not move my feet forward. He prefers to retreat backward, moving further away. "Warren." I just stopped when someone slipped behind me.

I ran, far away. When I try to stop, my feet want to go. Weeping, I could not feel everything except my heart ache. I just stopped when someone pulled me over. He was chasing me all the way here. "Brother Fred." I response, I noticed Marvin behind it too. There were sadness in his eyes asking if I was okay*.

***

*Lucky for us, the three of us are here at Lord Coffee Shop. I see in their eyes the pity and sadness. "I will stay away from you, guys." I have a short start for them to adjust. "Warren, what do you mean?" asked Marvin. "I will ask for your favor, I hope no one knows that I have returned. No one but the two of you. I will continue going to Thailand."

"Don't you want to talk to Pat first?" Brother Fred's suggestion was a bit uneasy. I knew they wanted Patrick and me to settle down but something kept me from talking to him. "Not at all. It's okay, that's the pain I'm feeling right now." I reject them. "Thank you so much, this is final decision. I'll never forget you. Don't worry, I'll be fine*.

***

"Lev- I mean Warren, why are you talking right away. Do you think Pat wants to kiss Palm." Keith's introduction from a long silence after I recount the events of the past two years. "But I saw ... he was the first to kiss. I saw it with my two eyes." I replied, holding back tears but not being able to hold my eyes. They poured out, I thought it was consuming slowly.

"Brother Keith, Please, I'm begging you ... don't let Pat know about this. Please, I'm begging you. Give me some time, I'll tell him." I begged "Okay, I'll keep this but Warren, tell everything to Pat early on. I know you still love him and I know he still loves you."

"Thanks Keith, Promise I'll tell him everything ... in recollection. I will say." I replied with confidence. I cried for everything until it was all gone. Kuya Keith and Marvin also left me. I was alone in the dark Coffee Shop.

***

It's been a week since I confessed everything to Brother Keith. He always looks at me with a conscience whenever our paths meet. Pat and I stayed in good contact with Levi. I have mixed feelings and joy, Recollection day today. I was one of those selected to assist. "Warren, I hope you do." I only replied to him with a smile before his companions called him.

***

It was a long drive before we reached the Shercon Resort here in Batangas. It was late at night, and everyone was tired. "Okay! Listen everyone! Let's rest tonight and tomorrow we'll start the activities. So now, go to your room." announcement of the student council president.

I felt like someone was holding me and holding me, when I realized I was just Marvin. he took me to a room that I think is our room. But I made a mistake, because I was pushed inside and shut up. I suddenly felt scared because all the lights inside were gone. Marvin left me here alone. "C'mon! Why is this so? The coyote has even made me leave it. Where is the switch?" I whispered to myself as I clutched the wall.

I stopped abruptly, flapping my nails before turning again but I was shocked to see Pat in front of me while the index finger was still holding the light switch.

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