Into the Pits of Despair

I followed them closely and watched as they went into a smoothie shop and then to a park. I hid behind a tree. I heard them talking and they started to discuss things concerning Leo's memories. Then I heard my name.

"- Skyler White a lot and she's your childhood friend. Your grades are pretty high. I think that's about it."

"Hey Leo, could you do me a favor?"

"What is it?"

"I actually like Skyler and I was hoping you could help me out. You seemed pretty close but it looked as though you guys didn't have a relationship so..."

"Sure. I'll do my best."

I collapsed on the ground. After a while, the two of them left. I cried. Tears streaked down my face as I hugged my knees to my chest. I couldn't do anything. I lied to Leo. I lied to Mike. I lied to myself.

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Doug Collins once said, "I've always said you have to go through a lot of heartache in life to feel joy." If that's true then I haven't felt any real joy yet. Mike asked me to help him out with Skyler and I agreed but I don't really think I can do anything. I rarely talked to her in class and she always ran out when class ended. I still don't believe that we used to be friends. She kept her distance from me and kept to herself. Maybe if I talked to her for a bit. I ran my fingers through my hair.

I looked down at my table and sat there pondering. Who is Skyler? Why does she run? Does Mike actually like her? Why can't I remember anything? Both my heart and head hurt. Why? Why is it painful to look at her? To talk to her? Why? I want torebmemer.

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It's been about 2 and half weeks since Leo came back to school but the doctors have not told us anything, Today, Mrs. Tanner invited me to go to the hospital with her to see if the doctors had made any developments. I told her that I would go. I wanted to know if Leo could get his memory back. I wanted to know if there was a chance. She told me she was going to pick me up so I stood in front of the house waiting. I looked down on my phone and a car drove up.

"Skyler! Are you ready?"

"Yeah. Thank you for the ride Mrs. Tanner."

I reached for the back door and opened it.

"Um. Hi?"

"Hi."

I got in the backseat and closed the door. Of course he would be here! What was I thinking?! I tried to calm down and not look at his face and instead looked out the window. The air was tense. I peeked over at his face. He was sitting facing the other window pulled down, with his black hair lightly sweeping across his eyes and his long hand placed underneath his chin. His green eyes looked as though he could see through everything. I turned away and looked out the window again. We reached the hospital and got out. We came in and waited to see the doctor.

"Hello Mrs. Tanner, it has been a while since we last met. How are you doing?"

"I am fine. More importantly doctor, have you learned anything new?"

"Yes but... Why don't you come into my office?"

"Alright. Skyler. Leo. Stay in the hallway and wait for me while I talk to the doctor."

She went in the room and we were left alone.

" Why don't we go now?"

"Sure."

We walked to the hallway and and stood there. It was awkward and none of us knew what to say. We waited a bit more and I started to panic. What was taking so long?

"I'll go check on your mom."

" What? Wai-."

I ran as fast as I could and when I realized he wasn't following me, I slowed my pace. Being alone with Leo made me realize how weak I was. How I was not able to do anything for anyone I loved. I walked to the doctor's office and heard voices. The door was slightly opened and I heard someone sobbing.

"- sorry but we can't do anything Mrs. Tanner. His disease is one that has never been seen before. Modern medicine cannot help."

"Then what do I do?! He's my only son and he doesn't remember me! If I lose him now what will happen?!"

"Mrs. Tanner! Please calm down. I am sorry but we can not help. The least you could do for him is to let him enjoy his last year."

What? What were they talking about? Last year? Who's? Leo's? No that can't be. I rushed into the room and saw Mrs. Tanner crying and the doctor trying to calm her down.

" You are-."

"Doctor. What do you mean? Last year? What are you talking about?"

"I'm sorry. I cannot tell-."

"It's alright doctor. Thank you but you can tell her. She's my son's best friend."

"I see. Then. I'm very sorry but our hospital has detected a virus, a disease of some sort that is in Leo's blood and it attacks his blood cells. At the rate it's going he will only have about one year left to live. Maybe even less. I'm sincerely sorry but we cannot help."

What? A disease. The realization hit me and I fell on my knees. Leo was going to die.

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The girl came with us. Skyler? I didn't know what to do. The car ride to the hospital was long. I looked out the window to pass the time but the mood was heavy. I wanted to ask her so many questions. Who are you really? Can I trust you? Do you know who I am? If I remember you will you be happy or sad? We reached the hospital and waited until the doctor came. Skyler and I were told to stand in the hallway. As we were walking, I looked at her face from behind. I hadn't payed attention to much to her apperance but it was true that she was cute. I understod why other guys would like her. Her deep blue eyes and long eyelashes. Her long, slim legs that walked elegantly down the hallway. She was pretty but her expression was sad. Her face was pale and her lips were pressed tightly together. Her hand was slightly shaking. We areived in the hallway and waited for my mom. Nurses and patients walked by and it seemed as though the time had stopped. The wait was long and then I heard a step.

"I'll go check on your mom."

" What? Wai-."

And she was gone. What happened? Why did she leave? I guess it didn't matter. I promised Micheal that I would help him. Even so, my heart hurt everytime I looked at her and imagining Michael with her made me feel isolated and lonely. What was this feeling?

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