Every Word Is Like A Sharp Knife

October 4, 20XX

    I met a weird girl today. She was reading a book and she didn't want to talk to anyone. I found out that her name was Skyler White. She was always sitting in the back and was really quiet. I wonder if I'll be able to talk to her more.

May 14 20XX

    School is almost over and we have one more month left until we leave. I think I got closer to Skyler but she's still keeping some distance away from me.

June 11, 20XX 

    It's finally summer. Me and Sky will be able to hang out until school starts again in spring. I want to take her everywhere and have fun. She seems sad these days. I wonder if anything happened. 

August 23, 20XX

    Today we went to see dad. His grave was really dirty so I helped mom clean it up. Whenever mom goes to visit the grave, she always has tears in her eyes. I don't want to see her cry. I'll do my best to make her happy.

October 12, 20XX

    It's really cold. I just want to stay inside but I wouldn't be able to meet with Sky if I did. There wasn't any snow yet and some trees still had some cherry blossoms. I wonder what Skyler is doing right now.

I turned the pages of the journal to the more recent ones.

July 4, 20XX 

    I want to take Sky out to the beach and let her see the fireworks. She looks like she's having fun these days even though school was going to start soon. Maybe I should take her to see the cherry blossoms since we missed them in spring. There were some places that still had blossoms in the autumn. I really want her to smile more.

August 16, 20XX

    School has started and it feels like everything is still the same. I really want to have fun this year. There are only about 2 more years before we graduate. Mike is in the same class too. He is still as tall as before. Maybe even taller. The 3 of us have been hanging out every day and for some reason, Sky keeps trying to avoid him but I don't think she hates him. I hope they become friends then Sky wouldn't have only me.

December 25 20XX

    It's Christmas! Today was really fun. The 3 of us all went out and played in the snow. Skyler was laughing a lot. I never noticed but the way she smiled was cute. She had small dimples and her cheeks would puff up. Her laugh was like a bell. Loud and cheerful. I want this time to continue forever.

February 14, 20XX

    Today was Valentine's day. Sky gave me some chocolate and apparently it was homemade. She gave some to Mike as well but for some reason, I didn't like it. I kept it to myself though. I wonder what this feeling is. 

May 28, 20XX

    I think I fell in love with Sky. Every time I see her my face feels warm and when I see her with other guys, my chest feels tight even though I know that she doesn't like them. Small details about her catch my eye like how she twirls the bottom of her hair when she's nervous or when she's happy she starts fiddling with her fingers. Small things that people wouldn't usually pay attention to.

June 1, 20XX

    I love Skyler. I finally realized it. She hasn't noticed my feelings but I know that I love her. Every little thing that she does makes me fall in love even more. The pain in my chest finally blossomed when I confirmed it. Tomorrow I'll confess to her. 

June 18, 20XX

    Even though I confessed to her awhile ago, she hasn't responded. We still hung out since it was summer but she looked absentminded. I know this is my fault but I want to know how she feels about me. I have to know.

August 17, 20XX

    We're back in school and tomorrow I want an answer. It's been a really long time now and I don't want her to forget. I'll ask her again because I love her.

That was the last entry in the journal. I looked down and saw the pages getting wet. I looked at the mirror and there were tears streaming down my face. This journal couldn't be real. I liked her? I wiped away the tears but more replaced them. I still didn't understand her actions but if this journal was all of my thoughts then they must be real. I had fallen in love with Skyler.

Then a ringing in my ears. Where was it coming from? It was getting louder. Then my chest started to burn. I grabbed it and tried to get up. What's going on? What is happening? At this point, the ringing had gotten to the point where I couldn't hear anything else and it made my head throb in pain. All of a sudden, it felt like a hot spike was being stabbed through me. I fell on my knees clutching my shirt trying to endure it when all of a sudden, the ringing accelerated making my brain feel like exploding and I collapsed just as I heard the doorbell ring.

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