Chapter 1

Dear reader. I'd like to inform you, that what I wrote is more of a story than a novel. I hope you're still gonna be able to enjoy it. Have fun reading!

I'm Shadow Twilight (14) and a first-year college student. I have long black hair, turquoise eyes and pale skin. There isn't anything I'm good at except for singing, so I practically live in the library, where I read books or manga (I'm an Otaku) in my free time. As you can see, the only other positive thing about me is, that I know alot (Because of that I skipped a few years of school). I dont have any other hobbies. I'm rather shy and don't like to talk with others. This is the reason no one knows of my talent (singing) except for my only an best friend Silica Clearwater (16, my classmate). I did try to communicate with others at first. But l don't now how to approach people and even less, how to talk to them. It's especially worse when my crush Neji (17, a class above me) is around. Because of that l do my best to stay invisible and stay out of attention. That works pretty well. That is, up to the point where people bump into me. Whenever that happens, they start to bully me and do mean things. If that's the case, all of the students from a circle around me and watch as if it was some kind of show to entertain them. What pains me the most is, that he is there too. I'm talking about Neji, the boy I have a crush on. He has short black hair and a long fringe covering his right eye. He has light brown eyes, is quite tall and has a good figure. But to be honest, I really have a bad taste in men, because he is one of the troublemakers in school. He's really good at pe (sports) and mastered multiple different martial arts. But he's not good at any other subjects, especially math and languages (don't ask me how I know that, I don't stalk him). He has less than 15 points in these subject's tests. He not only watches me getting bullied by my classmates but laughs at me with all the other people. And that's even worse than the bullying itself. I've already gone through all sorts of humiliation from nails in my shoes to ripped school books, which I found in the toilat bowl. Just yesterday I got pushed into the small fountain on our school grounds. At least there's one person who cares for me, and that's Silica. She's my clasmate and the only one who's always by my side and comforts me when I need it. And for that, I'm really grateful. She's the only one I'm able to talk normally with. She is the opposite of me, self confident and cute, while I hide my face behind my long, black hair. Sometimes I envy her because of that, but she always tells me that I have my own charm and that I shouldn't hide my beauty behind my hair. I know she trys to help me and make me smile, but I have a hard time believing her. Although I do smile when I'm with her. She's always there when I need her and I can rely on her. We often learn together and I help her with her studies. That way, it's much more fun learning. But because was always with me, she got bullied to. I don't want her to have difficulties because of me and I have been bullied for more than half a year, so I decided, it'd be my last day in school.

It's Saturday and I'm getting ready for a ,,walk". After leaving the house l slowly walk along the street while watching the cherry blossoms fall from the trees. I like the name Sakura, which means Cherry blossom. If I'd ever had a daughter, I would definitely call her that. I'm getting a bit gloomy thinking about it, since I'm never gonna be mother anyways. After a while, I arrive at my destination, a small cliff. I watch the sky and the see for a while. Then I apologize to Silica in my mind, as I close my eyes and step over the edge, falling into the blue ocean. I hear a loud splash, then there's nothing. Not the slightest sound. The peaceful atmosphere of the quiet soothes me. I open my eyes again. I hover in the midst of a deep, shimmering blue. Above me, l can see gentle sunbeams lighten up the water. It's the most beautiful thing I have ever seen. I smile. I wish for this moment to never end, but then l start to feel pressure un my lungs. As if that wasn't enough, i get caught in a stream, pulling me closer and closer to a whirlpool l notice only now. My head is starting to spinn, and in an urge for oxygen l open my mouth, breathing in the salty water. I feel dizzy, my head hurts. I see a white, bright shining spiral, the l get surroundet by a dark nothingness.

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